Renew!

{"messages":[{"id":457784024,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk woke up in a very uncomfortable position.. He didnu2019t realise he actually slept on his wheelchair early morning when his tears were dried and eyes tired.."},{"id":457784025,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk woke up and caressed his nape.. but suddenly was shocked to see her husband getting ready infront of the mirror.. Tae had a blank expression and he didnu2019t even give a single glance to his moon.."},{"id":457784026,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae was making his tie proper while looking in the mirror.. he soon got ready and wore his overlarge coat. He took his office bag and turned to leave when Gukk hold his hand.."},{"id":457784027,"character_id":0,"type":3,"image_path":"contribute/fiction/1608921/chatstory/10037299/1611138027.png","image_width":427,"image_height":717},{"id":457784028,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae stopped but didnu2019t look at gukk..this was killing the younger.. no matter what.. Tae can give angry looks but never stopped looking at gukk.."},{"id":457784029,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"Tae.. (says softly with a sad tone)"},{"id":457784030,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Donu2019t! (Turns and removed Gukku2019s hand away from his wrist)"},{"id":457784031,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Donu2019t call my name with your cheating mouth.."},{"id":457784032,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"Tae.. I am sorry.. (says weakly)"},{"id":457784033,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"I would rather see how you will feel when someone cheats your love.."},{"id":457784034,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"Tae (about to cry)"},{"id":457784035,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Stop.. just stop.."},{"id":457784036,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"You have got what you wanted.. FCK off now.. and donu2019t ever call me Tae.."},{"id":457784037,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"I only allow that to my moon not some stranger like you.."},{"id":457784038,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Among both of us.. only I was the faithful one.. remember that.. between you and me only my love was honest.. be happy.. you will soon get your so-called offspring.."},{"id":457784039,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"And from now on..you can only call me master.. since you have no other place in this house apart from this.. not even as my wife.."},{"id":457784040,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"(Starts to cry badly)"},{"id":457784041,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"(Leaves from there)"},{"id":457784042,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk canu2019t believe this is happening with him.. no matter what.. Tae would never abandon him like that.. but Gukk knows.. he deserves this.. whatu2019s with this offspring hunger that he had to really fool Tae.. he disobeyed his husband.."},{"id":457784043,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk started to tear up.."},{"id":457784044,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Meanwhile, Tae was walking towards his car on the mansion ground when Ari came infront of him with a bright smile.. Taeu2019s anger fumed looking at her.."},{"id":457784045,"character_id":8677712,"type":2,"content":"Hubby.. I am missing you.."},{"id":457784046,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Snap.."},{"id":457784047,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae snapped and he held Ariu2019s jaw harshly and brought close to him.."},{"id":457784048,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Listen you b!tch.. just because you got under my pants.. that doesnu2019t mean you will show me your face and talk to me as if I am your husband.. My d!ck even doesnu2019t feel like twitching by looking at your ugly soul.. your face doesnu2019t even appeal me.."},{"id":457784049,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Stay in your limits while talking to me.. donu2019t go walking around calling me your husband.. you are nothing but a piece of shit for me.."},{"id":457784050,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"(Pushes Ari away from his face and walks further.. hops inside his car and drives away from there)"},{"id":457784051,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk didnu2019t do anything that day.. how could he.. he is fcking on a wheel chair.. it was Taeu2019s work to get him ready and take care of him.. but Tae was now his master.. and he canu2019t expect those things from him.. so Gukk stayed inside his room the entire day on the wheelchair doing nothing but drowning in his sorrow.. the pain was too much.. Gukk thought last night was the most difficult part but no.. itu2019s the difference in Taeu2019s feelings for him.."},{"id":457784052,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"The night came and Tae returned.. He saw Gukk still in the same place where he left him earlier the morning.. Taeu2019s expression didnu2019t change.. although.. deep down he was worried for his wife.. did the younger eat or at least shower? These thoughts roamed in Taeu2019s mind but the master managed to shrug all of these.."},{"id":457784053,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae changed into his comfortable clothes and left from the room to his study area.."},{"id":457784054,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"He stayed there most of the evening.. and Gukk made no movements still.."},{"id":457784055,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Past midnight.. Tae couldnu2019t stop worrying for his wife.. the younger is on a wheelchair and still weak.. so he decided to go back to his bedroom.. Tae saw again the same Gukk sitting with hideous face and saying nothing.."},{"id":457784056,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae sighed.. he went to gukk and picked him up.."},{"id":457784057,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"He gave bath to gukk and dressed him in proper clothes.. food was ordered, which arrived soon.. Tae gave it to gukk.."