Baby Bear!

{"messages":[{"id":346990936,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Tae responded to Kwanu2019s kiss unintentionally.. It was his first kiss and that too with his first love.. How couldnu2019t he respond to it.. Tae closed his eyes and tightened his grip around Kwanu2019s neck.. they kissed for 5 mins until Kwan letu2019s go of Tae gently.. Kwan wipes Taeu2019s lip.. and deeply look into his eyes.. Taeu2019s face was flushed and flustered.. Both of their heartbeat could be heard loudly.. Kwan smiles sweetly at Tae, but the latter pouts and looks down.."},{"id":346990937,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"Wae.. did.. you kiss me.. (looks nervously down)"},{"id":346990938,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"Because then I can be your boyfriend.. (whispers)"},{"id":346990939,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"What about that girl who was kissing you (looks angrily at Kwan)"},{"id":346990940,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"I never kissed her back.. she just gave me a sudden kiss and I was about to push her but you did it first.."},{"id":346990941,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"That means you donu2019t love her (looks brightly at Kwan)"},{"id":346990942,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"Never.. I have eyes only for you.."},{"id":346990943,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"Huh?"},{"id":346990944,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"Paboo.. I love you.. hehe"},{"id":346990945,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"(Blinks with his wide almond eyes and gives a boxy smile)"},{"id":346990946,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"Do you love me? (Anxious)"},{"id":346990947,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"(Looks down and nods shyly)"},{"id":346990948,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"(Hides Tae in his arms)"},{"id":346990949,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Since then.. the two became official couple.. well it was not a big news for other kids there.. because everybody really thought Kwan was indeed Taeu2019s to be husband.."},{"id":346990950,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Kwan was so happy.. he was really on top of the moon.. He canu2019t believe he has found love and that too such a beautiful love.."},{"id":346990951,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Taeu2019s innocence and submission towards Kwan.. thatu2019s what made Kwan fall in love with Tae.."},{"id":346990952,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Kwan was very careful towards Tae.. He wanted to ensure everything around his boyfriend was good.. Kwan started to take care of everything that was related to Tae.. Like feed him, bath him, even cloth him and cuddle him to sleep.. Tae was very attached to Kwan even before they became lovers.. thatu2019s because Kwan was first his friend, his hyung, his family and then he became his boyfriend.. There are many relations with Kwan that Tae valued deeply.."},{"id":346990953,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"But even Tae wasnu2019t aware how deeply Kwan loved him.. How he was the Apple of Kwanu2019s eyes.."},{"id":346990954,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Although they had many intimate moments like cuddling and making out.. Kwan never dared to go extreme with Tae.. There were many reasons for it.. like.. firstly Kwan believes that almond eyes boy is way precious for everything, secondly Tae was young and Kwan didnu2019t wanted to hurt him and thirdly.. Kwan wanted his relationship to grow with Tae more like a soulful not as a normal lovers.. Kwan was ready to wait as long as possible to make l0ve with Tae.. He didnu2019t care as long as Tae stood beside him.."},{"id":346990955,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"The way their relationship was.. no one would even dream that Kwan was even capable to hurt Tae.. who could have imagined.. even I couldnu2019t when I heard their stories.."},{"id":346990956,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"But I believe.. when you love someone so deeply... you become hungry.. you become selfish and you become more determined to give better life to that someone you love.."},{"id":346990957,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"Kwan was on the same path.."},{"id":346990958,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Kwan never shared with Tae, but he would always sometime sit alone away from the orphanage.. thinking about planning life with Tae.. Kwan wanted to buy a big house, a big healthy life for Tae.. for how long do they plan to stay at the orphanage.. Ofcorse not life time.. they also need to move ahead.. and Kwan wanted to do that.."},{"id":346990959,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Too much desires, can sometime fog your mind.."},{"id":346990960,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Kwan was not educated.. obviously he wouldnu2019t get a proper job.. now Kwan could have taken jobs which fitted his profile, but that wouldnu2019t help him earn big right.. that would be just peanuts.."},{"id":346990961,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Thinking all these Kwan would get frustrated.."