am I forgiven?”

    Episode- 234 “am I forgiven?”     Edwin’s POV:                             I was in this meeting, my mind is really not into this.. I am kind of annoyed, Alisa shouldn’t have said that…. Why did you said that little dove… it hurts when she said that…. I should focus on the meeting… she needs to learn a little… am I too harsh on her?… should I call her?… what if she is crying?… it’s already been 5 hours… almost evening…. I should go home… little dove must be crying… maybe I went too hard with her…        After few minutes, I said to the staff, “Meeting dismiss.. you all should prepare regarding the ideas.. I want final report in 2 days…” I walked out without having a look at them…. I must go the parking… I need to get to the palace soon…. I need to see her….     I was about to go in the lift when Ken said, “Sir…. Miss. Alisa is still in your cabin… she is waiting for you” I turned to him confused and asked, “she is there since afternoon..” Ken nodded.. I sigh… she is waiting for me for 5 hours… I asked her to leave to the palace…. But she is staying here…       I took the lift and went to the my floor… I went to my cabin…. I almost ran here… I got in the cabin as I walked in, I run my eyes through the cabin to find her,,.. I spotted her figure sitting on the sofa, she fell asleep…. I couldn’t help but smile.. she is cute… but I troubled her a lot… she must be worried about my cold behavior… she is going through all this hate and those stupid articles.. she must felt self conscious… they are planning to hurt you to get me under their pressure… but she is innocent here it must be lot to her.. that’s why she said that out of jealousy… I am total idiot.. I should have understand, instead of showing this attitude… it’s not really her fault..   I walked to her and sat beside her sleeping figure, she is beautiful… I shouldn’t have made her worried,…. I touched her cheek and then I saw her wake up… she blinked few times and when she realized I was sitting beside she grabbed my hand said being desperate, “Ed-Edwin… you are back…. Look. I am sorry… I trust you.. I really do… I was not my usual self when I said those… I will not say such thing again… I promise…” I caressed her face and said with a light smile, “Shuuu… it’s fine… I am sorry.. I over reacted... I made you like this…” she blinked for few times as she looked at me with those big clear brown eyes.. her long lashes compliment her well..   She asked being innocent, “so… you are not mad at me, right?” I chuckled as I messed her hair up, I nodded as I said, “Yes, little dove…. I understand now… you don’t need to say sorry…” she hugged me in instant… I can feel how upset she felt… she kissed my cheeks  and said, “Thank you… please don’t be mad at me anymore…” I caressed her head and said as I hugged her more, “no I won’t… you can slap me if I over react… ok”  I heard her chuckle… finally… my little dove smile like this… be happy…    I pulled her in my laps, she grasped at first then she l looked in my eyes nervously… I looked at her lips, I want to kiss those… I felt her grabbing my shirt tightly… my eyes are still on her lips, I missed it already…. I moved further to kiss her when I remembered… I promised… not till the wedding…     I sigh as I moved my face away, “why I agreed to no kissing rule of yours… I miss it terribly..” I sigh…. This is hard but I will do it for her… I saw her smiling but I do notice her red cheeks… she is adorable.. she said as her eyes are telling me she is happy, “thank you… Edwin..” her thank you even seems sexy.. I should control…       I got up and said, “Let’s go home…” she stood up and said as if she was correcting me, “Your home is a actual palace… and it can fit a entire new colony…” I laughed, she is cute.. I know she wanted a normal life, a small house enough for her me and our future kids.. she wanted to be all normal… but she is not made for it... I know I am not wrong… if she was made for normal life then I was not with her, I was born for this,,, and my love for her was like the thing which was seemed to happen, and if we weren’t met to be together then there was no way I could have her… we have gone through a lot… from my one sided love to the way I pretended to hate her.. I tried to hurt her so she could stay away from me, I almost succeeded…. but then Ron tied us together before leaving.. and now we are together.. I know the path was not right but her being with me is right… she was born to be my only Queen..  I was brought back to my thoughts when she asked, “Edwin you are really insanely rich… like you overdo it…  like you have number of rooms around were ever you want.. and they are filled with your necessities like clothes and stuff.. normal people pack their bags as they travel in between the countries but you… you can just board on the flight… and all of your family houses are huge.. the palace.. god! It’s insanely big…” it feels like she is complaining… normally women love to have a rich man but my little dove is complaining.. but I am planning to be more rich so I can give her everything…        I explained as I pulled her to the door, “I inherited it all.. everything here from grandpa… and some of the things from dad in your country and I earned some….. now stop complaining… we need to go to the palace and I am hungry anyways…” I pulled her out of the room, guiding her the way as I walked beside her…    I asked as we were in the lift, “Little dove, your bank balance is not so appealing….. and you don’t have an account  here in N country… should we get you a new one.. I just have to call then the bank will run to palace and help you with it… and I will put some money in it.. just in case you need in some situation..” I know she will be little angry and annoyed.. she will not like it.. but I am just teasing her… but as I think about it for long now, it is a nice idea.. I should have done this earlier.. I will do this anyways even if she agrees or not… I just need to come up with a good reason….    I turned to her and saw her glaring at me, she said, “NO… I was thinking about bank account here but as you said you will give me your money… I refuse.. I have enough… I have my own business.. then I some shares in my grandpa’s company..  I have pretty enough money…” I smiled at her… I immediately said, “Ok… ok.. your highness… then buy me some drinks when you have time..” I am trying to save myself as I know my little dove will be angry if I stretched few more words…  she nodded with a proud smile,…. We walked in the parking area.. Ken is waiting for us with bodyguards, I increased her security because I don’t want her to be a easy target…    She turned to me as she walked future.. she asked, “Wine?... you want wine right..” I opened the car door and made her sit.. but she is too excited for the drink, she loves alcohol.. I know, she can drink a good amount before getting drunk, but I don’t like her getting drunk… I do have problem with her drinking… she stopped cutting and now I want her to stop drinking…      I sat beside her and asked as I raised my eye brow, “Didn’t you said you want to stop drinking… because you hate hangovers” she was speechless, seems like she forgot…  she made up a sentence with no meaning, “Me… when… I never did..” she lies but never succeed in convincing me.. my little dove so naïve…    I pulled her chin in my hand and said as I am looking at her, “I don’t want you do drink, I am being honest…I asked you to buy me drink then buy me coffee, juice or something like that… stop drinking…” she was looking at me with wide eyes open, then her lips formed a pout, she  looked away from me as she was staring at the window… she appears to me annoyed by my words.. I am just worried about her..   I heard her light whisper, “You are controlling..” I caressed her head and I said, “… sorry… but promise me, you will only drink with me or drunk when I am near you…” she looked at me as she thought for a moment, she nodded and said, “Fine… I can try.. it’s not like I can’t live without it, I drink rarely.. it’s just when I drink I forget to stop…” I want to laugh right now, the way she is telling her own fault really makes her more adorable than before, but I am going to take care for forever, I also need to find that person, he is ringing in my head since I knew he is back… she is not safe right now, I increased both her bodyguards and other secret guards around her… I will protect you.. should I tell her, little dove is completely unaware of this,.. but I shouldn’t she will be upset… she will feel upset and uncomfortable… I want her to live her normal and happy life…. but I need to inform her about this, she should be informed about this danger so she don’t trust on someone she don’t know.. Alisa is a kind natured women… I need her to stop being kind to someone she don’t know…. this can be dangerous…. I shouldn’t be careless about this,,