The horrible past /My remorse

{"messages":[{"id":607568827,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"In afternoon, after getting home from college, jungkook as usual came to taehyung’s house. It has become almost his daily routine, one glimpse of the elder and he is good to go for a day ahead. Let’s put it this way, taehyung is his boost up energy, one kiss from him fills jungkook up with full of life and he loves the way he gets butterflies in his stomach after that...even the thought makes him smile."},{"id":607568828,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He crossed the street and climbed up the two stairs in doorway of main entrance, he was about to touch the doorbell until sounds from the inside invaded his ears."},{"id":607568829,"character_id":11648049,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Don’t be a fcking stubborn!"},{"id":607568830,"character_id":11648049,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Here we are trying to save the town, we don’t know what’s coming or who’s out there!"},{"id":607568831,"character_id":11648049,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"And then there’s you not wanting to feed yourself!!"},{"id":607568832,"character_id":11648049,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"This way you’ll be nothing but a burden!!"},{"id":607568833,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Shutt the fck up! Whether I drink it or not what does it has to do with you!!"},{"id":607568834,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"And I’m not fcking burden! I’ll never be!"},{"id":607568835,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Do you hear that?!"},{"id":607568836,"character_id":11648049,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Why don’t you under-"},{"id":607568837,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Just cut it off! Leave me on my own! You can’t force me afterall, can you?"},{"id":607568838,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":""They are quarrelling, now is not the right time to disturb them" jungkook thought as he retreated his hand from pressing the doorbell. He looked at the door one more time and turned his heels around to move back to his house. He can see taehyung later but he left with many questions in his mind from there, he looked down on his feets while walking across the road. "Why would someone want to starve themselves?" he thought."},{"id":607568839,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"*****************************"},{"id":607568840,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"The moon appeared in the sky and after having a supper with the family, jungkook took a warm shower, doing his night routine he brushed his teeths along with soaking his hairs dry with a towel in his one hand. He came out of the bathroom wearing just his white boxers, his hairs bit damp falling on his forehead even on his eyes."},{"id":607568841,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"The room was dark, only the night light glimmering in through the window enough to make things visible, he didn’t even bother to switch on the room’s light as he moved towards his cupboard and stretched his hand inside of it for some clothes. He could only reached onto the white t-shirt, when the two arms wrapped around his bare waist from behind and someone’s breath hit the nape of his neck, giving him myriad of goosebumps as a small gasp left his mouth with eyes widened."},{"id":607568842,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Hey there su00e8xy thing. (whispers in jungkook’s ear)"},{"id":607568844,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"(hearing taehyung’s voice he let out a breath that he was holding in, clutching onto his own chest)"},{"id":607568845,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Taehyung, you scared the shitt out of me."},{"id":607568846,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"You shouldn’t leave your window open you know."},{"id":607568847,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(Taehyung remarked and licked a stripe on jungkook’s neck making him whimper a bit)"},{"id":607568848,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"I-I totally forgot."},{"id":607568849,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"(he stuttered taking a look at an open window before continuing to take out his clothes and putting himself inside a white tee and a pair of black sweatpants)"},{"id":607568850,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung waited for the younger to dress up and as soon as he did, he hugged him again from behind, burying his face into jungkook’s crook of the neck, inhaling his scent which was more overpowering as he had just taken a shower."},{"id":607568851,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"(jungkook smiled and dived his fingers of one hand in elder’s hairs for giving them a quick brush before he closed the cupboard door)"},{"id":607568852,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Now if you wanna move to the bed sir."},{"id":607568853,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook said chuckling when he could feel taehyung kissing and nibbling on his neck, making him feel tickly. Taehyung turned the younger around, making him face oneself by the swift twist on his waist. Jungkook grabbed his shoulders for the support, he then quickly met with the pair of lips on his own. They kissed, no tongues involved and letting feel each other’s warmth with the movement of lips, taehyung wandered his hands around younger’s lower back as they slowly moved down to his @ss giving them a squeeze before they came back and rested on his waist. Jungkook let himself moan into taehyung’s mouth, his fingers moving to black raven hairlocks of and elder and got tugged their."