},{"id":346990962,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"One day.."},{"id":346990963,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"Hyung (says brightly and walks near Kwan)"},{"id":346990964,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"(Looks back and smiles at Tae)"},{"id":346990965,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"What are you doing here.. sitting all alone at the roof.. I was missing you na (pouts)"},{"id":346990966,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"I am frustrated"},{"id":346990967,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"Wae? (Worried)"},{"id":346990968,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"I want to marry you and I want to give you a happy and healthy life.."},{"id":346990969,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"Aisssh (blushes)"},{"id":346990970,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"And I thought.. it was something really serious.."},{"id":346990971,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"Marrying you is not a serious thing.. (irritated)"},{"id":346990972,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"Nonono.. thatu2019s not what I meant.. I mean.. we have enough time for it.. and with time everything will fall into places... letu2019s just enjoy life na (gives boxy smile)"},{"id":346990973,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"(Smiles) you can make everything alright with your smile you know.."},{"id":346990974,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"I am blessed to have it as mine.."},{"id":346990975,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"Aissh.. such a cheesy lover.. (shows tongue)"},{"id":346990976,"character_id":6960739,"type":2,"content":"You brat (tickles Tae)"},{"id":346990977,"character_id":6960738,"type":2,"content":"Hehehehe.. hyung.. it hurts.. hehehe (laughing loudly)"},{"id":346990978,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Taeu2019s attention and care towards Kwan would most of the time distract Kwan from his ambitions.. but not all the time.. and one day the opportunity knocked Kwanu2019s door.."},{"id":346990979,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Kwanu2019s one of the orphanage friend who ran away from there few years ago.. met Kwan on a street.. they catched up for a while and the friend shared with Kwan of ways to make easy and big money.."},{"id":346990980,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"The friend was into drug$ and gambling.. Kwan was a smart boy.. he immediately adapted that life.. he even started to make good money.."},{"id":346990981,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Oh the joy Kwan had for earning that big amount was unexplainable.. his eyes would shine looking at those bundles of cash.. Kwan would save some and most of the time bring expensive gifts for Tae.."},{"id":346990982,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Tae didnu2019t wanted so many expensive gifts.. whatu2019s the use of it.. he would think.. he barely goes out.. but to not sadden his boyfriend Tae would accept it all.."},{"id":346990983,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Just like that days passed and soon Tae turned 15 and Kwan was now 20 years old.. Their relationship was good.. but Tae have now started to feel lonely.. because Kwan has become very busy.. He barely came to orphanage.. Infact he only stayed in the orphanage for the sake of being close to Tae.. sometimes Tae would nag to Kwan for spending sometime with him.. But Kwan who didnu2019t dare to raise his voice on Tae, have now started to become angry and iritated every time Tae whined.."},{"id":346990984,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"But the innocent almond eyes boy, didnu2019t take every hurt of Kwan to his heart.. How could he.. itu2019s his Kwan we are talking about.. The one who protects him and loves him.."},{"id":346990985,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"I think the turning point of their relationship was an incident.. one day.. Kwan was returning to the orphanage after two days.. He had flowers in his hand and he was excited to see Tae.."},{"id":346990986,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"As he entered the orphanage and walked near the garden.. He saw a boy kneeling before Tae and proposing him.. The boy didnu2019t give any chance to Tae for reacting.. The boy just kissed Tae on his cheeks and this just flipped every senses of Kwan.. Kwan dropped the flowers and ran towards that boyu2019s direction.. Kwan started to beat the boy badly.. The boy was in fact so badly beaten, that he was covered in blood and unconscious.. Tae couldnu2019t watch all this and he fainted.. Kwan got worried and rushed Tae to the infirmartary.. after sometime Tae woke up.. Kwan apologised to Tae a lot and once again Tae ignored his acts and forgave him.."},{"id":346990987,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"After two days no one ever heard from the boy who proposed Tae.."},{"id":346990988,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"That was the beginning of Kwanu2019s madness.. He would beat and torture anyone who came near Tae.. my boy was so so lonely.. He didnu2019t have any friends and a boyfriend who barely spent time with him.."