Accept Yourself!

{"messages":[{"id":443697513,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"So how do you feel Mr Kim Jungkook.. (while opening her book)"},{"id":443697514,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"How shall I describe it.. (sighs and stares at the ceiling)"},{"id":443697515,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Jk was laying on a couch with his fingers intertwined with each other in a psychiatrist room.."},{"id":443697516,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"He has been visiting this place every time his memory comes back to normal.. although.. he doesnu2019t want to visit these sessions, they make him feel really like a sick person.."},{"id":443697517,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"But he canu2019t help it.. His tiger wants it and Jk is fulfilling his wish.. jk in fact is laying before the same psychiatrist who was attending his husband before., she still has sessions with V because.. common.. social anxiety and depression is not easily killed.."},{"id":443697518,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"V knows jk has similar behaviours.. depression and heart ache for not being present with his loved ones., it can be burdensome, and hence v wants jk to open up to everything that the younger finds it difficult to share with him.."},{"id":443697519,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"And hence this session.."},{"id":443697520,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Also when I write jk.. you guys understand that he is back to his normal self.. I am not going to keep on writing oh he is back.. so understand when I saw jk that means his memory is back.."},{"id":443697521,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Back to the session.."},{"id":443697522,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Whatever comes in your mind to describe how you are.. just say it bluntly..(says calmly)"},{"id":443697523,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I feel like I have teleported.. no wait not teleported"},{"id":443697524,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I feel my soul was sucked out from another body.. and itu2019s burning my skin sometime.."},{"id":443697525,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I feel I have lost many days.. I feel like my Gukkie has grown few inches taller and my husband has gotten a little tired.."},{"id":443697526,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I feel burdened that I am in this shit hole.. and I donu2019t know how to escape from it.."},{"id":443697527,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Exhales after accepting what he is feeling)"},{"id":443697528,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Thatu2019s a start.. itu2019s good you can speak about your feelings loudly.. give ear to every words you say.."},{"id":443697529,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"And do what with this! (Frowns while narrowing his eyes at the ceiling)"},{"id":443697530,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"It will help you to understand your emotions and also help you segregate from what you feel and how you should try to feel!"},{"id":443697531,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Hmmmm.. I can understand that now.. (pouts slightly)"},{"id":443697532,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"How did you feel when you saw Gukkie grown a little taller.."},{"id":443697533,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"That I am a bad mother.. I have been selfish behind my health.. (says sadly)"},{"id":443697534,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Do you think, you are a bad eomma?"},{"id":443697535,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"No.. how can I be a bad eomma.. I can never hurt my Gukkie.. I cherish him with all my love.. (says while hmphing)"},{"id":443697536,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"But you just said you are a bad mother? (Smiles fondly)"},{"id":443697537,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"That.. I.. ummm.. (sits immediately and is staring at the psychiatrist)"},{"id":443697538,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"See.. it will help you to understand what you should think and how you should lift yourself.."},{"id":443697539,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Fine you are right! (Lays back on the couch)"},{"id":443697540,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Howu2019s master V treating you?"},{"id":443697541,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Like I am the only important thing for him.. he carries me in his hand as if.. if he keeps me down... I will break immediately.. (smiles sadly)"},{"id":443697542,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Will.. you.."},{"id":443697543,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Break?"},{"id":443697544,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Ofcorse.. I will.. he is a good husband.. (gets emotional while picturing Vu2019s face)"},{"id":443697545,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Sits up again and looks at the psychiatrist with teary eyes)"},{"id":443697546,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I wish.. I am not like this.. itu2019s really burdening me thinking I am losing so many moments with my husband and child.."},{"id":443697547,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"It is understandable to feel like this.. it is indeed a burdensome disease.."},{"id":443697548,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"But why donu2019t you try getting out of it rather than drowning yourself in that burden.."},{"id":443697549,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I donu2019t know how to? (Looks down on his feet while playing with his fingers)"},{"id":443697550,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Accept yourself! (Says smiling)"},{"id":443697551,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Huh?"},{"id":443697552,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Yes.. to be release from every burden, sadness and torture.. you must accept yourself.."},{"id":443697553,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Accept that you are ill.. accept that there is a disease that has latched itself on you.."},{"id":443697554,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Accept that it is what it is.."},{"id":443697555,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"When you accept it, you will be immediately able to release yourself from that burden.."