My Own High Evil!

{"messages":[{"id":949963848,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"ud83dudda4Trigger Warningud83dudda4"},{"id":949963849,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"It was a silent night!"},{"id":949963850,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"As if the sky was preparing for mourning above the domestic violence jail.. as if the walls of the jail were preparing to carve another story of soul.. as if the cold tiles of the jail were being cleaned before more blood could be spilled"},{"id":949963851,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"That was the case.."},{"id":949963852,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"A lamb was being prepared for m@rtyr"},{"id":949963853,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"But could it be called as lamb or a sinner in disguise? That was the real question!"},{"id":949963854,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Who was Irene? That was the real question!"},{"id":949963855,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Should she be given this worst punishment at the first kiss of sun on the earth tomorrow? Does she deserve it? Is she really a mere victim of the societyu2019s evil plots? Too many questions and all answers stay with Irene.."},{"id":949963856,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":".."},{"id":949963857,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":".."},{"id":949963858,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Irene plays with her daughter, her eyes fixed on her sweet babyu2019s chubby cheeks who smiles at her effortlessly and angelic.. the baby clutches on to her motheru2019s index finger and would bite it and suck on it while kicking her legs in the air.."},{"id":949963859,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"So pure!"},{"id":949963860,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"It could make anyone shiver with so much purity"},{"id":949963861,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Ireneu2019s train of thoughts were disturbed when he felt a voice in her cell"},{"id":949963862,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"You look sad!"},{"id":949963863,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Irene smiled looking at her child.. and then shift her gaze at the source of the voice.. Jennie was sitting outside the cell bars, showing her back and staring at the dull cold wall.."},{"id":949963864,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"How did you manage to come here?"},{"id":949963865,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Gracey, the caretaker adores me and Lisa.."},{"id":949963866,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennieu2019s voice held no emotions thatu2019s because she was trying not to crack and swim in the pool of her own tears"},{"id":949963867,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Your affection towards me and my baby, is admirable! I donu2019t deserve it"},{"id":949963868,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Ireneu2019s voice was equally lifeless and held no power of emotions"},{"id":949963869,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie sharply inhaled the cold air and her voice croaked as tears coated her eyes"},{"id":949963870,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Irene could feel it"},{"id":949963871,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I donu2019t deserve it!"},{"id":949963872,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie stayed silent for few seconds"},{"id":949963873,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Every body deserves goodness"},{"id":949963874,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"You do too!"},{"id":949963875,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Irene chuckledu2026 it was more like a mock but on Jennie instead on her ownself"},{"id":949963876,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"You see me too good"},{"id":949963877,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Irene smiled at her baby and let the little toddler suck on her finger further more"},{"id":949963878,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Arenu2019t you?"},{"id":949963879,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie didnu2019t want to ask this question.. she just wanted to bid her goodbyes.. but something inside her, makes her want to sit there and listen to Irene.. as if the latter needed a confession to make and Jennie was filling the place of a listener"},{"id":949963880,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"This baby here is the redeemer of my sins"},{"id":949963881,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"This baby is the price that I pay for my sins.."},{"id":949963882,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Finally I am defeated by my own pathetic lies and fcked up sins.. this baby here is my salvation"},{"id":949963883,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie didnu2019t say anything, letting Irene continue"},{"id":949963884,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I lied"},{"id":949963885,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I have been lying my whole life"},{"id":949963886,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I lied to you.. I lied to them all"},{"id":949963887,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"But not to justice.. it caught me right in my maze of lies.. and I am now finally set to be punished"},{"id":949963888,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie frowned.. she slightly shifted on her place.."},{"id":949963889,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I was the youngest child of my parents.. we were three siblings, girls actually.."},{"id":949963890,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie nodded to no one in particular.. Irene continued"},{"id":949963891,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I was different then them all.. my family was status conscious and they would do anything to hold it upright.. something that I hated a lot.. I just didnu2019t like their control and rules.. my two elder sisters were such a pride to the family and they all expected the same from me"},{"id":949963892,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Sadly, I was born different.. a rule breaker.. a stubborn one to be precise.. at the age of 10, I put my own dog in the washing machine.. and watched it die.."},{"id":949963893,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"At the age of 11, I put fire to my sisteru2019s cupboard because she didnu2019t share with me one of her favorite outfits.. at age of 12, I would break car glasses of my neighbors.. they all were tired of me honestly.. I was a messed up child.. I would retaliate with more aggression and with each passing day I was only getting dangerous"},{"id":949963894,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Tired my family put me in the boarding school.. they hoped the nuns would do a great job in making me a good girl.."},{"id":949963895,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"The fact that everyone wanted me to be a good girl, was enough for me to do the opposite.. I was compelled each day, to never be what everyone wants from me"},{"id":949963896,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Eventually, with great difficulty for the nuns, I graduated from there at the age of 17.. I joined the university for my degree later"},{"id":949963897,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"And thatu2019s when I met my first love.. I was mad behind him.. as if only he could understand me.. as if finally I felt that I am not alone and that I am not a sick person"},{"id":949963898,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Alone!"