Unsurety in Perpetualness

{"messages":[{"id":924222416,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung was in his garage, under the car repairing it when his cellphone vibrated receiving a call as he slid outside looking towards the bench beside a window where his phone was seated before getting up and walking towards it."},{"id":924222417,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"It was jungkook calling, letting it vibrate for a moment in his hand taehyung picked up the call before bringing the phone over his ear, knowing what it’s gonna be about and preparing himself for it, he breathed out....."},{"id":924222418,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"ud83dudcf1Hello."},{"id":924222419,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"ud83dudcf1 You disappeared again."},{"id":924222420,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"That was the first thing jungkook remarked getting on the line while wandering in his cafeteria during the break in college."},{"id":924222421,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung sighed leaning onto the window through his forearm as he stared out of it."},{"id":924222422,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"ud83dudcf1I’m sorry."},{"id":924222423,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"ud83dudcf1I wanted to wake you up before I got out but you were sleeping so peacefully that i couldn’t bring myself up to do it."},{"id":924222424,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"ud83dudcf1I was sleeping peacefully because you were beside me."},{"id":924222425,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook pointed as his voice involuntarily raised a little and taehyung bit his lower lip being at lost of words and....."},{"id":924222426,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I’m sorry."},{"id":924222427,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"That’s all he could mutter as jungkook sighed to himself touching the bridge of his nose."},{"id":924222428,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"ud83dudcf1 Taehyung."},{"id":924222429,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"(He spoke, his voice now soft and loving with care)"},{"id":924222430,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"ud83dudcf1Just what is on your mind?"},{"id":924222431,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He questioned putting an emphasize on his tone, heart screaming to know an answer but taehyung only remained quiet for a moment before speaking up."},{"id":924222432,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"ud83dudcf1 It’s nothing."},{"id":924222433,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook went helplessly wordless as well as a silence prevailed among them unlike to their chaotic thoughts, both contemplating something as taehyung heard the younger let out an another sigh."},{"id":924222434,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"ud83dudcf1 Nevermind, it’s fine."},{"id":924222435,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"ud83dudcf1I just hope that you’re doing alright."},{"id":924222436,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"ud83dudcf1(nods) Yes, I’m okay."},{"id":924222437,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"The younger smiled a little being surrounded by students walking past him. The weather was foggy and freezingly cold as he stood nearby the cafeteria railing."},{"id":924222438,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"ud83dudcf1See you tonight?"},{"id":924222439,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"It was more of a question than a statement which taehyung understood and nodded."},{"id":924222440,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"ud83dudcf1Yes, for sure."},{"id":924222441,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"ud83dudcf1Okay then, I’m hanging up for now."},{"id":924222442,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"ud83dudcf1 Bye."},{"id":924222443,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"ud83dudcf1Bye."},{"id":924222444,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung replied before the call got cut and holding the phone down in his hand he blankly stared out of the window. There’s a lot going on in his mind these days, yes it’s true.....but how is he suppose to tell this boy about what he has been feeling? He already doesn’t know how to express himself and when it comes to jungkook, his emotions towards that boy always makes him vulnerable, it’s like he is a totally different person when he’s with him that he can’t even recognise himself although he has never considered himself anything rather than a monster but when he’s with him, he feels like he’s something more than that, somebody valuable. The way those doe eyes gazes up at him so deeply and glints in love, it makes him weak and terrified at the same time thinking what if he loses them one day like he always have with the things that he loved the most."},{"id":924222445,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Taehyung!"},{"id":924222446,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Taehyung, you brat!"},{"id":924222447,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Yoongi rasped snapping taehyung out of his trance as he sighed to himself."},{"id":924222448,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Do you know for how long I’ve been calling your name?!"},{"id":924222449,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"What is it?"},{"id":924222450,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(Taehyung monotonously grumbled without sparing yoongi a glance)"},{"id":924222451,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Where’s the screw driver?!"},{"id":924222452,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Last shelf, lower draw."},{"id":924222453,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung told staring out of the window as yoongi followed and took out the screw driver shifting his gaze back on younger."},{"id":924222454,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"And just what are you thinking?"},{"id":924222455,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He asked as he walked towards taehyung who turned around before sitting down on the bench and shuffled his phone in his hand while yoongi looked at him interrogatively."},{"id":924222456,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Nothing."},{"id":924222457,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He answered and yoongi furrowed his brows."},{"id":924222458,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Wait, wait, no no wait!"},{"id":924222459,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He blabbered as he rolled a finger infront of taehyung’s eyes who stared up at him a bit confusingly."},{"id":924222460,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I know that face."},{"id":924222461,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I know it."