I am willing

    Episode- 160 I am willing    Alisa’s POV:    I heard Edwin’s voice, “What are you still here?... go get changed.” I don’t want to talk to him… I just looked down. He pulled me up and but I pulled my hand away from him.. he said,  “I am sorry about earlier…… I know you are not willing for me and you being close…. but I lost control…”   I looked at him I surprise. I though he rejected me but he did that because he thought I was not willing…. He though….. thought about my permission… he is not that bad, he cares about my feelings… he is apologizing to me… the mistake he made unintentionally…     I can see his face getting frustrated as he is having hard time explaining… I know I might be crazy for what I am going to do… but I am willing and happy… that’s what I care most… I don’t give a sh*t about am I wrong or right?     I moved close to him and kissed his lips lightly, I quickly got away… I can see he is confused and surprised… it’s the first time I kissed him first…. I whispered, “I was willing for it.” he was surprised but soon he moved close to me and connected his forehead with mine and asked, “can I?” I nodded.   He kissed me hungrily and he is passionate and rough… he is holding my body close to him.. he bite my lips and I moaned out… he inserted his tough and he is like a beast ready to devour me… he picked me up and parted the kiss… he walked to the house and I know I don’t want to stop,,, I rested my head on his shoulder…. I kissed his neck, I could feel his hard chest and I kissed his neck again, he growled saying, “Stop.. or I might in you on the ground and devour you”     As soon he we got into room… I got on my feet and he kissed me without any warning… I supported myself with his shoulders… I don’t know when I was on bed… he was attacking my neck… he already toured my top leaving me with my b*a… he is kissing my neck and cleavage… and I can’t help but tangle my fingers around his hairs, and moan… my breathe is getting heavy… he said in between, “Love you.” and continued kissing…     He said he loves me… I heard him right… he bite my skin and I couldn’t help but respond… he was touching me everywhere possible….. I whispered, “love you too.” I said it… yes… I know I loved him all this time… but I never admitted… I was never going to admit it… but…    He separated from me and removed his shirt…. He moved close to me and put his hand on the tattoo he gave me, his touch as giving me shivers … he asked, “Are you sure?”     I whispered breathlessly, “Yes…”   He took my hand and placed it on his tattoo the same rose tattoo which he gave… and he was touching mine… he said, “Remember… after today.. you are only mine… forever… ..” I was just amazed to see this side of him… his eyes are telling me he cares for me… more than anything… or it’s still a dream, a beautiful dream I always wanted…    He kissed my waist where the tattoo is… I heard him saying in between, “I don’t regret this symbol of mine on your body…. Maybe situation was not right… but I don’t regret it…” he was still sucking my skin, he is gentle while making love… I grip the bed sheet this pleasure is too much to handle…..     He said again, “You are only mine… for every life…” he moved to my shorts… he run his finger from my cleavage to  my belly button and I am nervous but desperate.. I am craving for more….. I never done anything like this before… I am scared but I want to flow in this desire…..    I looked at Edwin and he asked, “can I?” I nodded while looking away, I was trying to hide my nervous face as he pulled my shorts away… he placed a kiss on my lips and said, “Believe me you are the most beautiful women I ever seem… and forever will be….” Allowed him to do everything he wants… he touched me, kissed me… he made love to me… I don’t know how many times we did it… but last thing I remember is his sweaty body against mine… he tried to end every distance between our bodies…. His every thr*st made me moan in pain and pleasure…. He tried to do his best to be gentle, I can sense that but he was losing it… he was losing himself in this fire of desire between our bodies… I know my body might be filled with love bites….. every time he went inside me he had grip on my waist and tight but most importantly my mind……      I will remember our first forever… his sweet words and they way he touched me, the way he loved me….. he kissed me for the last time and covered me my n*ked body with the comforter and hugged me to sleep.. I heard his whisper, “Love you.” but I have no energy to respond to him… my eyes closed out of exhaustion….