“Fear of losing love once…”

    Episode- 258 “Fear of losing love once…”        Alisa’s POV:                         I was waiting in front of the guest house in the palace, I am waiting for my parents to come with my grandparents… yes.. I know I said I will cut ties with them but I was scared about their safety so Edwin asked them to come here… just for their safety and my mind would be at rest… it took few hours to explain everything to my grandpa and parents… this is totally new to them as it is for me… we were rich but we never had this kind of enemies… they must be worried.. even though they will never say it but I know my parents are worried for them…      I saw Black cars coming in, through the drive way.. I stood there…. I smiled as I saw Edwin getting out… he went to pick them up…. I saw Grandpa walking out from the first car and Grandma too… and my parents were in the car behind them.. I rushed to Grandpa and he immediately hugged me, he said, “I am glad you are safe..” I smiled and said, “Told you… I am fine..” Grandma was observing me from up and down, I said, “Hello grandma… are you fine?”    Grandma said with a bitter voice, “Glad to see you intact..” I smiled on her words which refers to her care… well I agree I was never a preferred child of the family… at last I am a child of the family…. We even care for the pet whom we feed for few days.. I know maybe some part of them must be worried about me…. I can just hope…        Mom and dad walked to us, I said, “Mom… Dad…. We have arranged everything in the guest house… just for few days.. then you can go to your own life…”    Mom said as she looked away, “Ok.. we will take it as vacation..” Edwin said as he stood beside, “You should… and remember she is my Queen… respect her…” I pulled him slightly so he could stop his overprotective side…. Mom looked at me and said, “Alisa…” this is not out of anger, she is worried, I can tell that.. anyone can tell that..    She said as she looked in my eyes, “If you listen to me and never married him, you never need to do all this.. we won’t fear about your life and death.. look at your me and  your fath---.. .. I mean your grandpa… he is worried sick about you…” I noticed Edwin’s feast tighten… I smiled at mom and said, “Mom… I am really fine… grandpa, grandma… you or dad… no one needs to worry about me… please…”      Dad said as he pulled me aside, “I don’t want this profit because of your name as Queen…. Just divorce him and let’s go back…. At least you don’t have do all this, I can’t take death of someone again….”  I looked at Dad, he is clearly worried about me, I said in my mind, “I wish you could say that you can’t take death of your this daughter…”  but I will be asking for more…    I heard Edwin, “Her husband can protect her… nothing will be happening.. and I am never divorcing her… again.. you can rest your worried… my wife is safe….” I nodded with a smile as I said, “I trust him….. please.. just come in…”     I walked to the guest house and opened the door and said, “Get comfortable, I have arranged maids,,, if you need anything then just tell them…” Everyone walks in, I said to mom, “Mom… I arranged the cook… just don’t worry…” she let a nod as she looked away..  I turned to grandpa and said, “Grandpa… now don’t worry.. I am fine… and Edwin’s grandpa was really excited got to know you are coming… you won’t get bored here..” Grandpa nodded, as he smiled… I noticed mom was looking at me, for the first time I am sure she is worried about me as her daughter…..  I smiled at myself in the inside.. this is the least they can do for their daughter then why am I like this… this is not something I should soften… they were supposed to do more… I will not satisfy with this least I know I deserve more from them as a daughter… but this makes me somewhat happy….. I am  happy at least they are worried about me…      Alisa’s POV:                          I  was sitting under a dome in the garden all alone, my tea was getting cold as I was just staring at the view…. I was tensed, even though I acted fine in front of my parents and grandparents but I was worried…  I am was stressed about all of this, truth was I never thought I would be in situation like this…. but I was also worried about Edwin, I was praying for him, My mind was filling with bad thoughts…. If I was honest, I was really worried about the situation….what if something bad happens……….      I sigh, I said to myself as I close my eyes, “It’s going to be fine….” Soon, I sensed a presence, I turned to face Edwin… he was staring at me with a light smile and his eyes are saying me he loves me, sometimes he is hard to read and sometimes it’s easy to understand.. I guess when he wants me to feel protected and love I can read HIM easily… he is really different..    He walked to me and sat in front of me, he passed me a letter… he said, “from the orphanage..” I smiled as looked at it…. I turned to open it but it’s unsealed… I raised my eyebrow and asked, “You read it…. it was for me… You are not suppose to do this” he rested on the chair, he said, “I was just checking… you know I can’t trust anyone around you…” I pulled the letter out and asked, “What do you mean?” I know he is more alert about me since that call and other things… I know he will never tell me directly…. My husband is kind of overprotective…   He said with  serious look, “well… my queen is popular… she is really stupid to trust people… I mean anyone… even strangers… so I need to be extra alert…” I smiled and started reading the letter….. I said with a smile, “I know you are worried that Jasper send me another warning letter… just be honest… I am worried too… what if he does something to you and our family?.. what I am going to do?... I see no way I can help in this situation”         He looked down and said, “All you need to do is be safe yourself…. And about rest of the thing I am here….. right here..” I nodded but I am barely trying to calm by head… all I am worried about him… what if Jasper does something to Edwin… he said he wanted throne.. and Arthur is on the throne, that means he will clearly attack Edwin before me….. identity of Arthur brings more danger than Edwin Grey… what am I going to do?,    I pulled myself to read the letter,,… it’s from that little girl Shane, I smiled her handwriting is telling me she tried really hard… she even drew a picture of me… they are cute, I found this touching even when the only letter I see is ‘Thank you… for sending Santa.. We love you Miss. Queen..” I smiled.. it feels nice when you are reason for someone’s smile..… it’s the satisfaction that I can’t describe..    I saw Edwin was looking at me all this time, I asked, “What?” I chuckled in the end…  he smiled and replied, “You could have seen them themselves as they enjoy the Santa’s gifts… after all you arranged this all for them..” I smiled and sigh…      He was looking at me, yes I wanted to see them smile and be happy…. but…..     I replied, “That Jasper…. He threatened my parents when I don’t even know how he looks, who is he…. Seems like he knows everything about me…. I know my family and friends are in danger, so I wanted them to come her… so I can see them and be sure they are fine… but these kids.. I don’t want them to be on his radar.. I don’t want anyone new  relation to surface up because I can’t protect them. I can’t hide old relations so I don’t want anything new… as if this the only way to protect innocent is go away from them…” I looked at him with teary eyes. his face was still, but I can see the wave of emotions in his eyes, those clear blue eyes are telling he understands want I feel. I am standing in the same place as him, I know what he felt when he pretended to hate me and left me behind for years.      He got up and sat beside me, he grabbed my hand he kissed it as if he was saying all of this is ok. I replied as tear dropped over my cheeks, “I know what you felt when you left me… I know now it was hard.” I said as I can’ control anymore, “I am scared Edwin…. I am really scared.” He pulled me into embrace, I can’t stay strong anymore. I just can’t anymore…      He kept comforting, soon I was in sense and able to retain myself. I said, “Can you do something for me?” he nodded. he said, “Anything”    I asked with little hesitation, “Can you ask Tina to move in here till this problem is solved? She is pregnant I am worried about her, she even has a son.” he kissed my forehead and said, “Ok… I will do anything if it makes you feel safe.” I smiled through tears. I don’t want that Jasper to do anything to anyone I know, I am really worried about everyone… everyone.. I called Shane but he said he is in college dorm and his exams are approaching… it’s ok if he is under safe roof.