},{"id":457784058,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Eat! (Commands with a blank expression)"},{"id":457784059,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"(Nods quietly and eats his food himself)"},{"id":457784060,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"When Gukk was done.. Tae put the younger on the bed and laid at his bedside.. Tae turned his face away.. and drifted to sleep.."},{"id":457784061,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk couldnu2019t sleep"},{"id":457784062,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"He kept staring at Taeu2019s back.."},{"id":457784063,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Was he that much in wrong that he has now lost not only half part of his body.. his offspring but also his only strength his husband.."},{"id":457784064,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"The next day came.."},{"id":457784065,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae again continued to take care of his wifeu2019s work while the latter was not allowed to say anything.."},{"id":457784066,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae doesnu2019t even glance at his wife.. meanwhile.. Ari has maintained her distance because she knows Tae will kill her if she provokes him.."},{"id":457784067,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"For Gukk.. Tae doing his husband duty and still not talking to gukk was tortoruing him a lot.."},{"id":457784068,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"This has been continuing for a whole week now.."},{"id":457784069,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae canu2019t abandon Gukk easily.. how can he? But"},{"id":457784070,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"If two people in love are not on same page but one of them is physically weak.. the other has to bend .. itu2019s a psychological thing.. If you love.. you keep your pride and anger aside for the weaker one.:"},{"id":457784071,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae didnu2019t keep anger aside but he definitely dint let his pride stop his husband duty.."},{"id":457784072,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae worries for Gukk and thatu2019s the truth.."},{"id":457784073,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"But Gukk was now dying deeply inside.."},{"id":457784074,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"He wants his Tae back.. he wants his husband to be the same like before.. and Gukk has nothing left with him.."},{"id":457784075,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"He feels so lost and tortured.. that he hates even being alive..."},{"id":457784076,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Another week passed and things didnu2019t change for good but continued to be cold.."},{"id":457784077,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae never abandoned Gukk still.. he also never let Ari enter his life again.."},{"id":457784078,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae in this situation was a very strong man.. and he lived up to his name.. Kim Taehyung.. but internally only he knows how broken and cheated on he feels.."},{"id":457784079,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"One night.."},{"id":457784080,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae wasnu2019t home.. he was caught up in work.."},{"id":457784081,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk has been miserable for quite sometime now.. His depression escalated.. he feels nothing but a piece of burden on everyoneu2019s life.. he doesnu2019t want to feel like that way.. internally.. he is fighting to be strong.. but this time with Tae being like this.. Gukku2019s vision and sanity are bleak.."},{"id":457784082,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk knows Tae is angry but.. Tae doesnu2019t show him his anger because he is weak.. what a burden? The words echoed in Gukku2019s ear.. His eyes were darkening with dangerous thoughts.."},{"id":457784083,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Suddenly another voice echoed.. its the voice of himself.. a tiny, yet strong voice.. what if he dies?"},{"id":457784084,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Yes.."},{"id":457784085,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"What if he dies?"},{"id":457784086,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"The voice said confidently.. no pain then.. no suffering then.. no being burden then.. no harming Tae then.. only peaceful days.. only peaceful life for Tae.."},{"id":457784087,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Yes! The voice says while taking control of Gukk.."},{"id":457784088,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Itu2019s Gukku2019s inner thoughts.. they are suicidal ones.."},{"id":457784089,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk wheels and stands before the mirror in his bedroom.. he looks at himself.. he can see immense hatred for himself when he sees how stupid and selfish he is.."},{"id":457784090,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"The voice said.. you are nothing but a bad person.. Get off Taeu2019s life!"},{"id":457784091,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Get off.. get off.."},{"id":457784092,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Stop hurting him.. stop it"},{"id":457784093,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"You deserve to die.."},{"id":457784094,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Die.. you stupid.. die..."},{"id":457784095,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"The voice was getting louder and louder inside Gukk.."},{"id":457784096,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"He canu2019t help it but agree to that voice.. he fcked up.. he messed up his own life.. his own marriage life.. his own husband.."},{"id":457784097,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk doesnu2019t even want now my kids.. he doesnu2019t want it.. he wants only his Tae.."},{"id":457784098,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Too late though now to think this way.. the voice echoed.."},{"id":457784099,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"You pushed your own husband to touch someone else.. if you canu2019t do the same then why did you do that to your husband .. the voice growls at him.."},{"id":457784100,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk lost it.. he doesnu2019t know for how long he stood before that mirror.. he has no idea.. maybe half an hour or an hour or two hours or maybe more.. but the battle to find some optimism and positive emotions was lost against the pain he created for himself and his husband.."