},{"id":346990989,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"Six months before I adopted Tae.. all the hell went loose for my boy.."},{"id":346990990,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"One day.."},{"id":346990991,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Tae was not able to sleep and he kept taking twists and turns on his bed..."},{"id":346990992,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Kwan was present there in the orphanage.. He snuck few of his friends in his domitary.. they did drugs and alcohol.. Kwan was so high.. he barely had any senses left inside him.. He was just sleeping lifeless on the floor.. Tae who couldnu2019t sleep, decided to sleep with Kwan"},{"id":346990993,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"So excitedly, Tae grabbed his blanket and sprinted dancingly towards Kwanu2019s domitary.. when Tae opened the door, he was shocked to see the sight.. Kwan was drunk laying on the floor and his two friends were taking drugs and laughing talking to each other.. Tae got worried for Kwan.. Tae didnu2019t even knew what alcohol or drugs did to people.. so he anxiously went near Kwan and started to wake him up.. this brought the attention of those boys towards Tae.. they were mesmerised by Taeu2019s beauty.. and that night they forced themselves on Tae.."},{"id":346990994,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Tae kept shouting Kwanu2019s name but the latter didnu2019t even budged.. The friends left after sometime and Tae laid there n@ked lifeless in pain.. the morning came, and Kwan opened his eyes only to find his Tae laying on bed.. Taeu2019s bottoms were covered in blood.. Taeu2019s eyes were open.. the boy didnu2019t even dared to close his eyes in pain.."},{"id":346990995,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Kwan immediately wrapped Tae and took him to shower.. he canu2019t believe that this his Tae.. He is dirty now.. He is tainted.."},{"id":346990996,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"That morning everything changed for both of them.. Kwan was guilty but more angry.. He hated the fact that Tae was touched by someone else before him.. He found Tae so dirty and disgusting that he started to abuse Tae on a daily basis.."},{"id":346990997,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Tae on the other hand, was disgusted with himself.. He would cry everyday.. and the worst part was that Kwan never looked at him with the same loving eyes again.."},{"id":346990998,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Yes Kwan changed.. But instead blaming his friends, he blamed Tae.."},{"id":346990999,"character_id":6968536,"type":2,"content":"Who the FCK told you to be this beautiful.. itu2019s all your fault.. you were fcking mine and now I canu2019t even look at you (thru$ting inside Tae)"},{"id":346991000,"character_id":6968537,"type":2,"content":"Hyung.. it hurts please.. leave me.. hyung.. (crying in pain..)"},{"id":346991001,"character_id":6968536,"type":2,"content":"Do you think anybody would love someone like you.."},{"id":346991002,"character_id":6968536,"type":2,"content":"People like you are call wh0res.. just for use and throw."},{"id":346991003,"character_id":6968536,"type":2,"content":"I still love you.. so I am the only one you can love and stay with.."},{"id":346991004,"character_id":6968537,"type":2,"content":"Hyung please let me go ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":346991005,"character_id":6968537,"type":2,"content":"It pains too much.."},{"id":346991006,"character_id":6968536,"type":2,"content":"Promise me.. you will stay with me forever.. or else people would kill you, torture you, torment your body and use you day and night.. do you understand me.."},{"id":346991007,"character_id":6968537,"type":2,"content":"Yes.. Hyung.. I will never leave you... ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":346991008,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Kwan used the game of mind on Tae.. On making Tae belief that no one would love him.. no one would accept him in the society.. He is a young boy.. what do you expect.. He believed everything what Kwan said.. Tae didnu2019t wanted to die.. There was a tint of hope that Kwan would some day change.. and look at him with the same kind of love he had when he proposed Tae.."},{"id":346991009,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"But Kwan used Tae as his $ex machine.. Kwan was loosing his mind, not that he hasnu2019t lost it already.. but he was loosing his touch in business now.. he was in debt.. in deep deep debt.. so he let people use his Tae.. the orphanage friends of Kwan knew about it and they sometime molested and tortured Tae as well.."},{"id":346991010,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Life was like that for Tae.. he would stand every day in the mirror.. place his both hands index finger on the corner of his lips and try to smile.. his body couldnu2019t let him smile.. His eyes they didnu2019t know how to shine anymore.. his face which was mesmerising is now torn into pieces even if they are still intact.. but nothing compared to the soul he lost.. The boy who once was as pure as a doe.. as pure as a light was now grappled in the pit of darkness.."