“I will change”              

   **Episode- 200 “I will change”              **        He suddenly pulled me into a kiss, he was rough and passionate, not ready to let me breath, I can feel he is somewhat angry… I pushed him away… but he was still holding my waist, he said, “Let’s then consider I don’t want to go either… instead I will do sinful things to you, at last you look delicious in this dress…… but it’s still important party ….if you insist… change this dress … …but  I still like staying inside….”       Maybe dress was really bad idea… I whispered, “I will change…” I pushed my hair behind by shoulder in frustration the thought of losing against him is making me feel weird, but my heart is really racing for no reason, am I really that easy to manipulate.. my lips formed a pout in annoyance as I am avoiding his gaze…      Edwin’s blue eyes are still diving in my body, suddenly I feel like I have shown too much of my body in this dress, like he is practically touching me with his gaze, this man has no shame, he smirked on his winning… he whispered back, “Don’t worry… if you like this dress so much then wear it on our wedding night…” I pushed him away and whispered to myself, “he is still a pervert..” surely he is enjoying himself….he is having everything thing done according to him as he ever wanted… this engagement party?.. I was informed on the same day on the party itself… but I must find a way to ditch this party..    What can I do.. what can I do… what can I do… I looked at myself in the mirror for one more time.. I observed myself in this fraction of second…      A thought ran my mind and smiled at myself, finally a brilliant idea crossed my mind, sometimes my brain really works… this is amazing idea.. ‘so be confident and slap on him your words’ I said this to myself as I am making myself ready to speak to him…     I turned to him, he is still looking at me with expression asking me why am I not even changing, his gaze is intense and like every second I stay in this dress in front of him, I am putting myself in front of a hungry animal filled with lust… but I have to say he looks really sexy….. I shake my head internally, I faced him and I said with full confidence, “Your majesty, I don’t have another outfit… so you should attend your party all by yourself…” I smiled in victory.. there is no way he is talking me like this in front of everyone and I don’t have extra dress.. Jackpot!!!! I was stopping myself from jumping as I finally beat him once…     But in return I got a smirk from him, my smile fade on his reaction, he don’t look concern or stressed, he said with the same smirk, “You are smart but still my stupid women to me…. check the closet… little dove” he pointed his hand gracefully to the closet… I looked at the closet confusingly and him at the same time…    I confusingly looked at him searching for answers, he raised his eyebrow and I walked to the closet in complete confusion, I don’t even know why am I doing this right now.., I opened it to see a light blue princess style dress hanging there, it had lot of material on its bottom  with lace and top had beautiful design with lace itself, it is puffy with lot of volume.. if I walk in it I will feel like floating, lacy sleeves are hanging around the shoulder, they are off shoulder with sweetheart neckline. This dress is magnificently beautiful, every girl wants something like this in her life, it’s like a dream dress.… I looked at him then at the dress in my closet, I really have no idea when he got something his huge in this room, is he magician or what…. I asked to myself, “when did he sneak a dress in” as I was fighting with my thoughts about this dress I heard him..      He said from behind, “I knew you were plan something… so as I know you well I had to prepare a surprise… but I never thought you would be in this red dress… you still surprised me…. go get dressed and matching heels are there in the box beside the blue dress….” I walked in as I rolled my eyes… why can’t I win against him…… he look utterly satisfied, like he knew my every move, does he reads my mind..       I was still touching the fabric of this dress, it’s expensive.. how much does this bastard spend on this dress.. like I want to wear it and not at the same time.. I heard him again, “Do you want me to help you put it on, little dove?” he said this flirtatiously,… I glared at him and walked in to change, I was cursing him all this time as I am beyond angry on him, I lost again,… what is use of me I can’t even win a simple tricks with him… Tina is really good at these things.. I am the only dumb b*tch here,,, I want to scream..     I looked myself in the closet mirror… is this really me.. like this dress was made for me.. I touched the dress around my body and couldn’t help but smile.. but I kept a straight face as I entered the bed room, he is sitting on the bed with folded hands around his chest, he got up as soon as he saw me.. suddenly my heard is racing on his expression in his eyes, it’s not lust but a complete different way to admire me.. like I am precious… wait… this is not good not good… suddenly I found him too close to me…     I stood away but my eyes are never leaving his gaze, he placed his hand on my cheek and he smiled at me saying, “More beautiful than I imagined…”  I was still busy glaring at him.. but this dress looks good on me… why he makes me this confused?... I got away from him turning my back to him and faced the mirror I fixed my makeup and hair…. He is still looking at me through the mirror…   He was looking at me as if I am treasure or something…..  why can’t he use his words.. why he forced me to read his face when he is hard to read… he never tells me anything, that’s why I am mad at him, for leaving, for everything.. it’s always him who decides… nothing is mine..     I got ready and face him, I am still hiding from looking in his eyes, I am afraid I will melt.. that is never happening.. I am not giving him anymore chance… I am not ready to break again… he took my hand and said, “Let’s go My Queen..”  when he calls me ‘MY Queen’ it feels amazing… I am hiding it all behind these angry eyes.. and it does hurt a little…       We walked in the hall  filled with lights, chandelier,  flowers and guest looking at us, this placed looks like a fashion show, there are rich men and elegant ladies… I saw Edwin’s mom and dad, I passed a small nod, they smiled at me, they make this place better .. I noticed Edwin’s  grandpa he has a straight face, Edwin surely takes after this rude man, but I smiled at him and I got nothing literally no expression , … soon everyone’s eyes were on me and him, suddenly this beautiful of this placed and well dressed guests make me scared..this is too much of attention I ever gained and this is making me sweat and my heard dropping is nervous.. … I am getting nervous, I feel like I will faint any moment, people are talking about us, pictures are getting clicked, flashes and everything is too much for a normal person like me to handle..  I looked at Edwin, he is cool, like this all doesn’t exist.. he is really perfect, even though he is nervous he will never let anyone know, he looked at me and gave me a warm smile … he pulled his hand around my waist and whispered, “No worried… I am right beside you…” I looked at him with a nod… but I never agreed to this all in the first place but everything is happening in blink of an eye…. I didn’t even sign up for this,,, his hand is guiding me with him or if he was not guiding me I would have ran back to my room.. but I followed his lead anyways.. do I look like I have an option… I just have to hold it all in for few minutes, it will all end and I will be back in my room again.. the media people are clicking the pictures, Edwin is supporting me as if he knows that I am scared to death.. I am really scared to death of this attention…