“Talking to you is useless”                  

Episode- 196 “Talking to you **is useless”                   ** I said, “I need to talk…” I have to make it clear.. I can’t let my heart chose by itself.. I am not ready to break again…. He looked at me as I drive his attention from him work… he said, “Driver… stop the car and get out for five minutes…”  the driver stopped the car and got out… the security was behind us, they all positioned themselves around the car… I looked at them as this all makes me uneasy, Edwin said, “What is it, little dove?” I was finally looking at him and said, “Edwin… King Arthur…. Just forget whatever was between us in the past… I am a normal girl, and you….. .. whatever…. I don’t want to move here… neither I want my work to move here… neither I want to marry you again, I don’t want all of this…. I desire to return and live as I am living for 2 year, I have my grandpa, my family, the office.. I have lots of responsibilities… so declare the announcement as a mistake and tell everyone I have nothing to do with it… let me go..” I noticed he was not looking at me anymore, he tightening his feast, he is angry…. Even after I make him angry he is trying not to harm me as before… he cares… but that’s not enough to stop me here… I decided I will not be with him…. He turned to me, his eyes are sharp, cold and dark, I still don’t know how to deal with his this face, he said, “Are you telling me to let you go so  can live as a robot… do you want me to remind you your schedule… 6 am wake up, 7:30 am office… barely had lunch, barely talks to anyone, office ends at 5:30, but you leave at 7pm… then run to your store, work there, you check the records till 12 midnight… you get home at 12:30… then eat something, which I really don’t believe…. Then overwork yourself till 2 in the morning… you don’t even had a day off not even weekends, you overwork… till you were on the hospital bed.. you were admitted to hospital for 7 times in these 2 year, all are stress, anxiety, overwork, anemia… I arranged your therapy for self harming problem… but ended up having therapy for lot more than that…. I don’t want you to return to that…” I was just looking down as he was telling what I did for two years… I really lived a messed up life… but I tried to overwork because I didn’t wanted to miss him.. He said, “You did all this because you didn’t wanted to have a reason to remember me… you didn’t wanted to miss me… at first I wanted it too… but after what I got reports about… I wanted rush to your side and put a tight slap on your face to remind you what is it to live life… but I loved you, I can’t hurt you again….  It was better if you spend your everyday cursing me instead of working… listen Little dove… no matter what happens, you are not going back, you can fight me here all day, but at least I can be insured you are eating and sleeping… I won’t let you return because I know how your parents treat you and  that old man is giving you work pressure and  trying to set you up with someone and last time if it was not for me…  I don’t know what would have happened..” I looked at him with teary eyes, he knows everything… he was worried…  he is still worried and it’s right last time if it’s was not for him I could have been in hell, stuck with that jerk…. He banged his hand on the window in frustration, I don’t know what got into me but I pulled his hand to make sure it was not hurt., I was worried sick he might get hurt … my tears fall on his palm and I moved back…. I looked out of the window and wiped my tears… I cursed myself…. I said, “Let’s go… talking with you is useless…” I sniff at the end as I was crying…