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{"messages":[{"id":999056759,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Last Sunday was my exam in another city"},{"id":999056760,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"And after that when I was waiting in bus stop I saw some girls who’s selling water bottles there ...they had a little stall there"},{"id":999056761,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I seat and wait for my bus to arrive and saw those girls running here and there to sell water bottles to travelers"},{"id":999056762,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I saw twins there and ask one of the girls if they were sisters cause they look so alive and the girl said yes"},{"id":999056763,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Don’t know she seat besides me hestistaly cause ....she thought that I will not like of she seat besides me with torn cloths"},{"id":999056764,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"But I really didn’t mind"},{"id":999056765,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"We smile and I was the one who started to talk with her like what’s your name and blah blah...."},{"id":999056766,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Fortunately she got comfortable with me and I talk with her like for an hour"},{"id":999056767,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"She told me that her father past away , she and her siblings with help of there mother open the small stall and see some snacks and water"},{"id":999056768,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I ask how much you get and she said not much but sometimes we sleep without eating and it was extremely hard on those covid years......"},{"id":999056769,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I ask are you still studying she said not .... She and her siblings (all girls) leaves the school when they are in 8 or 9 ig...... She wanted to study more but she can’t afford to study when your all siblings are working just for stomach"},{"id":999056770,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"She said that :- I don’t feel good when someone ask which class you are in?...and then I have nothing to say"},{"id":999056771,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"It’s feels really bad you know when you hear this thing .....and that time I realize that"},{"id":999056772,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Actually I’m lucky to atleast have what I have now"},{"id":999056773,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"That day I was really sad cause my exam didn’t go well and I thought that I can’t do anything"},{"id":999056774,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"But after talking with her I realize that whatever I have is actually enough cause some people didn’t got what you have NOW"},{"id":999056775,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I gave her some money ..... It’s not because I feel pity but actually I’m impressed with them"},{"id":999056776,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"They are not like people who go around begging....on the names of God or there health...i gave them money cause they are actually working to feel there tummy"},{"id":999056777,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I actually don’t give money to beggers who come and ask .... With there small babies ...."},{"id":999056778,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Sometimes I doubt that they were not there babies cause they seems like new born"},{"id":999056779,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I remember an incident when a lady come and ask for money ..she had a new born baby in her arms and I feel pity and gave her ..."},{"id":999056780,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"But when I look around again I didn’t saw her treating the baby with care what an actual mom do"},{"id":999056781,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I heard some news that those beggers actually stole babies from from government hospital and use them and after they are used they sell them again"},{"id":999056782,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Such a shame"},{"id":999056783,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Ughhh I’m feeling angry now"},{"id":999056784,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":999056785,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":999056786,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I remember an incident of last Diwali too"},{"id":999056787,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I go out for some shopping......and I saw there some kids 9 to 15 years old"},{"id":999056788,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Umm i kinda feel bad you .... Cause all of them were shopping buying new clothes, fires, lamplight etc...and the kids were just sitting on ground and selling"},{"id":999056789,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Some items....."},{"id":999056790,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"You know when I get a job i really wanted to buy some clothes for them on diwali ...i wanted to see there happy faces..."},{"id":999056791,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":999056792,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":999056793,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"umm ..I have a friend who always criticism people"},{"id":999056794,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"like when I’m walking with her a girl who was so fat walking on the street wearing short dress.....shes walking confidently actually and I like that ...."},{"id":999056795,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but my friend said that :- us Moti Ko to dekh ....cheee (see that Fatto ewww) and I said she’s looking stunning ..... that friend look at me with weird face you know...... in CLG also whenever a girl who has tan face walk she said ....us Kali Ko dekh kitna mtk ke aai he ( look at that black girl she wear so much mackup) ...and I was like she’s looking beautiful"},{"id":999056796,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I mean my parents didn’t teach me how to criticize people ..... . dude actually look at yourself first then say bad things about others ...."},{"id":999056797,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"that friend of my was with me when I’m talking with that poor girl (bus stop girl) and she didn’t seat or talk with her like I did..... she behave like that girl is dirty or something.... I mean dude wtf......"},{"id":999056798,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"that city was very far away and I go there without my parents ..... me and my so called friend go there ...and you know what she did she called her bf there ....."},{"id":999056799,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"in the bus she seat besides her bf.... knowing that I’m alone but she still didn’t care .... both of them roaming around hand in hand and I was like walking alone in the new place like a lost child"},{"id":999056800,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and that was the time when I feel alone"},{"id":999056801,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I know I shouldn’t say things about this but....."