},{"id":924222462,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(Yoongi claimed sitting beside taehyung)"},{"id":924222463,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"You make this kind of expressions when you’re thinking of running away or abandoning your people because you think that "oh I don’t belong here and probably it’s better if i isolate myself because then everything’s gonna be alright and everybody would be happy-"},{"id":924222464,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Yoongi continued to state as taehyung let out a sigh and looked down shaking his head."},{"id":924222465,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"But in reality that’s the most horrendous thing somebody could ever think, everything just becomes worse!"},{"id":924222466,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Running away is never a solution you fcker! (snarls at taehyung’s ear)"},{"id":924222467,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"C’mon, i can’t believe you’re still going on about it."},{"id":924222468,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"And chill down, i wasn’t thinking of running away or abandoning anyone."},{"id":924222469,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung said as yoongi heavily breathed out after his ranting."},{"id":924222470,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Then? What were you thinking?"},{"id":924222471,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He asked while the other looked down, deep in his thoughts."},{"id":924222472,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I don’t know, whatever is happening these days. I’m utterly suspicious that things are going way too fine."},{"id":924222473,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"And what we are doing by setting up this garage, trying to live like a normal...."},{"id":924222474,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung expressed, hesitant as he looked at yoongi and bobbed his shoulders a bit."},{"id":924222475,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I can’t help but question myself that is it all worth it?"},{"id":924222476,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Like, where it’s going to take us. All this pretentious act of trying to be somebody that we are not, associating ourselves with humans. What will it conclude in the end?"},{"id":924222477,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung fearfully questioned as yoongi stared at him silent, seemingly affected by the words."},{"id":924222478,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Perhaps a death of somebody precious to me? And by the way I’m getting attached to each segment of this present life of mine, i don’t think i would be able to bear it."},{"id":924222479,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He revealed and an enfeeble effect could be seen in yoongi’s eyes understanding what he meant."},{"id":924222480,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"After a moment of quietness, yoongi sighed as he continued to stare at the younger and gulped down his throat."},{"id":924222481,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Look, don’t fill my head with this shitt."},{"id":924222482,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He said and taehyung looked at him."},{"id":924222483,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I don’t care what we are doing, but this is the best life I’m living so far now."},{"id":924222484,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I have chim, i have a work to do and I’m happy."},{"id":924222485,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Believe me when I say it that this is all i’ve ever wanted, to live without the havoc."},{"id":924222486,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I don’t know for how long it’s gonna last but as long as it does, I’m not missing a single moment of it."},{"id":924222487,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Yoongi said nodding his head assuringly as taehyung stared at him and the elder cleared his throat."},{"id":924222488,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"That’s something I’ve learned from jimin, to live the present because what’s gonna happen will happen for sure, you can’t change it whether you think or not."},{"id":924222489,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"The difference between immortality and the future is huge, in our case both are everlasting that at one point you’re gonna get tired of it but what I have right now, it’s special and I can’t ruin it thinking about the absence of everlasting aspect in it."},{"id":924222490,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Perpetualness is something which we have gotten used to and we try to run away from those which doesn’t last long but what we don’t understand is that, things are beautiful when they end and all the good things do end."},{"id":924222491,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"That’s what makes them special."},{"id":924222492,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Yoongi completed as both the brothers stared at each other. Taehyung gulped, feeling some sort of way which he never had before, like he got introduced to himself, introduced to the reality from which he was trying to run away though few doubts still held a tight grip inside of him."},{"id":924222493,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"All these years that I’ve lived, i have done nothing but to hurt the people near me, in one way or another I’ve always kept myself hidden but still I never failed to wound those who I’ve considered important to me."},{"id":924222494,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Earlier it didn’t affected me much but now when I think about it, it makes me feel uneasy."},{"id":924222495,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I don’t wanna be seem as a demon infront of jungkook who drinks his blood and feeds on him but i want to be the best for him yet I’m afraid that I cannot become it."},{"id":924222496,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Taehyung disclosed, his voice shaky and panicked as he did so and even if yoongi was sealed in the coffin for 60 years he could bet that this was the first time when his brother was so petrified as he extended his hand and kept it on younger’s shoulder."},{"id":924222497,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Drinking blood is a part of you, that’s how you survive taehyung and jungkook accepts you as who you are."},{"id":924222498,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"But you know what I become once I lose my control and everyday when I go near him, those flashbacks comes to me reminding me what i could do to him."},{"id":924222499,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"A silence occured as yoongi stared at taehyung."},{"id":924222500,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"You’re scared."},{"id":924222501,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He deduced and taehyung diverted his gaze down once again."},{"id":924222502,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Not for myself but for him."},{"id":924222503,"character_id":22796991,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I don’t want him to be hurt because of me."