“I lost my everything”

   Episode- 33 “I lost my everything”   Alisha’s POV:   He took me to the car and didn’t said a word, I sat there looking out of the window… I was married to him now, I was his wife… if 20 year me was here she would be happy but now I hate this… because I know what kind of person he is….    He stopped the car at of my store and I was about to open the car door,,, but I heard his stone cold voice saying, “You are Mrs. Edwin Gray now,,,, but don’t tell anyone about it… you can’t go near other men… you have do as I say… you go and pack your things, Ken will pick you up and take you to my house after your store closes… now get out.” I didn’t say anything because right now I wanted to get out of this car,,, I got out of the car.. and walked in the store………..    As soon as I entered the store Tina walked to me and said, “Where were you?,,,, I was worried sick.” I really wanted to cry right now but I don’t want to break down in front of her… I walked passing her and went to my desk……… I put my head down on the table and silently cried…….. today I lost my freedom and self respect… I lost my everything…… everything………    I just sat there not knowing what to do, I was just thinking that I am betraying Ron right now,,, I am married to a devil… but one thing I know that I will live my life as I want, not according to Edwin Grey……..    I got up and searched for Tina, I found her after few minutes, I said, “Tina,,, I am going,,, I am not feeling well,,, can you take care of store?”  Tina hugged and then said, “I know you miss Ron…. you can have your time… I will take care of the store.” As much I wanted to tell her and cry in her arms,,, but I can’t because I just can’t,,,, I feel shame that I have to marry cousin of my late boyfriend…. I just can’t…   I walked to my apartment and closed the door as I entered it. I went to my bed and collapsed on it,,, tears were escaping without my permission,,,  how can this happen to me? why did he forced me to marry? Just because he promised Ron….   But I am not willing to be his wife… I don’t want him,,, I know I will be only a toy and a substitute for everything… I don’t want a life of a substitute…. I closed my eyes as a thought of killing myself arise in my mind… I want to end everything including myself but Ron asked me to never do it again… I have no courage to break my promise to him…. our last promise together…    I woke up on my bed, my head was hurting due the crying, I looked at my phone at it was 10:07 PM,,, I am sleeping since afternoon… I remember everything that happen today… I checked my phone and I have messages, one of them was Tina, she was worried about me, I texted her that I am fine. Then I saw Ruth’s text she was practically cursing me, I don’t know how should I react to that text,,, she knew in what situation I married him but still she thinks it’s my fault. I decided to ignore her.  Then I saw missed calls from an unknown number… I didn’t respond…. I threw the phone on the bed and walked to the kitchen and took a water bottle out of the fridge… I drank the water and walked into the bathroom……. I washed my face and got out of there.   Then I landed on the sofa,,, I have no hunger, I just feel the pain and discomfort due to all of this happen…. I heard my phone ringing again, I ignored it and sat there as I have no way to think or go… I really feel like I am going to be lost forever in my life…. my thoughts were invaded by the door bell, I got up and opened the door…. I don’t know what I was thinking.   I saw Edwin standing there with a face soaked with anger, I noticed he had a gun around his belt and his shirt was wet due to sweat,,, I took a step back and attempted to close the door but he pushed the door and I landed on the floor. He walked in and closed the door behind him…. I am really scared and terrified… I know I should run out of here but I have no way to run from him….