},{"id":999056802,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I wanted to tell someone this"},{"id":999056803,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I’m so stressed as an elder child .... I have fu** NG so much responsibility"},{"id":999056804,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I wish I have a brother too who will support me like her"},{"id":999056805,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I don’t want bf ....just want someone who will actually support me"},{"id":999056806,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I just wish that god Didn’t take my brother 3 years ago ...... idc how he was or how he’s health but still he was my brother"},{"id":999056807,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I miss him on so much urgggg......"},{"id":999056808,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he has some disease from his born....so he can’t talk walk or move his body ....he can’t crawl too ...he was 9 but still can’t do anything"},{"id":999056809,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"we don’t know what disease he have ..... we check him everywhere but didn’t got any results .....they just said that he will die when he became 10..... that time I get angry whenever say this...."},{"id":999056810,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"you know a silly thing if you are reading it"},{"id":999056811,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I was in hostel and monthly come in home ...but whenever I come home I bring him peda ( sweet) ... he can’t eat with his own so we have to feed him ..... he always smile whenever I come home and when im taking something out from my bag he always look there with his big doe eyes ...."},{"id":999056812,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he can’t crawl or come to me ...just look from bed ...."},{"id":999056813,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I come near him and feed him half sweet cause the other half was always for me.... you know feeding him half and then eating his share....."},{"id":999056814,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"it was some months 3 or 2 idk..... he’s getting sick .... ( he get sick in every 2 weeks) so we just taught it to be ordernary...."},{"id":999056815,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"it was my exam times so I didn’t bring him sweets for like 2 or 3 months .... he always look at my back when I come home .... but i didn’t buy any sweets"},{"id":999056816,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I come home as I get some holidays before my exam....."},{"id":999056817,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he and me always sleep together on my bed .... I can’t sleep without him .... I always took him from mom middle of the night and we both sleep together"},{"id":999056818,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I put his head on my hand and cuddle him ....put him on my stomach and pat him to sleep"},{"id":999056819,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"3 days before his death..... like same I sleep with him ...."},{"id":999056820,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"in the morning his body was cold.....like frezzing cold"},{"id":999056821,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I didn’t know what happened ...."},{"id":999056822,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"it was 9 am when my mom was feeding him ...I was brushing my teeth when she suddenly started to shouting that dadu ( my brother) is not breathing"},{"id":999056823,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"my parents suddenly took him to hospital but they didn’t take him because he’s not normal like other children"},{"id":999056824,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"we have to shift him in another city .... my parents go there ..."},{"id":999056825,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"they call me and I also go there with my other sibling who’s younger than me .... she’s frightened too...so as an elder I have to support her"},{"id":999056826,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"they took my brother to icu .... and doctor said that he got low sugar"},{"id":999056827,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and I was like is it because of me cause I didn’t bought him sweet .... like for 2 months...."},{"id":999056828,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I started to feel bad.... idk why I didn’t bought it"},{"id":999056829,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"me and my mom in the hospital taking turns....."},{"id":999056830,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"it was one night before.... he open his eyes his body was still cold ....."},{"id":999056831,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he smile at me for the last time , my mom was sleeping... I told her to sleep cause she’s up for 3 days with him continued and I get some little nap ...."},{"id":999056832,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"me and my brother watch BTS MV for like entire afternoon that day and laughing"},{"id":999056833,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he was laughing too and I thought that he’s good now"},{"id":999056834,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"that day my mom said that she’s too sleepy today don’t know why...so I told her to sleep and I will look at him for night"},{"id":999056835,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I was 1 am when he stop breathing , I was holding his hand ...I suddenly got up and wake my mom"},{"id":999056836,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"she was with him and I go out to search for nurse or doctor........"},{"id":999056837,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"doctor come and did something they put pump in his lungs ( idk what it called) ... and he started to breath again....."},{"id":999056838,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"my mom again said that she’s sleepy.....I told her okay"},{"id":999056839,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I just seat besides him holding his small hand ... he was awake ...."},{"id":999056840,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but that thing like monitor stopped.... that time idk how it works .... he’s eyes was open but he’s not blinking"},{"id":999056841,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I didn’t get what happened..... cause he have a bandage in his one eye and his other eye was open"},{"id":999056842,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"we didn’t know that he’s actually no more and I like a silly girl was holding his hand till morning"},{"id":999056843,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I was still thinking that he’s alive and waiting for doc to come and check on him"},{"id":999056844,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"it was 10am when doc come....I was there but he didn’t talk to me or said anything.... he go to his office and called my parents"},{"id":999056845,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I think there something serious happen and I just seat besides my brother patting his head"},{"id":999056846,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"suddenly my mom come and started to cry so loudly... I didn’t know what happened"},{"id":999056847,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"when I ask she said that he’s no more...."},{"id":999056848,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he leave us"},{"id":999056849,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and I was like why are you talking like that.....and run out from there...."