},{"id":457784101,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk wiped his tears and looked coldly at himself.. he went closer to the mirror cabinet.. he opened one of the cabinet drawer.. and removed a scissor out.. Gukk looked again at himself.."},{"id":457784102,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"Yeah.. you should die!"},{"id":457784103,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"You are good for nothing.. what have you done you idiot.."},{"id":457784104,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"How could you hurt Tae like this.. you should die.. yes.. yes.. thatu2019s right..thatu2019s good.. thatu2019s the right thing to do.. (says madly)"},{"id":457784105,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk is an orthopedist.. he can use that scissor wisely to kill himself.. Gukk is burdened with an heavy weight of suffering.. no one is understanding him.. itu2019s better to not live.."},{"id":457784106,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk with shivering hand.. placed the tip of the scissor before his chest.. Gukk closed his eyes.. tears are non stop now.."},{"id":457784107,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk is scared to kill himself but he sees no escape from this blame which he truly deserves.. Gukk is weak letu2019s consider that.. do you know mental trauma.. thatu2019s Gukku2019s state right now.."},{"id":457784108,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk pressed both his lips tightly.. to stop himself from crying in pain when the time that scissors pierced inside his chest.. he closed his eyes and before beginning.. Gukk parted his mouth to only utter the only truth of his life..."},{"id":457784109,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I love you so much Tae.. I am sorry for everything.."},{"id":457784110,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk pressed his lips again and was ready.. the tip of the scissors almost touched his chest.. when a strong hand held Gukku2019s hand at exactly that moment.. Gukk tried to pierce those scissors again but the strong hand fought back.. Gukk opened his eyes and is stunned.."},{"id":457784111,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"He sees Tae.."},{"id":457784112,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae who looked even angrier then before.. then before all those painful days.. Taeu2019s eyes were teary as they stare angrily at gukk.. the younger let go of the scissors and gulped..."},{"id":457784113,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae threw those scissor away and turned Gukk to face him.. Tae for the first time.."},{"id":457784114,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"(Slaps Gukk harshly)"},{"id":457784115,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukku2019s milky white cheek was red now.. but he didnu2019t feel bad about the slap.. he deserved it.."},{"id":457784116,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukk looked down on his feet.. but Tae pulled Gukku2019s chin up and growled on the youngeru2019s face.."},{"id":457784117,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"HOW COULD YOU DO THIS"},{"id":457784118,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"HOW COULD YOU TAKE AWAY YOUR LIFE THAT EASILY"},{"id":457784119,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"DIDNT YOU THINK OF ME"},{"id":457784120,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"HOW COULD YOU LEAVE ME ALONE HERE"},{"id":457784121,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"HOW"},{"id":457784122,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"HOW COULD BE SO CRUEL.."},{"id":457784123,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":457784124,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I donu2019t deserve all this"},{"id":457784125,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I regret everything"},{"id":457784126,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I donu2019t want you to be married to someone else"},{"id":457784127,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I donu2019t want any offspring now"},{"id":457784128,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I donu2019t want anything"},{"id":457784129,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I just want you to be happy and I made you sad"},{"id":457784130,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I destroyed your life"},{"id":457784131,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I donu2019t deserve to live"},{"id":457784132,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I should die in hell ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":457784133,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I am such a burden.. I am a waste.. I destroyed your life.. I destroyed my own life.. I"},{"id":457784134,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I should"},{"id":457784135,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I should die ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":457784136,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Shut up.. (kneels before Gukk)"},{"id":457784137,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Look at me.."},{"id":457784138,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"Noooi ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d (closes his eyes)"},{"id":457784139,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I should die ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":457784140,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"(Picked Gukk up)"},{"id":457784141,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"(Hides him in his embrace)"},{"id":457784142,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"You canu2019t leave me my moon.. you canu2019t.. I can only suffer as long as I see you alive.. as long as I see you happy.. (caressing Gukku2019s back)"},{"id":457784143,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I donu2019t deserve it.."},{"id":457784144,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"You deserve the whole world my soul.. itu2019s not your fault.."