},{"id":949963899,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"My first love was a weird one too.. he was a sadist and was too much into drug$.. I was crazy behind him.. so I worshipped him.. I followed him in his every path.. I became the sick that I am fully with him.. I was desperate to show him I am the right one for him.. but soon enough, I realised I needed this life"},{"id":949963900,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"The explosion in every cell of your body, twisting and scratching your insides before making you completely numb, hazy and floating - that was the impact of drug$ for me and I loved it.. I just loved to go in that space filled with stars and galaxies or my own made up world"},{"id":949963901,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I loved it so much"},{"id":949963902,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Ireneu2019s voice sounded excited as she recalled her days"},{"id":949963903,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"But after my degree college, my first love left me.. but before that, I found my love for drug$.. I took more than I could bear and I would explore.. I was harming my own body and I just fcking loved it"},{"id":949963904,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I took up a local job.. trying to pay my own expenses and bills.. but I was always so desperate to be high on those substances that were seen as lethal and life $ucking.."},{"id":949963905,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Once I was found doing drug$ in my own office and I was removed.. my first love again met me and we had the same toxic relationship but this time it was better.. I barely expected anything from him and neither did he.. we were on the same boat who loved getting high on their sickness"},{"id":949963906,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"But once I did an overdose.. my father saved me and I was put up in rehabilitation"},{"id":949963907,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"After six months.. I was declared sober and I was given a clean slate.. I was given the Great opportunity to live again and in a better way"},{"id":949963908,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"But you know what? I was a great liar.. fooling them all was easy"},{"id":949963909,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Right after six months of sober ness, my fatheru2019s friendu2019s son offered to marry me"},{"id":949963910,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I couldnu2019t say no.. I was high.."},{"id":949963911,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I was all the time hiding and letting the evil sink in me greatly.."},{"id":949963912,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"My husband was a good guy.. something I didnu2019t deserve.. with his love, I did realised I was psychotic and I need to be treated with greater care and efficiency.. but I just couldnu2019t say goodbyes to my own pills"},{"id":949963913,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I was selfish.. I loved the subspace it took me too.. I always felt like flying"},{"id":949963914,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Matters worsened when I started to treat my husband badly.. he was trying to make amends.. he was trying to understand me and help me.."},{"id":949963915,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"But I had my walls up high.."},{"id":949963916,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"8 months ago, I started to notice my husbandu2019s friendship with my second sister.."},{"id":949963917,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I was jealous and more likely I was angry.. I was a broken mess and my sister was perfect.."},{"id":949963918,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"So one month after, i took an extra pills.. I was not even in my senses because I was fcking enjoying my evilness and I just wanted to drown in it.. I did, drown in it!"},{"id":949963919,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I invited my sister for a dinner.."},{"id":949963920,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"My husband and his family were all presentu2026 I mixed a poison in their food.. and watched them die.. and when they died.. I killed them again.."},{"id":949963921,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie shrieked in tears and she clenched on to her heart tightly.. it was unbearable, her voice muffled.. Irene listened to it"},{"id":949963922,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"My father found them all dead the next morning, and I taking some drug$ sitting near their corpses"},{"id":949963923,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I was sentenced to death instantly.. i was in the high profile jail for serial killers"},{"id":949963924,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"After a month in the jail, I was diagnosed with my pregnancy.. I was already two months pregnant by then.."},{"id":949963925,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"You know what..I didnu2019t feel this punishment as my death.. because I feel that I am finally paying the price of my evil.. I was so stubborn to even realise it.."},{"id":949963926,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Until the day I gave birth.."},{"id":949963927,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"That day, I realised I am so fcking evil.."},{"id":949963928,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I regret it"},{"id":949963929,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I donu2019t want to leave my baby.."},{"id":949963930,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I am so sorry.."},{"id":949963931,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Irene hugged her own child.."},{"id":949963932,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I am so sorry for giving you this misery (looks at her child and cries harder)"},{"id":949963933,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Irene had long forgotten Jennieu2019s presence"},{"id":949963934,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Irene was sobbing loudly now"},{"id":949963935,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I could have given her a home.. a father.. a family.. I could have given my baby everything"},{"id":949963936,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I am the cause of my babyu2019s fate.."},{"id":949963937,"character_id":20733946,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I am so sorry"},{"id":949963938,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie wiped her tears harshly and stood up.. she clenched her fist on the sides.. she turned and looked at Irene.. her breath hitched because what she listened was too much to take"},{"id":949963939,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie spoke firmly"},{"id":949963940,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I hate you.."},{"id":949963941,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie said nothing but ran away from there and to her cell"},{"id":949963942,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Irene didnu2019t even mind Jennieu2019s words.. because right now, her tears were glossed as she hugs her child tightly.."},{"id":949963943,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"The dawn.."},{"id":949963944,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Is nearing"},{"id":949963945,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"There will be a lot of trigger warnings going forward.. now why have I written this? Is not to be angry on Irene.. I used her character to portray something is deeply twisted in the world..itu2019s a sickness actually.."},{"id":949963946,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"With the warnings, I would like to say is that.. if you canu2019t handle angst and such tragedies please skip the chapter.. I have not been shy with my chapters and the words are not something nice.. so it will be understandable if you canu2019t bear such stuffs and skip the chapter.. I wonu2019t be mad or sad, I sincerely understand"}]}