Because It’s Pathetic!

{"messages":[{"id":770479807,"character_id":0,"type":3,"position":3,"image_path":"contribute/fiction/3047801/chatstory/10037299/1631719184.png","image_width":678,"image_height":452},{"id":770479808,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Taehgungu2019s POV!"},{"id":770479809,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Itu2019s the time of Christmas out here and I had completely forgotten how bright, glistening and beautiful this place can be"},{"id":770479810,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I havenu2019t spent my Christmas here in a long time"},{"id":770479811,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Itu2019s beautiful I must agree"},{"id":770479812,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I decided to take leave from my work for couple of dayu2019s.. I needed to spend some quality time with my family anyways"},{"id":770479813,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Even though they pretended to be strong and courageousu2026 I could still feel they were silently little concerned about their surroundings after the attack on our house"},{"id":770479814,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"It was understandableu2026 my father has appointed some guards outside our house and there are cctv cameras at every corner of the house from the outside"},{"id":770479815,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"It has been more than two days since I havenu2019t visited jungkook,,"},{"id":770479816,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I canu2019t help but think about him all this timeu2026 would he get to celebrate Christmas in the cell.. will he get a proper apple pie.. Or some warm clothes"},{"id":770479817,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I have never thought about my clients with so much intensity., but I canu2019t help it"},{"id":770479818,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I wanted to go and visit him.. or at least wish him.. or check about him.. but I restrained myself from doing so.."},{"id":770479819,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Our last encounter wasnu2019t great., I was being impatient and also unprofessional and he was stubborn as hell"},{"id":770479820,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I am still angry at him., but that doesnu2019t mean I donu2019t care about him"},{"id":770479821,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Itu2019s really surprising to me for even repeating this to myself that I care about him"},{"id":770479822,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Why do I care about him? Why is he different for me than any other normal clients of mine"},{"id":770479823,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I just so desperately want to bring him out of that hell so that he can live this environment I am in"},{"id":770479824,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"He is so beautiful and he deserves the goodness of earth not chains and bars"},{"id":770479825,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I was distracted from the train of my thoughts when my eomma called me from the kitchen,, she is preparing my favorite food tonight and she wants me to taste everything she makes"},{"id":770479826,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"My family is more than thrilled to have me home.. it feels like the entire family is together now for this Christmas,, so it makes this holiday extra special"},{"id":770479827,"character_id":16896784,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Eomma.. this soup is too spicy,."},{"id":770479828,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I canu2019t bear spicy food., feels like hiccuping and sweating non-stop.."},{"id":770479829,"character_id":17690378,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Oh sorry son., I will add some sugar for then"},{"id":770479830,"character_id":16896784,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"Thank you eomma (Pouts cutely)"},{"id":770479831,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I am 33 years old man but I canu2019t help behave like a child infront of my eomma., she is the bestest"},{"id":770479832,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"."},{"id":770479833,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"."},{"id":770479834,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"."},{"id":770479835,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jungkooku2019s POV:"},{"id":770479836,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I donu2019t understand why do I feel so shit right now from within.."},{"id":770479837,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"At first I was very upset by the lawyer who promised to help me and bring justice to me, for ignoring me for a whole two days.. isnu2019t it immaturity for not working properly"},{"id":770479838,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I am mostly frustrated.. deep down"},{"id":770479839,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"(Sighs)"},{"id":770479840,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"On me"},{"id":770479841,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Why the FCK I just couldnu2019t tell him everything immediately? He asked me all the right questions and it was his right to know the truth since he needed to have a closure to help me"},{"id":770479842,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"But I was honestly uncomfortable"},{"id":770479843,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I donu2019t know.. something inside makes me feel uncomfortable and scared to know how he would react after knowing what happened to me"},{"id":770479844,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"It was better if I had died that day instead of chanyeol.. this shame wouldnu2019t be so unbearable then"},{"id":770479845,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I wouldnu2019t have to go through all of this.. I could have just slept in the after life if there is one"},{"id":770479846,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"But anyways., now I am starting to make peace with my messy heart"},{"id":770479847,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I shouldnu2019t be dependent on someone to the point I go weak even more.. I am already more weak enough than you can imagine"},{"id":770479848,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I donu2019t want him to be disgusted with me"},{"id":770479849,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I am a murderer"},{"id":770479850,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"That is the bottomline"},{"id":770479851,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Bottomline of my heart"},{"id":770479852,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Bottomline of my existence"},{"id":770479853,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"I shouldnu2019t be hopeful of life when I know I shouldnu2019t be living this one."},{"id":770479854,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Because itu2019s pathetic"}]}