“I beg you”

Episode- 263 “I beg you”    Ernest’s POV:       I am so worried, I know she feels for the baby….. I feel sad too, but I can’t let her die just to have a  child…. No… no I must make her understand. Nothing is important that Celeste…     She hasn’t talked with me from yesterday, neither I dared to met her eyes. why this is happening? Why us?     I went to the mansion and it’s silent, I asked the maid about Celeste. The maid said, “Your highness, Ma’am was not feeling well… she was throwing up and her stomach also hurts… so she is resting..” I nodded. she is in pain. I can’t see her like this…   I walked in the room, I saw her under the covers… Celeste, I can’t risk your life.   I got out of my coat and tie, caressed her head. My love, don’t do this… please.    I got on the bed beside her, hugging her from behind. I stayed there embracing her, the thought of losing her is horrifying. I felt her moving her fingers on my hand, she is awake. I didn’t said anything, I just kissed her head.  I felt her directing my hand to her belly, as I touched her belly I sigh, and rested my head on the pillow. She said, “Ernest… this is our baby…. please love it.. let me give it life….” I pulled my hand away from her belly and sat up, moving my hand through my hairs. She can’t make me do this… never…..   She sat up and said, “Ernest… please.”   I looked at her as I was angry and hurt on her decision. I said, “you can’t make me do this, Love. If this child hurts you then I don’t want it… you don’t deserve this… neither I deserve to lose you… this would be selfish and foolish to risk your life to get a baby…”   Her eyes got teary, I don’t want to hurt her but I want to be clear. I touched her face and said, “listen to me just this once… let’s do what doctor says, your life is important..”   She asked in disbelief, “you really want to abort the baby?... this is our child, you want to me kill my own baby…”    I am losing patience, I said, “do you want this baby to kill you then?... but I don’t want to risk your life. so, I want you to abort this baby… if you really want  a baby then we can try again, but not this time…” she pushed me aside and got down the bed, I attempted to grab her hand, I know she is angry.    She pushed my hand aside and said, “I am having this baby…” as she attempted walk I saw her let a small scream and sitting on the ground holding her stomach. She was in pain, the maids told me earlier…. Before I could approach her, she said, “stop…” she got up and walked to the bathroom with her painful efforts…        I found myself smoking after few minutes, I am so worried. Celeste should understand me… I am ready to beg her not do this… but….    After few minutes she walks out of the bathroom, I look at her and I can tell she bathed, her hairs are wet. She avoided looking at me, this made me even more angry. I let the smoke out from my mouth. Can’t she understand I don’t want to lose her.. I love her so much….    She said, “Ernest… stop smoking…” I know, I stopped… I didn’t smoke for months because she asked me to do it. but today I couldn’t help. I ignored her words and kept smoking.    I heard her approaching me, she said, “Ernest…. Stop smoking… I asked you this, this is not good for your health.”   I smirked and looked at her, I said, “I also asked you something but you refused just now… and why do you care if I die from smoking or not… you are ready to die for this baby..” she gave a look, that she  was done with me being like this.   I blew the smoke out again in front of her without hesitating. She said, “Ernest… I am pregnant this is not good for our baby…”  I just said to her, “I don’t care… this baby is danger for you, and I do not care about this baby…”    She said in disbelief, “how can you say that about your child?.... are you a monster or what?” she was angry.   I grabbed her arms pulling her close to me, I said, “I am a monster… I know…. I know you won’t listen to me, and I won’t force you too… I love you, but I can’t just let you die… remember one thing, if this baby in you kills you… then I will kill myself too… I can’t live without you…”   She was in tears, she whispered, “how can you say that?.... I am taking risk for our baby…. if something happens to me you should be the one to take care of the baby, raise it, love it….”   I said in instant almost screaming, “how can you think, I will be ok seeing you die… and try act like nothing happened… and love this child…. I want to have a child with you but only when you are with me…” I can see that she is crying…. I wiped her tears and got on my both knees. I took her hand in mine, and said, “I beg you Celeste… don’t do this… let’s end this pregnancy when we have time… please… I beg you…”I was in tears myself.. horrified by the thought of losing her….    I looked at her and whispered, “please…” I saw her walking out of the room covering her mouth to stop her sobs. As she left I sat down and couldn’t help but cry… she rejected it again… she won’t listen to me…. what should I do not… I grabbed my hairs completely blinded by worried and fear…. I feel so helpless… she can’t do this to me…. she can’t….