},{"id":443697556,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Does master v or anyone of your family members complaint about your situations"},{"id":443697557,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"What? No never.. they love me deeply! (Says with teary eyes)"},{"id":443697558,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"Thatu2019s because they accept you the way you are irrespective of what has happened to you.."},{"id":443697559,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"If you want to enjoy the same warmth.. why donu2019t you try first accepting yourself.."},{"id":443697560,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"You are right! I will try that.. (nods)"},{"id":443697561,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"I am glad we can agree on something.. you are doing really great.. how about we end on this note then.."},{"id":443697562,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Nods) thank you doctor.."},{"id":443697563,"character_id":5357858,"type":2,"content":"You too Mr Kim Jungkook for confiding in me (smiles sweetly)"},{"id":443697564,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Jk walked out of his therapy session.. feeling a little refreshed within.. He has been hiding these words inside him since he is back.. He really was scared to worry his tiger.. Because jk knows, if anything that worries him.. his tiger will lift the entire world for him just to make him happy.. jk felt good for the first time in a therapy session.. he feels he can motivate himself to accept himself.. because he isnu2019t alone in doing that.."},{"id":443697565,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"As jk was walking out of the clinic.. he saw a pamphlet in one of the stands that were kept there.. he grabbed one pamphlet and walked to a car in which his tiger was waiting for him.."},{"id":443697566,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"V wanted to wait outside the meeting room inside the clinic.. but jk didnu2019t wanted that.. for some reason.. jk feels v has extra long and sharp ears and he can hear everything that he shares with the doctor.. so yes master v was waiting the entire time for his bunny in the car.."},{"id":443697567,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Jk came and sat inside the car on the front seat beside V.. the elder immediately pecked on the youngeru2019s forehead to which jk hummed feeling even more refreshed on Vu2019s touch.."},{"id":443697568,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"How was your session my little one.. (ruffling Jku2019s hair gently)"},{"id":443697569,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"You know i hate these sessions.. (frowns cutely at v)"},{"id":443697570,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Chuckles) but I know you love me very much and hence we are here for that love.."},{"id":443697571,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Thank you my tiger (says with teary eyes)"},{"id":443697572,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Why my soul? (Makes circles on Jku2019s cheek)"},{"id":443697573,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Just that I really liked todayu2019s session and it made me happy.. (says innocently)"},{"id":443697574,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Leans closer and places a soft kiss on Jku2019s lips)"},{"id":443697575,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"You make me happy.. (whispers in Jku2019s ear and leans back to his seat)"},{"id":443697576,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Blushes like 100 times harder)"},{"id":443697577,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Canu2019t stop smiling)"},{"id":443697578,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Chuckles even louder)"},{"id":443697579,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Realises something)"},{"id":443697580,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Looks at V immediately)"},{"id":443697581,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Yes my soul! What is it? (Says with soft eyes)"},{"id":443697582,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I found this pamphlet in the clinic., itu2019s a gathering of people who.. who.. are suffering.. suffering like me.. (stutters sadly)"},{"id":443697583,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Puts the pamphlet before v) can.. can we go there.. itu2019s day after tomorrow! (Says anxiously)"},{"id":443697584,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Jk is anxious because he doesnu2019t know how v will react to such sessions.. jk himself feels a little weird to go there... but to jku2019s surprise, V smiles fondly and shows all his love for him through his face.."},{"id":443697585,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Ofcorse my soul.. itu2019s a good thing.. we will go there okay!"},{"id":443697586,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Yaiiyy (says smiling but his tone is soft)"},{"id":443697587,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"What do you want to do now?"},{"id":443697588,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Can., can I go home.. I want to spend sometime with Gukkie (pouts)"},{"id":443697589,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Yes my soul.. letu2019s do that.. shall I call it in as well? (Says gently)"},{"id":443697590,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Naah.. today only I learn.. I have to accept myself with my sickness.. so I donu2019t want special treatments.."},{"id":443697591,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"And I want things to be as normal as possible between us.. makes me feel normal.."},{"id":443697592,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"And besides I am done making your business get into losses due to all those skipping of works when I am back to normal."},{"id":443697593,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"You donu2019t have to worry about any of these.."},{"id":443697594,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I make big money even with my eyes closed.. (says proudly)"},{"id":443697595,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Show off! (Pouts more)"},{"id":443697596,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I am going to ignore that.. since my soul is happy.."},{"id":443697597,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Itu2019s good I am your soul.. (gives bunny smile)"},{"id":443697598,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Shall we get going then?"