},{"id":607568854,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(Taehyung broke the kiss before biting jungkook’s lower lip and gave it a lick as he pulled back)"},{"id":607568855,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Why didn’t you came inside today this afternoon?"},{"id":607568857,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung questioned, lifting younger’s face up by holding his chin and catching him off guard, jungkook bit his lower lip, his hands came down and rested on taehyung’s shoulder."},{"id":607568858,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"I...you guys were fighting so I didn’t wanted to barge in on that."},{"id":607568859,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"(he replied, his lips glistened as his tongue glided over them, bambi eyes looking at taehyung)"},{"id":607568860,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"A corner of taehyung’s lip curved up into a ghostly smile as he stepped backwards, leaving jungkook standing still and sat on the edge of bed."},{"id":607568861,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"We have arguments like that everyday."},{"id":607568862,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(He told taking a look at the bewildered boy before bending down to get himself out of his shoes as he slided back onto the bedsheets and leaned himself against the headboard, letting out a sigh)"},{"id":607568863,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook came and sat on the bed closer to taehyung with his knees folded as he stared at the elder with curiosity, wanting to ask something but couldn’t bring himself upto it. Taehyung looked at him and their eyes locked."},{"id":607568864,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"It’s really not your thing to hold yourself back from saying something when you desperately want to. Your face doesn’t help in that case either, it looks like you’re having a stomach ache."},{"id":607568865,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(Taehyung almost mocked)"},{"id":607568866,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Why don’t you drink the human blood? I’m sure there must be a reason for it. (jungkook let out inner chaos after blushing at the elder’s statement)"},{"id":607568867,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"There was a silence for a brief moment before taehyung looked away and stared down on his own lap."},{"id":607568868,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I killed my fu00eeance once."},{"id":607568869,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook’s eyes widened as his heart shuddered and taehyung continued......"},{"id":607568870,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Back then after few months of my transformation into a vamp, my parents fixed my marriage with a girl named zorina. She was a human and the marriage was fixed for the purpose of her becoming my ultimate blood bank."},{"id":607568871,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(He looked at jungkook, his eyes helding hesitancy)"},{"id":607568872,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"B-Blood bank? (younger stammered getting the slightest idea of what it could be just by hearing the name, he couldn’t help but gulp the lump forming in his throat due to the intense conversation taking place)"},{"id":607568873,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"It’s someone you drink the blood from and feed yourself......she was special, she had the best blood in the entire kingdom, my parents gifted her to me."},{"id":607568874,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook’s heart crippled more as his breathing got a bit uneven..... horrible was all he could think of it right now. How could they? It sounded like zorina was just a mere thing, like an object, it made her sound so non-living....."},{"id":607568875,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"She loved me and it would be a lie to say that I didn’t felt anything for her but one day I just ended up killing her....I sucked the life out of her until she was laying on the floor lifeless....in the pool of blood."},{"id":607568876,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I took a life of someone for the sake of my hunger."},{"id":607568877,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung looked away not wanting to face the younger, his voice emotionless but he was all shattered inside.....the burden of his past is what did that to him."},{"id":607568878,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Not only her, I’ve killed many people, once I intake the human blood.....I become something that I don’t wanna be."},{"id":607568879,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I don’t call myself a monster for nothing."},{"id":607568880,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung looked at ju00fangkook, his eyes again looking dead making jungkook feel the pang in his heart."},{"id":607568881,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"But...you were newly transformed at that time, you had no control over yourself."},{"id":607568882,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Don’t you think my parents were terrible for gifting a human to me?"},{"id":607568883,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"(jungkook after a second or two timorously nodded)"},{"id":607568884,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"That’s one of the reason why I don’t like them either. They never understood the importance of existence and how much it can mean to someone. (Taehyung expressed and looked at the wall infront of him before his eyes dropped down on his lap again)"},{"id":607568885,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"From that day on, I started fasting, trying to repent for my deeds but nothing helps.....the regret always stays with me."