Defeat!

{"messages":[{"id":962162655,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"ud83dudda4Trigger Warning ud83dudda4"},{"id":962162656,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"(Suicide warning.. Donu2019t read it if youu2019re weak by heart.. itu2019s a warning that this chapter does not promote suicide and itu2019s only cause is to spread a message.. the chapter is not a step or a guidelines for suicide but as a method to help people suffering from it.. Please note, be careful and donu2019t read if youu2019re weak at heart.. Donu2019t report)"},{"id":962162657,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":".."},{"id":962162658,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":".."},{"id":962162659,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":".."},{"id":962162660,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":".."},{"id":962162661,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Grief.. too much grief.. disorientation with the reality because of intense sorrow, can be dangerous.."},{"id":962162662,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"They say.. the ones who talk about their pain are the ones who are actually seeking for help.."},{"id":962162663,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Donu2019t ignore them.. look through the invisible and yet transparent glass.. as a society we owe it to them who are immensely hurt by their own lifeu2026 a little hug or a little motivation which sound like mustard seeds but can make a mountain of good realisation for these people.. we owe it to them.. we owe it to them to say u201citu2019s okayu201d .. to say, this pain u201cis okayu201d.. to show them everything is u201cokayu201d not necessarily has to be u201cokayu201d.. it is our duty to first accept them with their dark side and encourage them to be themselves.. itu2019s our duty to be u201chumbleu201d with them.. itu2019s our duty to give them u201ctimeu201d.. to u201clisten to them.. to u201csmileu201d at them sincerely.. to u201cshowu201d them they u201cmatteru201d.. to make them feel they are u201cimportantu201d"},{"id":962162664,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"The fine hourly glass of life can be reset.. if only as a society you paid attention.. itu2019s not the personu2019s fault who is highly destructed by his or her pain.. itu2019s by no means their fault.. and definitely it isnu2019t their fault that they never spoke about it.."},{"id":962162665,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"One is always too ashamed to talk about their own defeated life.. majority of the time they are disappointed by their selves.."},{"id":962162666,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"But that doesnu2019t mean one can be oblivious to such cases"},{"id":962162667,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Because there are always signs"},{"id":962162668,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"And the ones who donu2019t speak about their lost hope.. are the ones you identify by the signs they show.."},{"id":962162669,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Kim Jennie.. was out in the open.. she did everything normal with his friends in the jail.."},{"id":962162670,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"She got up at the same hour.. she ate with them at the same hour and she even ended her day just like the normal people in the jail.."},{"id":962162671,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"But Jennie was not what she showed.."},{"id":962162672,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Her u201cI am Okaysu201d were always twisted.."},{"id":962162673,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Because she was not okay.."},{"id":962162674,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"She was in a different zone.. a place where she found her self trapped and greatly hurt.. in a place where she couldnu2019t see the light of hope.. in a place where she found her ownself as a burden.."},{"id":962162675,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"The more she cornered herself in the dark corner of her cell.. the more darkness filled inside her.."},{"id":962162676,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Her heart was sorrowed.. she was greatly affected by Ireneu2019s death.. she was greatly affected by her own suffering.. she was greatly misunderstood by the law.. she was punished by the law for a crime she never committed.. she was pushed to live her life in a dark cell of jail while in a better world she could have been fulfilling dreams with a bright smile.."},{"id":962162677,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"But that bright smile was snatched"},{"id":962162678,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"And tonight was the most hardest night Jennie has ever lived"},{"id":962162679,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Or will ever live"},{"id":962162680,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie stared at the dull wall of her cell.. the dullness only fuelling her pain.."},{"id":962162681,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"She could hear jungkook and Lisa from their cell.. theyu2019re again back to talking about the babyu2019s name.. or Jungkooku2019s case.. or lisau2019a dreams"},{"id":962162682,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"She felt simply defeated"},{"id":962162683,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"She had no strength"},{"id":962162684,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"No courage"},{"id":962162685,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Nothing.."},{"id":962162686,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"She showed it to the world how deeply pained she was.. even though she didnu2019t necessarily spoke about the darkness that stirred in her mind.."},{"id":962162687,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"But she did show the signs.. she was awfully quiet and lost.. she ate little.. she zoned out more.."},{"id":962162688,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Even though she didnu2019t speak about her troubling thoughts.. she did showcased a change in her behaviour.. her mood was uneven.. she was distancing herself from her friends..she was avoiding people and more importantly herself.. she barely slept.. sleep was like a long lost coast for her.. and she was awfully calm as if accepting her new hopeless reality and letting it sink.. there was indeed a drastic change in her personality"},{"id":962162689,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"But her u201cI am okaysu201d gave the assurance the world needed"},{"id":962162690,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"The world who were busy in their own lives.."},{"id":962162691,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Because thatu2019s what mattered.. living my own life and being oblivious to what was happening with others.."},{"id":962162692,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie chose her last words"},{"id":962162693,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Kookie"},{"id":962162694,"character_id":16896785,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Yes Jen.."},{"id":962162695,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I love you.. please be happy in your life"},{"id":962162696,"character_id":16896785,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Whatu2019s wrong? Why are you saying that suddenly? (Confused)"},{"id":962162697,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Lisa.."},{"id":962162698,"character_id":16910473,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Yes Jennie? (Says with alertness)"},{"id":962162699,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Youu2019re awesome.. I love you.. live your life on your terms.. youu2019re stronger than what the world sees in you.."},{"id":962162700,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I envy you both"},{"id":962162701,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Youu2019re stronger than you think.."},{"id":962162702,"character_id":16910472,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I wish I was strong enough"},{"id":962162703,"character_id":16896785,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Jennie (says like a whisper and worriedly)"},{"id":962162704,"character_id":16910473,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Jen.. baby.. my sister (says with heavy heartbeat)"},{"id":962162705,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Jennie didnu2019t speak this time"},{"id":962162706,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"She never will now"},{"id":962162707,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Tonight"},{"id":962162708,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":"Kim Jennie died by suicide"},{"id":962162709,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":".."},{"id":962162710,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":3,"content":".."},{"id":962162711,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I guess.. many of you will be shocked.. I mean by those who dare to read this"},{"id":962162712,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"You must ask me u201cwhyu201d"},{"id":962162713,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"But u201cwhy notu201d"},{"id":962162714,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"This novel is no fairy tale"},{"id":962162715,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I canu2019t speak about only good ignoring that not many get the good.. there are many who struggles with this problem and I just want to spread this message"},{"id":962162716,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I did give you the signs of Jennieu2019a problem.. and because we only bothered ourselves with taekook.. barely anyone said I am worried about Jennie"},{"id":962162717,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Now this is just an example"},{"id":962162718,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I am not blaming anyone"},{"id":962162719,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I am saying.. this is how as a society does it too.."},{"id":962162720,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"Ignore the weak right infront of your eyes who shows signs of weakness"},{"id":962162721,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"As I said.. I am not blaming but only giving an example.."},{"id":962162722,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"This novel is not a trigger towards suicide.. but a message to be there for people who feel this way.. I want to say u201cI love you very much.. And I value you.. even if I donu2019t know you.. But youu2019re importantu201d"},{"id":962182305,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I didnu2019t want to write in details about this.. because i searched for whether it was okay to write about suicide.. and majority of suggestions are to not be detailed just because you want to glossy your work.. as it might trigger the one who goes through it"},{"id":962182306,"character_id":17340011,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"So as a respect I didnu2019t go in details"}]}