namjoon’s feelings

{"messages":[{"id":551334807,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"why did you do this jin... (cold voice)"},{"id":551334808,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"namjoon was obviously ask jin that why he hide his pregnancy from him... so he sounded cold...."},{"id":551334809,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"but.. jin totally misunderstood it.. he thought namjoon was blaming him for his pregnancy...."},{"id":551334810,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"(looking at namjoon and trying to stop tears)ud83dude1eud83eudd7aud83eudd7a"},{"id":551334811,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"you---"},{"id":551334812,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"I’m sorry alpha.... ud83eudd7aud83eudd7a"},{"id":551334813,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"jin looked at namjoon with tearful eyes...."},{"id":551334814,"character_id":0,"type":3,"image_path":"contribute/fiction/1908215/chatstory/9585689/1618502980080.jpg","image_width":393,"image_height":519},{"id":551334815,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"I’m sorry... ud83dude22ud83dude22"},{"id":551334816,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"it’s my fault that I’m pregnant... I should have taken some medicine to prevent it... ud83dude22ud83dude22ud83dude22"},{"id":551334817,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"namjoon was shocked and looked at jin with blank face.."},{"id":551334818,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"ud83dude36ud83dude36"},{"id":551334819,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"I know... you hate me... even disgust my presence....ud83dude22ud83dude22"},{"id":551334820,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"I also know.. you don’t want a baby from me....ud83dude22ud83dude22"},{"id":551334821,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"uhh...??"},{"id":551334822,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"that’s why it did not hurt you while I got miscarriage on my first baby... (aching heart)"},{"id":551334823,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"you even said that directly to that you don’t want to get me pregnant... but.. I had this baby in me even before at that time..ud83dude22ud83dude22"},{"id":551334824,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"ud83dude28ud83dude28"},{"id":551334825,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"but... this baby... has no fault.... ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":551334826,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"please don’t make me abort it... I beg you.. alpha....ud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":551334827,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"jin broke out of tears.. but namjoon was looking at jin with a aching heart...."},{"id":551334828,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"even if you hate it... it’s still... yours... *hic*ud83dude2d"},{"id":551334829,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"jin..,ud83dude1f"},{"id":551334830,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"I promise... I won’t let him to irritate you nor close to you....ud83dude2d"},{"id":551334831,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"he will be in mansion just like me... I won’t tell that you are his father ....ud83dude2dud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":551334832,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"ud83dudc94ud83dudc94ud83dudc94"},{"id":551334833,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"if.. if you don’t want that too... I... I will divorce you and leave from here... ud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":551334834,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"I won’t appear in front of you again... alpha...ud83dude2dud83dude2d"},{"id":551334835,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"ud83dude1fud83dude1f"},{"id":551334836,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"(sobbing)"},{"id":551334837,"character_id":9060041,"type":2,"content":"can.. can I.. keep this baby... please.. I beg you...ud83dude22ud83dude22ud83dude22ud83dude2d"},{"id":551334838,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"saying like that jin was sobbing hard... while namjoon was stood there with a broken heart..."},{"id":551334839,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"he agrees that.. he’s cruel to jin.. but he never wanted to kill his baby...."},{"id":551334840,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"namjoon’s eyes started to get blurry as tears are forming in this eyes... but he don’t want to cry in front of jin... so.. he immediately walked out from jin’s room...."},{"id":551334841,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"in namjoon’s room"},{"id":551334842,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"he sat on his bed and started to think about jin’s words...."},{"id":551334843,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"am I looking that cruel..."},{"id":551334844,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"am I a monster to kill my own child... ud83eudd7a"},{"id":551334845,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"why did you say that jin... why are you begging me like that... I’m not a monster to kill my own child...."},{"id":551334846,"character_id":0,"type":3,"image_path":"contribute/fiction/1908215/chatstory/9585689/1618502982780.jpg","image_width":329,"image_height":329},{"id":551334847,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"(a tear escaped from eye)ud83dude22"},{"id":551334848,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"it’s not true jin... it’s not true that.. it did not hurt me when I lost my baby....ud83dude22"},{"id":551334849,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"it doesn’t mean... I’m ok just because I did not show my emotions..."},{"id":551334850,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"it hurted me a lot when you told you got miscarriage... I want to console you.... but... but..."},{"id":551334851,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"I don’t know how...ud83dude22"},{"id":551334852,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"I blamed my self for not protecting you..."},{"id":551334853,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"ofcourse it’s hurt to loose my own kid... I’m his father right..ud83dude22ud83dude22"},{"id":551334854,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"I know... I have been cold to you... I did not treat you well..."},{"id":551334855,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"because..."},{"id":551334856,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"I Fu00c7KING LOVED YOU STUPID...ud83dude22"},{"id":551334857,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"you made my heart beat like crazy on the day I saw you..."},{"id":551334858,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"you made me question my love for jisoo..."},{"id":551334859,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"I never felt that way with jisoo as I felt with you... I thought I’m a perfect husband who loves his wife...."