“I am still the same”                                                                  

**Episode- 190 “I am still the same”                                                                  ** **   Alisa’s POV:                                               ** I turned my face away from him… I scoffed, “Oh!... right! I am house arrest on false basis by a all mighty King…. should I jump out of the window on this happy moment of being wronged…” now his face turned cold as if he is losing his control over his anger.. He turned to me and said with hint of anger, “you have became sharp with your words..” wow!.. he is really doing this… but I will not stop. I said back, “You don’t like it… then let me go…” he smirked as he got close to my face and said, “No.. I like it very much,,  even if you danced ***** in front of me to prove me you are undesirable… you still be the most desirable in my eyes… the most beautiful, and  this anger filled eyes of yours…” He is unbelievably shameless… dance *****? Me.. how can talk things like that… He hugged me out of sudden and pulled me on his lap, he was burying his face in my neck and I got shivers all round, he use to do this back then whenever he came back from office… just like those days… wait… I am not giving in…. I tried to push him and get out of his grip but it only got tighter.. I tried to create distance but he said, “Little dove please….. I know very well you are mad at me,,, but please I missed you,, I need you for healing just like always..” his words are making me feel these butterflies again…. I finally pushed him and got away from him, I looked in his eyes which shows he was affected by my action, I said, “Don’t touch me… stay away from me… we are not the same anymore…” He looked at me for a wide moment as if he was searching something in my eyes, he got up and stood close to me forcefully taking my hand in his, he completely ignored my struggles… but he was holding my hand gently… he asked, “Can’t we be the same we use to be?” His eyes are slightly teary, they are pleading to me… his hand went to touch my cheek… he asked again, “Can’t we be each other’s again?...” I answered boldly, “No..” he was surprised.. and hurt…. As if he was controlling his emotions… he came close to my face looking in my eyes, one wrong move and our lips will collide with each other… he said, “Then I am not going to listen to you, little dove… I will behave like I all ways do… I will take decisions about our relation like I did back them, even if you disagree …. but difference would be that in the past I tried to keep you away from me… and now I will keep you close to me, in my heart, in my palace and in my life.,, in every moment of my life…. every moment… I am going to be selfish again to keep you with me.” his lips landed on mine, I quickly got away and landed a slap on his cheek as I was in tears by his words…… He looked at me and said, “Now you have every right to hit me… I would never stop you.. I belong to you..” I was confused on his word… why is he doing this… this is making me weak… He pulled me in to a kiss again as he pinned on the wall, securing my both hands in his, he was forceful, and using his power in his kiss… I can see his tear falling,,, soon I was subconsciously kissing him back.. he was out of sudden passionate and soft, but engulfing me into him… and my body is not following my brain He parted and I was looking at him all the anger I have in my body and tears were in both of our eyes… he said, “I am still the same…. I won’t cross the line till you are willing..” he left with a loud sound made by the door… I slide to sit on the cold floor and breath heavily….. why I feel for him, out of sudden… why my heart is trying to betray me… I am not letting this happen