},{"id":457784145,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"These are just situations which made us take many hard decisions"},{"id":457784146,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I canu2019t forgive myself.. (nuzzles in Taeu2019s chest)"},{"id":457784147,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"I forgive you.."},{"id":457784148,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Please donu2019t harm yourself like this.. I canu2019t.. I canu2019t live without you.."},{"id":457784149,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Why are you so determined to take all the wrong decisions.."},{"id":457784150,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Stay and fight all these hardships with me.."},{"id":457784151,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I am sorry Tae.. I cheated you.. I am sorry.. I want to die.. this is the worst I can do.. ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":457784152,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Ssssh..."},{"id":457784153,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"(Pulls Gukk away and kisses him softly on his lips)"},{"id":457784154,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae just kept $ucking Gukku2019s lips softly and slowly.. to calm his wife.."},{"id":457784155,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukku2019s eyes were closed and he just hummed on Taeu2019s touch.. but tears were non-stop.."},{"id":457784156,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Tae pulled away after few minutes.. he looked deeply in Gukku2019s eyes with all his love.."},{"id":457784157,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Gukku2019s eyes were glistening with pain.. they looked very fragile.."},{"id":457784158,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Promise.. me.. you will never harm yourself.. please"},{"id":457784159,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I am sorry.. (nods)"},{"id":457784160,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I promise.."},{"id":457784161,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"(About to cry again)"},{"id":457784162,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"You are such a dimwit.. If I am angry that doesnu2019t mean.. I will be angry forever with you.."},{"id":457784163,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"You are my everything Tae.. (hiccups)"},{"id":457784164,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Ofcorse I know and looks like you were leaving your everything here all alone.."},{"id":457784165,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"It was not easy.. (bites his lips)"},{"id":457784166,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"(Sighs)"},{"id":457784167,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"My moon.. I am sorry I touched someone else.. I was not in my state.."},{"id":457784168,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"Then.. let me.. remove those bad touches away form your body.."},{"id":457784169,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"Let my existence engulf in you.. (says confidently)"},{"id":457784170,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"I donu2019t want to harm you.."},{"id":457784171,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"You do know that right.."},{"id":457784172,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"You can never harm me.. only you can never"},{"id":457784173,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"(Touches his forehead with Taeu2019s)"},{"id":457784174,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"Please.. I want to wipe that bad memory away from you.. (whispers on Taeu2019s lips)"},{"id":457784175,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Hmmmmm.. you can always wipe away all the bad memories of my life by staying beside me.. (says wisely with all his love)"},{"id":457784176,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"Please.. (whispers again)"},{"id":457784177,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I am ready.."},{"id":457784178,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"I promise you.. even when that voice pushes me to kill myself.. I will not do this again.. but please.. let me renew your soul (tears roll down his eyes and falls on Taeu2019s lips)"},{"id":457784179,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"(Opens his eyes and looks delicately at gukk)"},{"id":457784180,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"(Wipes those tears from Gukku2019s eyes away gently from his thumb)"},{"id":457784181,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"(Trails his thumb down on Gukku2019s cheeks)"},{"id":457784182,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"(Nuzzles his forehead with Gukku2019s more and whispers)"},{"id":457784183,"character_id":7111898,"type":2,"content":"Then letu2019s renew our souls together.. (whispers while rubbing his lips with Gukku2019s lips)"},{"id":457784184,"character_id":7111904,"type":2,"content":"(Nods while doing the same with Taeu2019s lips)"},{"id":457792129,"character_id":7123157,"type":2,"content":"I think everyone is so busy blaming Gukk.. but many of you forget.. whatu2019s the time zone of this novel.. since the start I have show how marriage is important, how holding respect and bride is important.. how loving only one is important and how a child is important.. itu2019s not the generation of modern world now.. where people can even easily abort and care less about it... where couples who stay together for so many ears can divorce in the blink of an eye.. where loving is not enough.. listen.. I tried to portray a traditional destined love here.. and I can give examples of reality that kids, husband , marriage and being weak is very important.. and a big deal.. being physically flawed is a mental trauma.. and anyone is bound to be not wise, thoughtful and all the time knowing right.."},{"id":457792130,"character_id":7123157,"type":2,"content":"And of suffering.. whatu2019s the best suffering.. I can tell you with personal experience.. best suffering is not physically attained.. but mentally.. indeed Tae and Gukk and everyone else is suffering with baeku2019s coma.. but shizoonu2019s suffering is mental.. if I go on to tell you how.. you will be amazed.. that itu2019s real.. I understand every suffering is different and just at itu2019s place.. but still it is always better to be physically weak then mentally.. it is always better to suffer physically then mentally.. thatu2019s what I believe"}]}