},{"id":346991011,"character_id":6968537,"type":2,"content":"You are a wh0re (slaps himself while looking in the mirror)"},{"id":346991012,"character_id":6968537,"type":2,"content":"You should die (slaps again)"},{"id":346991013,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"If I hadnu2019t saved him that day.. I think this would have continued his entire life.."},{"id":346991014,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"I adopted him and took him to my fatheru2019s farm at the outskirts of Seoul.. I thought he would be happy and enjoy a good life.. but everything was not alright.. He would sleep on the floor crying near his bed, he would hide under the table, everytime I opened the door.. he would sometime just freeze and think something with an scary face.. a month with him was like that.."},{"id":346991015,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"But one day.. I had gone to buy some games for your brother.. I came back.. and went to his room.. only to find him hanging on a rope which was tied on the fan.. my heart broke into multiple pieces looking at his state.. I immediately got him down and called doctor.. I was lucky that day.."},{"id":346991016,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"Namjoonah, my hands are shivering while writing this.. the thought that your brother would have suicided back then.. scares me still.. how could I let my boy die.. he is my son and he is your brother.. thatu2019s the truth.."},{"id":346991017,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"After lot of pleading and trying to make him comfortable.. one day he finally told me the truth about the orphanage and what happened with him..."},{"id":346991018,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"I filed a case against Kwan and his friends and on everyone who ruined my boy.."},{"id":346991019,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"I hired my friend cheng to take care of Taeu2019s health and Marge as well.."},{"id":346991020,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"Kwan and his friends were guilty.. and they all were sentenced for jail.. but Kwan was sentenced for only three years.. it turned out.. Kwan was a psychopath.. his mental stability was weak, way before he even grew old.. after his 3-years jail, Kwan was sent to rehabilitation.."},{"id":346991021,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"I always wondered what made Kwan do such a horrific thing with Tae.."},{"id":346991022,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"I researched deeper about Kwan.. the facts I found were chilling.."},{"id":346991023,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"Kwanu2019s father was sentenced to lifetime prison for murder of his wife.. And the irony was.. the father murdered his wife infront of Kwan who later became the only witness.. they didnu2019t had any family to take care off.. so Kwan himself walked inside the orphanage.. at least it was better then loneliness.. after Kwan was sent to jail.. Tae was by then 17 and I thought it would be good to bring him to Seoul for change of environment.. Kwan doesnu2019t know Taeu2019s identity.. thatu2019s because with the help of dean over there.. I kept my identity hidden and even the law helped me.. I requested them for the protection of our Tae.."},{"id":346991024,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"I donu2019t know how you would feel after reading this.. but I had to tell you.. I have to protect my Tae.. and I am giving you this responsibility"},{"id":346991025,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"Please donu2019t hate on your brother.. it was never his fault.."},{"id":346991026,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"Tae is just a boy who needs love but doesnu2019t know how to receive it.. since love was the beginning of his darkness.. Tae doesnu2019t know how to feel love.."},{"id":346991027,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"If there ever comes a person who could change Taeu2019s heart.. who could make him love love again.. tell that person from my side Namjoonah.. to always cherish my little Tae... to love my Tae with all honesty and purity.. I am really grateful.."},{"id":346991028,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"I know I must have failed many times to be the good father to you Namjoonah.. but remember I have always loved you equally like Tae.. I think you would understand me.."},{"id":346991029,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"Love to Namjoonah and Taehyungaah.."},{"id":346991030,"character_id":6945280,"type":2,"content":"Father..."},{"id":346991031,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Note - DAmn I cried while writing this.. I didnu2019t know, getting into details would somewhere hurt me also.. I love Taehyung very much.. so it was very hurtful to write this.."},{"id":346991032,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Note - please support this chapter.."},{"id":346991033,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Note - I am done with past.. now we will go reality tomorrow"},{"id":346991034,"character_id":4158434,"type":2,"content":"Note - Letu2019s love and be humble with each and every person we come across.. I purple you all u2764ufe0f"}]}