“I can’t lose you”

**  Episode- 261 “I can’t lose you”** **   Ernest’s POV:**      Few hours later,         The doctor conformed that Celeste was indeed pregnant. And she was looking through her test, I just want to tell my family and her family about this baby…. this feels like a blossom of happiness is blooming every second in heart.    The doctor looked at us and said, “Sir… I don’t have a good news…” my heart skipped a beat, I noticed Celeste was silent all of a sudden, in the same worry as mine….    The doctor said, “there certain complications in pregnancy, as Mrs. Celeste mentioned she has pain too, and I am sure about this…. it’s not safe for her to give birth to this child, either one of them will make it… mother or the child… I suggest abortion….”    I asked losing patience, “are you sure?”   The doctor said, “yes I am… this is rare and dangerous situation,  I have encountered only 4 cases till now in my 20 years currier, and I suggested abortion… one of the mother rejected, then  both child and the mother died… I will suggest that Mrs. Gray should abort… you can refer any other doctor but they will tell you the same…” this can’t be true.. this is insane.    Celeste looked at the doctor and said,  “there must be a way… my baby is going to make it.. I know..”    The doctor sigh and said, “Mrs. Gray, the chances are low.. but if your child makes it, then possibly it won’t have its mother with it… you can think about it.. you are 6 weeks pregnant, but the abortion should be done before 4 months.. I am sorry…”   She broke down the next second, I pulled her to me and embraced her. Celeste, please… don’t cry… this is hard to believe the happiness we celebrated together hours ago turned into cried…. This is unfair.     **  Celeste’s POV:**       I silently cried the whole ride… how many dreams I had and they all are scattering in front of me every moment. I will lose this baby… no.. I won’t…. the doctor was telling the probability… I know my baby will be fine and in my arms… I am giving birth to it…    As I was in our room, Ernest embraced and I let light sobs as I couldn’t keep it in. I felt him patting my back, he said, “love, hold strong… this time will pass… let’s do what  doctor has told… everything will be fine with time..”   Wait… he wants me to abort…. But I decided I will have this baby…. I won’t kill my own baby…    I parted and said taking his hand in mine, “Ernest… let’s give this baby a chance… I know our baby will be fine and with us…. With you and me….” he looked at me in disbelief… he pulled his hand out of mine.  Ernest said, “what did you said?.. that you will give birth to this baby risking your life… knowing you can d-die…” he is worried about me..  I said, “let’s not think about it…”  His voice got louder, he said, “I have to think about you…. you are blinded by your emotions for child… but I can’t lose you, Celeste… my life gave me a second chance in you, and I can’t be selfish to let you die just for this baby…”    I shake my head in ‘no’ trying to stop him. he grabbed my shoulders and said, “Celeste.. please, love… let’s abort it… I don’t want a baby at the price of your life… please..”    I said as I cried out, “Ernest… please.. it’s our baby… I can’t kill it…”   He said as his anger and worry were overpowering, “and I can’t let it kill you…. we are getting this child out of you… at any cost.. I can’t lose you..”    He was about to turn when I said, “it’s my body…. I have decided I will have this baby, even if I have to die…” I hiccupped in the last, I was angry on him too… how can he ask me to abort our baby.     Ernest looked at me in disbelief and then bite his inner cheek, tear stream down his blue eye. He said, “you have 2days  to agree to abort… or…. I don’t know what I do… I can’t let it kill you in front of me… I can do anything to keep you alive…”   I said in anger, “I will not abort… this my baby, and I am giving it life even if causes my death…”    Ernest warned me, “if you want to give birth to it, even after knowing it will kill you… if you are ready to leave me behind alone… then remember, I won’t let this happen…. If by any chance this child lives after killing you, then I will refuse to accept it, it will never receive father’s love after killing it’s mother…. he or she will live as my enemy, the one who harms you can never be in my heart…” as he said this something in my heart hurts... I shake my head in ‘no’ being in tears.   But he said, “I want a baby if I am with you… not on price of your life…  we are getting this aborted in 2 days… prepare yourself…. Because one thing I know… I won’t let you die…” he kissed my forehead and said, “I love you so much….”  I just cried… what else can I do? but I am not letting this baby die… it has to live.. I know once Ernest cools down he will agree to whatever I say…. I just need to wait  a day or more….  I said internally, ‘baby… don’t worry, even if something happens to moma.. dada will take care of you, he is just angry… don’t mind his words…. dad and moma loves you’