},{"id":607568886,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook just sat there staring at the elder, the exact look he saw on his face when they first met, dead and sorrowful....like something was missing in his eyes and for jungkook nothing feels worse, his fingers clutching onto his own knees to the extent that his knuckles turned white."},{"id":607568887,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Maybe you’re thinking too much. It’s a long gone thing, you’re somebody different now. You have gained control over yourself."},{"id":607568888,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I don’t know."},{"id":607568889,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(that’s all taehyung said while he looked at the younger)"},{"id":607568890,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"The silence overtook again as they averted their gazes from eachother. Taehyung staring down, watching his own fingers dig into his palms from the guilt and jungkook too looking down....he didn’t knew what to say for few moments."},{"id":607568891,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"But in order to survive you need to feed yourself."},{"id":607568892,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"(he muttered as he took taehyung’s hand into both of his own before meeting his eyes with him)"},{"id":607568893,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Most importantly I still don’t think about you as a monster. You did it coz you lost the control....and that’s becoz you were never told what control is...there were no rules and no boundations. The system was to blame."},{"id":607568894,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"But now you’ve learned it.....the people In your time didn’t think about the importance of human life but here you are.... giving it a thought, punishing yourself for something what you did in the past. It already makes you less horrible than them."},{"id":607568895,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"And believe me when I say it, in my eyes you’re not horrible at all coz I know...I see you, you are a good one...."},{"id":607568896,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook said and smiled making his eyes go crinkled at the corners.....how relieving those words were for taehyung the boy had no idea, the remorse he has been holding in seemed to fade away, slowly but yeah he felt somewhat better..... he might not show it but suddenly he felt a lot better."},{"id":607568897,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Thank you.... jungkook."},{"id":607568898,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(he uttered and a small smile etched on his lips)"},{"id":607568899,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung looked down on his lap again, still holding jungkook’s hand with their fingers interwined now."},{"id":607568900,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Taehyung....."},{"id":607568901,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(looks at him, cocking his brow questioningly)"},{"id":607568902,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Drink my blood."},{"id":607568903,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook said, only he knew with how much of a great difficulty he let those words out, seeming like he was confident unlike his heart. Taehyung looked at him for a brief moment before coming closer and cupping his face."},{"id":607568904,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Never say those words again. Do you get it?"},{"id":607568905,"character_id":11484724,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(he said in his usual tone which sounded more like a warning, pads of his thumb caressing jungkook’s cheekbones)"},{"id":607568906,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook’s lips quivered, the intensity in soft voice of the elder made shivers run down his spine, melting under his gaze he could only nod."},{"id":607568907,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Okay....."},{"id":607568908,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung looked at him up and down and pecked younger’s forehead deeply before letting go of his face and sitting back straight again."},{"id":607568909,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Let’s lay down, you must be tired too."},{"id":607568910,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"(smiles softly, trying to lighten up the atmosphere)"},{"id":607568911,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"They both laid down, taehyung flat on his back with his one hand behind his head as he stared at the ceiling and jungkook laid facing towards taehyung. Both of them didn’t talked for sometime as taehyung still looked lost in his thoughts."},{"id":607568912,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook blinked his eyes, stretching his hand and tucking at taehyung’s t-shirt like a baby, pulling it to grab his attention. Taehyung turned his head towards his head towards the younger as a smile lingered over his lips."},{"id":607568913,"character_id":11223368,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Can I get a kiss? (tiny voice)"},{"id":607568915,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"The elder chuckled turning to his side as he swiftly pulled the younger closer towards himself by wrapping an arm around his waist making him giggle. They both stared into each other’s eyes before they closed the gap between their lips and shared a very loving and passionate kiss....."},{"id":768343220,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ud83cudf19"},{"id":768343221,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ud83cudf19"},{"id":768343222,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ud83cudf19"}]}