Episode 17

    Episode- 17      I saw Ron waiting for me on the road, I gulped but I saw his eyes were worried. I decided to walk to him. I stood in front of him and I was not able look in his eyes soon I pushed my head down as I was unable to control my pain.     I felt Ron’s hands wrapping around me and his hands were pulling me close into a hug. It was a warm and comforting feeling like he was not angry on me, neither was he disappointed in me,,, like he cared for me. I hugged him and tears escaped from my eyes as I was unable to control it anymore.    He whispered in my ears, “Don’t worry,,, you are no longer alone,,, I am with you.” this made me even more cry, a sob escaped and he patted my head.     I was sitting on the bench in the nearby garden, Ron walked to me and placed coffee in  my hand and sat close to me. He was having his coffee and looking at the night sky…. I looked at him and whispered, “Sorry.”    He looked at me and then turned back to the sky. He said, “You should be sorry,,, for hiding it from me and doing this to yourself.”   I looked at the coffee in my hand and a tear escaped, I confessed, “I was scared…. Scared that I will be considered weak,,,,,, you will leave me in disappointment… that you will be ashamed of me like everyone else.. *sob*”    I felt his hand wiping my tear and he looked at me with affection. He said, “I will never leave you… I can never be ashamed or disappointed in women I love…. But I was hurt knowing you hurt yourself as if I was being hurt… you could have told me.” his words were something that I never except… so is not ashamed of a person like me.    Ron asked, “For how long are you doing this to yourself?”    I said while looking at the sky, “Maybe from end of my teen age…… I thought I could end every pain by ending myself,,,, but it never work but then I started doing it whenever I can’t handle stress.”    I looked at him and he had tears in his eyes,,,, was he crying for me…. I subconsciously touched his cheeks to wipe the tear and whispered, “Sorry….  I am really sorry.”     He hugged me, like I would disappear any moment…. He was hugging me tightly… I hugged him back. I heard his words mixed with tears, “I am sorry for not seeing it…. I am sorry I failed to protect you… but from today you can tell me any problem you have… we can solve it together..”    He separated  from me and looked in my teary eyes and said, “Promise me… you will tell me when something bother you…. we can solve it together… promise me you will never harm yourself…. I can’t lose you.”    I nodded and whispered, “I promise.” He is the comfort and love I was searching for all my life… finally I met my real home. He placed a kiss on my forehead and hugged me again.  I want him to be by my side forever.