we are even

     Episode-152 we are even     Celeste’s POV:    Few hours later        I sat there after he left now knowing what to do?.... I didn’t cried much because I have no energy to do so… I remembered his words saying I only considered the hate not the love he showed for this time… but how can I?... he is thinking as a man,… he is not the women who got tortured for something she didn’t do?... he is not me who had to sign a marriage agreement forcefully…       I heard footsteps walking in the room and closing the door. He sat in front of me, and I looked at him lifelessly.. Ernest was applying something on my cheek…    He said, “sorry… it hurts bad.. this will help…” what kind of person he is?.... I noticed his lip was bleeding.. his neck was also red..    I was just staring at his wounds, he noticed it he said, “I hit myself…..” I internally asked why?... he said as kept treating my cheek, “from today… we are even… if I lose control in anger, and I hit you.. then you can do it to…  you slap me then I will do the same, even though I will try not too…. they say men are abusive in a relationship, I will allow my women to be abusive if I did a mistake again…. I am always like this, I have no control over anger, mom tried to teach me, fix me… but it’s me… I will love someone till death, but my anger derives my actions…”    I looked away from him, what kind of man he is?... the nonsense he is spitting makes sense.. or what..    He added, “I love you…. this is true… I know you will not believe it, you will say it’s obsession and other things… as I said before I can welcome this hate of yours… but I can’t tolerate losing you…. my hate is worst than anything…”    I have nothing to say, I decided to remain silent, he said, “we are even from today… you have rights on me, you can ask me where I was? With whom I was?.. anything… but I desire the same rights… if you date someone, I will also do the same… I doubt it though, I am disgusted in other women….” He pulled my chin to face him…    He said, “you look confused, I will explain.. if I kiss you, you can do it to… you can spank me too… I won’t mind… if you want to go rough when we do it, then it’s ok…. You want to lead then it’s ok… if you are pregnant then we both are pregnant….”    I got red, he is a dirty minded jerk… I said, “you can’t get pregnant….” He chuckled… he said, “I am just saying, you have every right as my wife on me… I can announce the marriage if you want.. my family knows, they accepted you.. what more do you want?...  I can give you anything, no one can love you like I do… I just want my women to be mine… is that too much?” I looked at him as he said this..    I said as I got up, “you made yourself sound as a victim where I am the victim here…” I walked in the bathroom after I said this… he is insane… he is crazy…. I need a shower to wash him off from me… I wish this was possible… but it doesn’t look like possible… but I will give him the hate he deserves…