},{"id":551334860,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"but you... you fu00e7king proved me wrong... (says painfully)"},{"id":551334861,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"you made me look at you.. you made me yarn for you... you made me question myself as if I love jisoo..."},{"id":551334862,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"it’s all your fault Jeon seokjin... it’s your fault that.. I lost my heart..."},{"id":551334863,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"this why I hated you and kept my distance from you.. but still... I failed to hate you...."},{"id":551334864,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"but... I lost jisoo because of your mistake... I blamed you for it..."},{"id":551334865,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"but... but... I never wanted you to leave... I don’t want you to leave... but... I lost jisoo Because of you..."},{"id":551334866,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"so I kept on being cold to you.. I know you are suffering... but... I suffered too... ,ud83dude22"},{"id":551334867,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"I wanted to help you... but... my cold self did not allow me..."},{"id":551334868,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"atlast... I’m opening up for you... but you... you are pushing me away.. wae...???ud83dude2d"},{"id":551334869,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"can’t you see that.. I’m changing... can’t you see tint of love for you in my eyes...ud83dude2d"},{"id":551334870,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":""HE CAN’T MASTER NAMJOON""},{"id":551334871,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"namjoon looked at the person who said those words."},{"id":551334872,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"it’s mei..."},{"id":551334873,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"mei....?"},{"id":551334874,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"he can’t master... why should he see your love...?"},{"id":551334875,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"did you ever told him.. did you ever expressed it... did you even said a word out of concern..??"},{"id":551334876,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"...."},{"id":551334877,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"wae..?? wae should he understand everything on his own..."},{"id":551334878,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"he’s a human too master... not a Play thing which you wanted to play...ud83dude1f"},{"id":551334879,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"mei... stop talking non sense...."},{"id":551334880,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"I’m not talking nonsense alpha.... today I will talk and you have to listen to it master.."},{"id":551334881,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"..."},{"id":551334882,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"ever since he married to you... you did not show him any love.."},{"id":551334883,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"you blamed him for madam jisoo’s death... even though it’s not his fault..."},{"id":551334884,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"you treated him just like a s*x toy and did not even help him in heats..."},{"id":551334885,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"do you know how he felt... do you know how unwanted he feel... ud83dude22"},{"id":551334886,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"I know master... I know how much he struggled and cried...ud83dude22"},{"id":551334887,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"ud83eudd7aud83eudd7a"},{"id":551334888,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"he thought.. only you will change and treat him well... at least not treat him coldly... but.. that never happened...ud83dude22"},{"id":551334889,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"at least that poor soul was tired and stopped having hopes on his marriage life..."},{"id":551334890,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"he stopped expecting love from you..,ud83dude22"},{"id":551334891,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"ud83eudd7aud83eudd7a"},{"id":551334892,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"All used to make fun of him saying that he’s a unwanted omega and bullied him just because he’s unmarked and you don’t care for him..."},{"id":551334893,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"but.. he never complained.. that woo min used to manipulate master jin.. which made master jin under go so much stress... in the end... he became a victim of ra*pe attempt...ud83eudd7aud83eudd7a"},{"id":551334894,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"ud83eudd7aud83dude22ud83dude22"},{"id":551334895,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"now.. you are blaming him for not understanding you... how great you are master namjoon.. hats off to you...ud83dude22"},{"id":551334896,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"I... did not... know this...."},{"id":551334897,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"obviously you don’t know because... you did not care for him..."},{"id":551334898,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"this is not true..."},{"id":551334899,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"it is master....it’s true that you did not care for him...."},{"id":551334900,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"please master... I beg you... if don’t want him.. just divorce him... so that master jin will be peaceful even later..."},{"id":551334901,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"but... if you want to continue like this.. he will have another miscarriage due to stress...."},{"id":551334902,"character_id":9093583,"type":2,"content":"let that poor soul live peacefully...ud83dude1eud83dude1eud83dude1e"},{"id":551334903,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"....."},{"id":551334904,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"mei left from there leaving a guilty namjoon... who was regreting like hell...."},{"id":551334905,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"he don’t know that he was making jin this suffering..... he thought that... jin is paying for jisoo’s death... but... he’s living hell like life...."},{"id":551334906,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"now he understood why jin kept secret from him...."},{"id":551334907,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"it’s because... his alpha is a dumb who can’t understand his feelings..."},{"id":551334908,"character_id":9060040,"type":2,"content":"I’m sorry... jin...ud83dude22ud83dude22ud83dude22"},{"id":551334909,"character_id":0,"type":1,"content":"continue"},{"id":551334910,"character_id":9060049,"type":2,"content":"did you like this chapter... comment below...how you felt while reading it... because I personally got emotional...ud83dude01ud83dude01"},{"id":551334911,"character_id":9060049,"type":2,"content":"please like comment and subscribe guys ud83dude18ud83dude18ud83dude18ud83dude18"}]}