“you are still a bad lair”

   Episode- 221 “you are still a bad lair”     Alisa’s POV:                    My hand frozen, I collected my thoughts and  passed the phone with a smile, I was faking it .. I don’t want anyone to bother about the hate I am going through… this is not the first time I am reading something like this.. I saw some comments like this 2 days ago.. I was ignoring it…but now I feel worthless….. do I really don’t worth of being near Edwin…   In the evening,   I walked in the palace, I was walking through corridor, I spotted Edwin in one of the hall, he was talking with some people… I looked at him for a wide minute, his blue eyes, his long hair, his perfect face and body.. his he even good at business, fighting skills, he sharp and smart.. he is really perfect… and I am…. Worthless…    I sigh, did I really got lucky… do I really don’t worth of having him……  my eyes met his, I diverted my gaze and walked away I know he will know what am I feeling.. I do not want him to bother him by low self acceptance…. It would be useless…    I walked to my room, and threw the coat away… I rested on the sofa, as I closed my eyes.. suddenly everything in the comments runs in front of me and my mind…… I opened my eyes, and let a sigh,,, this is depressing and painful…. I searched on my phone…. I opened my social media account.. I have millions of followers suddenly after the engagement….     I have countless comments, I read one by one…. I know I shouldn’t be doing this but I couldn’t stop… I came across both positive and negative comments…. But those hates comments…  I have lot of them.. tears are filling my eyes, every word  is stabbing me inside… I was always scared of these judger … I fear this and now millions of eyes or on me… scanning me and giving opinion about me without  caring about my feelings… I was about to cry.. but I heard the door open…       I heard the door opening sound and I closed my phone,  and put in my bag… I hide my tears.. I saw Edwin walking in, he put his coat on the sofa and walked to me… I pretended to busy, I have to act normal and cool as much as possible..… Edwin hugged me from behind and said, “Little dove… you look stressed.. what happened…” he kissed my cheek as he said this… I want to tell him but I decided to hide it all…      I lied to him and myself, “It’s…it’s nothing…. I am just tired… there is lot of work for renovation.. it’s stressful.. I even had meeting with Tina… tomorrow we have a appointment with the florist…. It’s just stressing me” I pulled a smile and chuckled as I stated this.. he must not know.. what fill he feel he loves a women who is always mentally weak.. I want to be strong for him…    He made me look at him, he don’t’ believes my lies.. but I have to make him believe, he pushed my hairs behind my ear and asked, “Are  you sure…” I nodded.. he added, “I said don’t stress about new boutique … I will arrange everything… and about the wedding, mom and dad will look after it.. you just have to point at the things….” I nod, at last he believes … I said as I got to the door, “I am hungry.. do you want to eat something…. I will make it…” I walked out of the room to kitchen… I want to run away from his questions.. he loves me but that doesn’t mean I should always trouble him…     I was looked around the kitchen after fixing my mind, I am not really in the mood to cook.. but still I opened the fridge and pulled some ingredient…. I don’t want to move because these thoughts are making me trouble, but Edwin will notice this.. I don’t want him to trouble himself for nothing.. my weakness is mine.. I will not be his weakness anymore…. I will not make him weak….       I sigh.. I said in my mind, “Alisa.. stop this…” I pulled knife..  and was about to chop a onion.. but I grasped as suddenly I was put on the huge kitchen counter, I was sitting on it as Edwin was looking in my eyes, he is close to me…  I noticed Edwin was still grabbing my waist and looking in my eyes, I looked around one or two made were looking at us in complete shock, this embarrassing… I looked down and said, “E-Edwin.. they are watching…” Edwin looked at them with slightly angry gaze and  they left… god! He is so powering and this is one of his charm..        Edwin turns to face me again and  pulled my chin so I was facing him, suddenly I feel excitement and shiver.. I know he is looking at my lips… his lips were about to touch mine, we haven’t kissed since we agreed to the ‘follow the rules’… he is going to kiss… I pulled my hand on his chest and pushing him lightly, then I pulled my weak words and said, “Not.. this till the wedding…” I heard him sigh.. he hugged me almost caging me in his arms and my face is burred his hard chest.. I can hear his racing heart.. I smiled at myself.. my heart is racing too.. I am sure I am red… but I am happy that he is there to listen to me…            Soon, I found him cooking as I am still sitting on the counter… he is so perfect…, he said, “Little dove what is bothering you,,,” I was surprised by his words. but I made up a reason.., “I am just worried how will I deal with new people in my new store… you know I was always like this scared to do new things…” I don’t want to make you worry anymore…     He looked at me for wide second, I felt him searching for something in my eyes may be the truth and then he turned to chopping the veggies, he said, “You are still a bad liar… but I will figure it out myself…. there is nothing you can hide..” he know when I lie.. I must be really easy to read for him… but this time it’s me to fix this.. I need to make myself perfect for you….      He said as he was busy in cooking, “I hate when you keep all the trash to yourself.. but I will not force you..” why do you love me this much?.. that makes me feel so secure… and now I will not let anyone point finger at you because of me.. I promise…    I looked down as some part of me is worried about those comments, but most of them were true, he deserved someone perfect than me, I shouldn’t be like this in front of them, I controlled my emotions and  then said with a smile, “Can I help…”, I didn’t waited for his answer, I know he will not let me,  I got down and pushed him aside and started cutting the vegetables…, he was surprised, He asked little complaining, “what will I do…” but I just found him cute and attractive..   I looked at him with a smile and said, “You can sit and observe… anyways as you are the Mighty King Edwin Arthur Grey now.. I am sure his majesty must have for gotten to cook.. so please have a sit..” I chuckled in the end.. I love to tease him a little…    He stood in front of the counter, he was folding his hands around his chest and looking at me with his sexy narrowed eyes and he said, “you have gotten a new way to insult me.. but this makes you 1000 times more sexier.. I am about to pounce on you forgetting my negotiation… beware with words, little dove,… you will put yourself in problem” he is looking at me darkly seductively, he is so damn hot!.. I bet he is h*rny.. I pressed my lips together to stop laughing… he is trying to hold back…. Should I tease him little…