},{"id":924222504,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"It’s okay, you’re doing so fine currently and you’ve got this in the future too. I believe in you."},{"id":924222505,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"It’s not that complicated as you’re making it."},{"id":924222506,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Yoongi nodded as taehyung looked at him and both stared at each other."},{"id":924222507,"character_id":23066298,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Just live when you’ve got a chance to."},{"id":924222508,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He patted taehyung’s back who uncertainly nodded after a moment and both remained seated like that for some time."},{"id":924222509,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Meanwhile on the other side jungkook hunged up his phone and shoved it back in his pocket as felix came running towards him, giving a tap on his back while exclaiming....."},{"id":924222510,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I’m back."},{"id":924222511,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Before he leaned back onto the railing and jungkook looked at him."},{"id":924222512,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(snorts) I threw the assignments at Mr.Gwan’s face and also apologized to him like you had said."},{"id":924222513,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"(Jungkook smiled rolling his eyes)"},{"id":924222514,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Good for you felix."},{"id":924222515,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Uh-huh, now let’s go to the club tonight."},{"id":924222516,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"(sighs) No, i have to study. Not today."},{"id":924222517,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(groans) Oh c’mon i need some refreshment."},{"id":924222518,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook stared at him sternly not changing his decision as felix’s face dropped down before he looked away."},{"id":924222519,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"My parents got divorced yesterday."},{"id":924222520,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He told, meeting jungkook’s gaze who widened his eyes."},{"id":924222521,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Dad sent the papers....."},{"id":924222522,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"He didn’t even came to meet us."},{"id":924222523,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He muttered while looking away once again as jungkook let out a regretful sigh stepping closer towards him."},{"id":924222524,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Oh, oh felix."},{"id":924222525,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He spoke in a tiny voice and hugged his bestfriend."},{"id":924222526,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"I’m so sorry."},{"id":924222527,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Jungkook mumbled due to his cheek getting squished at felix’s shoulder being hugged back by him."},{"id":924222528,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Are you okay?"},{"id":924222529,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He asked as felix nodded and both of them pulled back."},{"id":924222530,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I’m fine."},{"id":924222531,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"He assured, a smile finding a way to his face again making jungkook smile sadly as well. No matter what happens in felix’s life, he just never lets it get through him and keeps smiling despite of how much it shatters him from the inside and it makes jungkook saddened to see him like this coz the boy never truly shows his pain."},{"id":924222532,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"You know what? it’s fine. We can go to the club after christmas."},{"id":924222533,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"For now!"},{"id":924222534,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(Felix emphasized, grinning widely as he brought his face closer to jungkook while still being leaned back onto the railing and grabbing it by his hands)"},{"id":924222535,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"What I’m happy about is that college is off for one week."},{"id":924222536,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"And it’s jingle jingle time. (wiggles his brows)"},{"id":924222537,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Both bursted into a chuckle as felix pulled back, a smile smearing his face."},{"id":924222538,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"It’s my mom’s turn to arrange the christmas dinner this year."},{"id":924222539,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Yes. (jungkook agreed)"},{"id":924222540,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Inform your hyungs in advance, although eomma will call for an invitation."},{"id":924222541,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"(chuckles) Don’t worry, they are already aware."},{"id":924222542,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Perfect."},{"id":924222543,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Felix widely smiled standing straight and wrapping an arm around jungkook’s shoulder as they began to walk towards their second last class of the day and the whole rest week."},{"id":924222544,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"So, what are your plans on this christmas?"},{"id":924222545,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Is taehyung hyung going to dress for you as a Santa?"},{"id":924222546,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Gonna give you gifts or something?"},{"id":924222547,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Felix grinned, his tone teasy as he leaned closer to jungkook’s ear who slightly pushed him away and chuckled."},{"id":924222548,"character_id":22754514,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Felix! (he squeaked warningly)"},{"id":924222549,"character_id":22754515,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"(laughs)"},{"id":924222550,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ud83cudf19"},{"id":924222551,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ud83cudf19"},{"id":924222552,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ud83cudf19"},{"id":924222553,"character_id":23070673,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Hey guys, first of all wishing you a Merry Christmas.u2764ufe0f"},{"id":924222554,"character_id":23070673,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Sorry for late wishes, i was busy."},{"id":924222555,"character_id":23070673,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"And I just got to know that suga, RM and jin have been tested positive for corona virus, i felt so sad. I pray for their fast recovery ud83dude4fud83dudc9c"},{"id":924222556,"character_id":23070673,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"You all too take care of yourself and your loved ones.ud83dudc9c"},{"id":924222557,"character_id":23070673,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Borahae, see you in the next update ud83dudc9c"}]}