how can I do this to myself?….                        

   Episode-83 how can I do this to myself?….                             Celeste’s POV:              I am surprised but in a bad way… as I got out of the bathroom he is sitting on chair smoking, but what terrifies me more is that he is looking at Isabella’s picture… he is looking at her…. he will torture me now…  I am filled with fear…        I went under the cover and turned my back to him and closed my eyes, please.. don’t rpe me again…. Don’t…. I am scared about the torture more than the rape.. I can’t bear the physical pain… I can’t… I am afraid I will agree to everything he will say when he starts to hurt me..     I was wide awake and alert.. more than awake… after 15 minutes, I heard footsteps. I heard the door close… I got up and looked at the door, I looked around the room to make sure he was not here… I got down and went to the bathroom to check if he was there or not…. He left the room… I feel relief… but where he went in middle of the night…    Ernest’s POV:                     I walked to the shooting rang… I am so tensed… something is uneasy inside me… like it’s killing me. I grabbed the gun and I started shooting at the target without thinking. I shot till there were no bullets in the gun.. I searched for more bullet, I reloaded the gun and  I started shooting again… he gun got empty…      I threw the gun in frustration, the anger I too much to handle… I am angry on myself too… I don’t know when this Celeste got stuck in my mind. No matter how hard I try to hate her I am failing. Cherry was right, I kept her here as Isabella but me myself consider as Celeste…    Why I got this weak and took her in my heart?... how can I love the daughter of Reef Millar?.... how can I care about the person’s daughter who killed Isabella?...  I felt like dying when I though Celeste was about to fall of the balcony… what happened to me?... I hate myself… how can I do this to myself?….        I asked to myself, “can I forget Isabella?”        Alexis POV:                     I was driving my car to our meeting spot. It’s the garden house owned by dad.. Serene must be waiting for me. Snow, my cat was sitting beside the driving seat.. Snow was looking out of the window. He is really curious cat.. but he hates vet… I mean when I took her to Serene earlier, Snow didn’t liked her very well.. he was hissing…     I said to Snow as if he will understand, “Snow… look buddy… we are meeting Serene.. she is going to be your momma.. so be a good boy… don’t scratch, no bites, no hissing.. I warn you buddy..”     Snow was busy looking out of the window… I know he is a cat but I am worried, what is he scratched my Serene.. this is second date.. I don’t want to mess up.      I parked the car and took Snow in my arms, I whispered, “Buddy.. love Serene.. she is your momma..”     (Snow: but she is a vet…)       I walked to see Serene sitting in the garden smiling.. she is unreal, beautiful… I pulled my phone out and clicked her picture.. I don’t mind if she knows or not.. I need to treasure her…      I noticed Snow was struggling, this coward cat!... I said, “Buddy… wait…” thank god he was on cat harness… I was struggling, Snow was trying to get back to car. I said, “Snow… be brave boy!!” he kept pulling the harness..      (Snow: dad.. I won’t scarifies myself for your love life…)