},{"id":443697599,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Nods cutely)"},{"id":443697600,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"The day indeed turned out to be normal for taekook.. v returns to his home in the evening after work.. and was welcomed by a same old bunny who jumps immediately in his arms giving wet kisses all over his face and squealing.."},{"id":443697601,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I MISSED"},{"id":443697602,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"You"},{"id":443697603,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"So much"},{"id":443697604,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Kissing all over vu2019s face)"},{"id":443697605,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Chuckles and lets jk do his thing)"},{"id":443697606,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Taekooku2019s family looked perfect.."},{"id":443697607,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"The next day!"},{"id":443697608,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Jk decides to take Gukkie with him to his workplace.. V dropped them both there and headed to his own office.."},{"id":443697609,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"A small playground was prepared for Gukkie to play inside it.. jk kept Gukkie in a small ground of fake mud and kept some toys inside the garden.. Gukkie immediately went on playing with laughter that filled Jku2019s cafe and made every customer in awe of that toddler"},{"id":443697610,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Jk was standing at the counter and watching his innocent baby play.. with a warm smile.."},{"id":443697611,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Suddenly.. a girl came near jk and started to nudge her shoulder with his shoulder.. jk thought she was a mental person.. but when he saw she is wearing his cafeu2019s brand outfit.. he realised she works here.. so jk asked her immediately.."},{"id":443697612,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Who are you? And why are you clinging to me.. get away! (Frowns)"},{"id":443697613,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"What you forgot me? How? ud83eudd7a"},{"id":443697614,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Huh? Are we close? (Confused)"},{"id":443697615,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"Kookiaaah.."},{"id":443697616,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"Did you forget you hired me few days ago.. and we are apparently good friends.. (smiles brightly)"},{"id":443697617,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Jk remembers that his other side must have done that.. so he apologises to Jennie for his behaviour"},{"id":443697618,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I am sorry.. that must be when I was gone! (Smiles politely)"},{"id":443697619,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"(Realises what v told her about Jku2019s condition) oh yes.."},{"id":443697620,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"I am sorry for creeping you out before.. (smiles fondly)"},{"id":443697621,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Itu2019s alright!"},{"id":443697622,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"Can we both also be friends? (Stretches out her hand to shake)"},{"id":443697623,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Yeah sure!"},{"id":443697624,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Now that we are friends.. let me just explain you few things for tomorrow.."},{"id":443697625,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"Oooo.. okay.. okay.. just a sec.. let me just get my special spy pen and notebook! (Turns excitedly and was about to walk ahead)"},{"id":443697626,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Wait! (Stops Jennie)"},{"id":443697627,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"What did you say?"},{"id":443697628,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"Aah.. hehehehe.. *shit I will be definitely killed my that Kai now*"},{"id":443697629,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"I was just joking.."},{"id":443697630,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"(Tried to change the topic)"},{"id":443697631,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Did my husband just made you a spy when I am gone..to keep an eye on people around me when the other side of me is there.."},{"id":443697632,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Looks suspiciously)"},{"id":443697633,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"How did you know? (Gives up and says sadly)"},{"id":443697634,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I stare at that man more than I breath.. I know every single little habit of him.. he canu2019t resist having power and control.."},{"id":443697635,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"And besides my so many customers have ran away scared because of his interrogations.."},{"id":443697636,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"(Smiles while nodding his head left and right thinking about v)"},{"id":443697637,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"Shorry.."},{"id":443697638,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Itu2019s alright.. ummm.. can you spy for me also on me.. whatever you share with him.. let me know.. just in case if I make a mistake.. hehe.."},{"id":443697639,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Donu2019t worry.. he will know about it anyways.. someone is always at guard for me.. and I never know who that is.,"},{"id":443697640,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"Wowww.. you are so cute.."},{"id":443697641,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"And your husband is just amazing"},{"id":443697642,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"But itu2019s scary someone guarding you all the time.."},{"id":443697643,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I am used to it.."},{"id":443697644,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"But do you want to try guessing who is the one guarding me and is in disguise in this cafe.."},{"id":443697645,"character_id":8538840,"type":2,"content":"Yes.. letu2019s do it.."},{"id":443697647,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Both jk and Jennie started to scan each and every customer in the cafe.. they would talk about them and make deductions to find who is vu2019s body guard for jk this time.. they got along really well.."