self thinking

{"messages":[{"id":267855988,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"Lily’s house"},{"id":267855989,"character_id":5143101,"type":2,"content":"(in her bedroom) sob.. sob....what have I ever done to him??!!"},{"id":267855990,"character_id":5143101,"type":2,"content":"just love him.... and loved him so much!!!"},{"id":267855991,"character_id":5143101,"type":2,"content":"you are the one who asked me to love you and stay forever with you!!!! why then???? ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":267855992,"character_id":5143101,"type":2,"content":"sob....sob... sob... one day if I finally able to fall out of love with you ....will it bring any changes to your feelings??"},{"id":267855993,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"finally drifting in to sleep"},{"id":267855994,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"shine’s bedroom"},{"id":267855995,"character_id":5143115,"type":2,"content":"(closing his eyes, suddenly the image of tears filled Lily’s face comes to his mind )"},{"id":267855996,"character_id":5143115,"type":2,"content":"was I too harsh??"},{"id":267855997,"character_id":5143115,"type":2,"content":"*her eyes full of tears... pain filled face expressions.... haaah... *"},{"id":267855998,"character_id":5143115,"type":2,"content":"*I have seen her naughtiness.... I know she’s persuasive and do things to get my attention .... she will get jealous quickly.... hah...she can create big tantrums.... but today..... this was the first time to see her like that..... *"},{"id":267855999,"character_id":5143115,"type":2,"content":"*hasn’t she realized it’s just an infatuation to me???or doesn’t she understand the difference between love and infatuation??!!!! *"},{"id":267856000,"character_id":5143115,"type":2,"content":"hhhhuu....*or have I gone wrong somewhere??*"},{"id":267856001,"character_id":5143115,"type":2,"content":"(sigh)that’s enough....no more thinking....."},{"id":267856002,"character_id":5143115,"type":2,"content":"(put off the nightlamp and goes to sleep...)"},{"id":267856003,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"let the tomorrows make him realize....."}]}