Is it okay to loose my sanity?

{"messages":[{"id":917898371,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Amelie’s pov"},{"id":917898372,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"One month passed away since that incident."},{"id":917898373,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I am getting home schooling. I really like miss Anna , she is such an amazing women and a great teacher."},{"id":917898374,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Lily is staying with dad. Though he was angry on me for choosing Lucifer but still he loves me alot. He just can’t stop calling me and asking if Lucifer is treating me right or not."},{"id":917898375,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Lucifer has been spending time with me every day no matter how much busy he is."},{"id":917898376,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I hate it when he leave me alone but I can’t stop him from going on buisness trips. His work is also important."},{"id":917898377,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"The intimate touch between us was increasing day by day."},{"id":917898378,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He would sleep with me while hugging me , kiss me every now and then , call me every time when he is working. And this is making me weak."},{"id":917898379,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He is making me weak for him. I am missing him the same way he miss me."},{"id":917898380,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I am getting addicted to him the same way he is addicted to me."},{"id":917898381,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Now tell me how should I control my foolish heart?"},{"id":917898382,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Or is it okay to loose my sanity?"},{"id":917898383,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"________"},{"id":917898384,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"It was midnight. The sky was dark"},{"id":917898385,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I am struggling to Sleep in the corner of the bed. It feels so empty without him."},{"id":917898386,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"The room is cold , an emptiness filled in the room."},{"id":917898387,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Next week is birthday. I will turn 18."},{"id":917898388,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I wonder if he remember ?"},{"id":917898389,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"His thoughts filled in my head until sleep took over them making me sleep peacefully hugging his shirt. His colongue giving me feel of his presence."},{"id":917898390,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"______"},{"id":917898391,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Two days later."},{"id":917898392,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I started learning cooking though Lucifer have forbidden me from it , but I want to learn cooking for him."},{"id":917898393,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I want to make dinner for him every night and wait for him to come back from work, I want to eat with him. I want to be beside him."},{"id":917898394,"character_id":22853346,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Miss first you have to boil the pasta."},{"id":917898395,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"The made instructed."},{"id":917898396,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Last time when we went out for dinner , he told me that he love pasta."},{"id":917898397,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I did whatever she was saying."},{"id":917898398,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I was draining the pasta but suddenly the whole pot slipped from my hand and the hot water splashed on my leg making me scream my lungs out."},{"id":917898399,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Tears formed started rolling down automatically."},{"id":917898400,"character_id":12045796,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"seu00f1orita."},{"id":917898401,"character_id":12045796,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"seu00f1orita , where are you?"},{"id":917898402,"character_id":12045795,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"AHHHH ... IT’S BURNING ...."},{"id":917898403,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I screamed loudly , the burning sensation was killing me."},{"id":917898404,"character_id":12045796,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"seu00f1orita"},{"id":917898405,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He came running when he heard my screams."},{"id":917898406,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"His expression changed into worry when he saw me jumping around and trying to releave my pain."},{"id":917898407,"character_id":12045796,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"WHAT THE F*CK HAPPENED HERE ?"},{"id":917898408,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Lucifer shouted on maid who just came running with first aid kit."},{"id":917898409,"character_id":22853346,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"m-am spilled hot water on her leg."},{"id":917898410,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"she explained."},{"id":917898411,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Lucifer immediately took the first aid kit from her hand and made me sit on the chair."},{"id":917898412,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He sat down and took my leg in his hand. He applied ointment on my burnt leg and blew it a little when I hissed in pain."},{"id":917898413,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He looked at me with worry and asked,"},{"id":917898414,"character_id":12045796,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Is it hurting too much?"},{"id":917898415,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I nodded."},{"id":917898416,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He carried me in his arms to our room. He made me lie down on bed."},{"id":917898417,"character_id":12045796,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"What were you doing there?"},{"id":917898418,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He asked me. Though he was worried, there was slight anger in his voice."},{"id":917898419,"character_id":12045795,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"I - I -"},{"id":917898420,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I stuttered while trying to explain."},{"id":917898421,"character_id":12045796,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Speak or else I will lock you inside this room."},{"id":917898422,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He said with strict tone."},{"id":917898423,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I gulped my saliva before explaining."},{"id":917898424,"character_id":12045795,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"I was trying to learn how to cook pasta."},{"id":917898425,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I said in one breath."},{"id":917898426,"character_id":12045796,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"And may I know why?"},{"id":917898427,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He said looking straight into my eyes."},{"id":917898428,"character_id":12045795,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"I - I wanted to learn it for you."},{"id":917898429,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I stated honestly and looked down."},{"id":917898430,"character_id":12045796,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Look at me."},{"id":917898431,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He said."},{"id":917898432,"character_id":12045796,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"You do not need to. All I want is you."},{"id":917898433,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He said before smashing his lips on mine."},{"id":917898434,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"It’s been more than a week I haven’t seen him."},{"id":917898435,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"And his sudden touch is giving me butterflies."},{"id":917898436,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I closed my eyes feeling all his touches. My hands clenched his hairs while his rubbed near my thighs."},{"id":917898437,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"TO BE CONTINUED~"},{"id":917898438,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Don’t forget to like."},{"id":917898439,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Comment if you like the chapter."},{"id":917898440,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Your suggestions are always welcome."},{"id":917898441,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Also do vote and gift to support me."},{"id":917898442,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Thanks for reading."}]}