},{"id":443697648,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"The next day came., taekook didnu2019t go at their work., Gukkie was left with jin.."},{"id":443697649,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Taekook travelled for a session which was taking place somewhere in Seoul., it was a 45 min drive from their place and the session will take place the entire day.."},{"id":443697650,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Both V and jk were equally invested in knowing more about derealization and also meet people who suffer with same cause.."},{"id":443697651,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"They reached soon.."},{"id":443697652,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"And entered in room full of people and an expert who was briefing about this illness.."},{"id":443697653,"character_id":0,"type":3,"image_path":"contribute/fiction/1094112/chatstory/10037299/1610202139.png","image_width":738,"image_height":415},{"id":443697654,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Taekook took middle seats and started to give all their attention in the session.."},{"id":443697655,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Late evening when the session was done and taekook also had a good time talking some of the people there,.. the couple decided to go from there.."},{"id":443697656,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Taekook then drove and picked some fast food and drinks for themselves.. they drove and went to a cliff which gave amazing view of seoul city during evening time..."},{"id":443697657,"character_id":0,"type":3,"image_path":"contribute/fiction/1094112/chatstory/10037299/1610202530.png","image_width":681,"image_height":451},{"id":443697658,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Taekook parked their car... V picked jk and made him sit on the back hood of the car.. Jk immediately caged Vu2019s waist between his thighs... v was standing.. jk then opened the eatable bags and they started to eat while enjoying the Seoul city view.."},{"id":443697659,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"The session was really good right?.. (says with sparkling eyes and munching on his food)"},{"id":443697660,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Yes my beautiful soul.. it was indeed very nice.. (takes a bite himself)"},{"id":443697661,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Did you meet that Ajhumma.. she has derealization since 50 years now.. wow... my tiger thatu2019s so many years na.. but she was still happy and warmly person.. (says innocently)"},{"id":443697662,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"But I felt sad when that other noona said that she missed her own daughteru2019s birthday.. that was very sad to me."},{"id":443697663,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"And that young boy.. My tiger (gasps) he was even younger than me.. woah.. but he looked so positive and happy.."},{"id":443697664,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"And that ajhusshi.. his wife was so supportive to him na.. they looked so cute even though the ajhusshi kept complaining he is a burden on earth and to his wife.."},{"id":443697665,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Jk was talking like a sweet innocent child about the session.. He wanted to share so many emotions that he felt meeting those people.. he was amazed and he actually felt he was not alone in this world sharing this burden.. for some reason for jk those people felt like his own people., he felt happy and not alone.."},{"id":443697666,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Meanwhile, V.. he was just listening to everything his innocent soul was sharing.. these are so important for v.. that his little one is comfortable enough to share what he is feeling right now with him.."},{"id":443697667,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Itu2019s precious.. because when people are sick with an incurable diseases they tend to be not that much sharing since they feel alone... but v was being part of his little oneu2019s suffering and happiness.. this was more than enough for v.."},{"id":443697668,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Jk kept talking and v kept loving his little one by nodding, sharing his thoughts and smiling fondly with all his love.."},{"id":443697669,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Suddenly jk stops and looks at v with nervous glance.. V cups Jku2019s face and Pecks the youngeru2019s lips softly"},{"id":443697670,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"I am listening my soul.."},{"id":443697671,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Can we do this more often.. like.. like.. going to sessions and all.."},{"id":443697672,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Hides Jk into a warm hug) Ofcorse my soul.. you donu2019t need to ask..we will do everything together.."},{"id":443697673,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"But what if sessions are happening. when I have lost my memories.. (says sadly)"},{"id":443697674,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Pulls away and cups Jku2019s face again)"},{"id":443697675,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Then I will go for you and record them for you., we can watch it together when you come back.."},{"id":443697676,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"Really ud83eudd7a"},{"id":443697677,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"Yes my soul., nothing is impossible.. even in this midst.."},{"id":443697678,"character_id":4158245,"type":2,"content":"I love you so much.. thank you.. for loving. Me.. (pulls V into a kiss)"},{"id":443697679,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"(Kisses back) I love you very much too my soul (says in between kisses)"},{"id":443697680,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"While they were kissing.. suddenly it started to rain heavily.. Jk was extra happy that night.. He gave one big tight kiss to v and laughed heartily.. V put Jk down as he knows his bunny wants to enjoy the rain.. and indeed his little one danced, jumped and laughed infront of v.. enjoying this moment.,"},{"id":443697681,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Vu2019s eyes were emotional.. that is such a precious soul dancing infront of him.. thatu2019s.."},{"id":443697682,"character_id":4158246,"type":2,"content":"*My soul*"}]}