},{"id":999056850,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"it was 3- 4 hours and I still can’t believe that he’s no more....."},{"id":999056851,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I was somewhere there...idk where but my family members started to come and search for me"},{"id":999056852,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and I was like I don’t wanted to go....no ...I don’t .... they were taking him to place where we are going to burry him....in our home town"},{"id":999056853,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and I don’t wanted to be there.....idk what happened with him but I don’t wanted that time"},{"id":999056854,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"hehehe it’s been 3-4 years and I still remember it ...."},{"id":999056855,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"you know that time I didn’t go for board exam .....and had 1 year back in my studies"},{"id":999056856,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"another depressed year for me...."},{"id":999056857,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"next year my bade Papa (idk what it call) ... passed away same year my nani ( Grandma)"},{"id":999056858,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"after again 1 year my cousin sister got r@ped ....."},{"id":999056859,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and again this year the paper ( entrance exam) I studied for 8 months didn’t go well..... ( I’m sure that i will fail)"},{"id":999056860,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"my exam was on 6th Feb....this Sunday"},{"id":999056861,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"same day when my brother was born ....it was his birthday.....I told my parents to bought sweet for him"},{"id":999056862,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"it was my work actually I bought him sweet on Rakhshyabandhan ( Rakhi) and his birthday....but as it was my exam day I couldn’t"},{"id":999056863,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"it was the same day when I meet that girl .... and thing that life goes on and on..... I was actually sad because of my exam ....."},{"id":999056864,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but after meeting her thing that ... it’s okay.....there will be many problems more in the life .... but like her I will fight"},{"id":999056865,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"after coming home that day it was 9pm and I asked my dad did he bought sweet for him and he said that he didn’t.......... and before his birthday end I go to the store and bought him sweets..... ig he wanted to eat sweet that I bought for him that why he didn’t let my father buy it .......... heheheh..... just some magic things....."},{"id":999056866,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"yesterday was history..... tomorrow Is a Mistry.... but today is a present"},{"id":999056867,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"do you remember the lyrics of inner child"},{"id":999056868,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"by v"},{"id":999056869,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"now I wish we would smile more"},{"id":999056870,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"it will be okay because today’s me is doing fine"},{"id":999056871,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"yesterdays you, now its all clear"},{"id":999056872,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ohhhh I love this song....."},{"id":999056873,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and also the one with Suga and iu"},{"id":999056874,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"idk name but I know the song....ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02 and artist"},{"id":999056875,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"people said that with time you will forgot the things forgot your love ones if they gone"},{"id":999056876,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but actually you don’t forget them .... is just that as time pass till that time you actually got the strangth too live with there memories ....... time don’t heel your pain it actually give you the courage to being strong"},{"id":999056877,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"it teach you to smile in pain......"},{"id":999056878,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"what if I didn’t have a brother now didn’t have anyone to support me now ....."},{"id":999056879,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I am a fighter......"},{"id":999056880,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"sometimes I feel broken when my friend said that her brother bough her that he took her there blah blah.....her bf support her make her happy bring gift....go with her here and there"},{"id":999056881,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but then again I think that.....bish I’m stronger than you .... I will be a boy for my father ...I will be a brother for my sisters"},{"id":999056882,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I have a elder cousin brother...who older than me for one year but he’s nalayak (ud83dude11)"},{"id":999056883,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"my mom haa 3 sister..... including her they are 4...."},{"id":999056884,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I have 6 cousin who are my family"},{"id":999056885,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"like literally me and my cousin sister are like best friend and share everything.....but sadly they are younger than me...."},{"id":999056886,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"so it was always me who have to take care of them ud83dude11...... but those bishes don’t respect me"},{"id":999056887,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"well today I talked so much ....I wanted to talk more but ik you will get bored"},{"id":999056888,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I feel relieved now to share this with you...."},{"id":999056889,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I will update tomorrow don’t worry"},{"id":999056890,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and yes I will try to update regularly from now onwards so no hate okay"},{"id":999056891,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"love you pervert readers"},{"id":999056892,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"miss me"},{"id":999056893,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"wet dreams about me ud83dude0f"},{"id":999060596,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":999060597,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":999060598,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":999060599,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"you guys were like oh my gosh this author talk so much ......"},{"id":999060600,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but dude I am the same author who wrote advertisment songs and lyrics in an update ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02"},{"id":999060601,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"that was blast ...I still remember that that ..... readers got so much angry.... like they are saying....."},{"id":999060602,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"you give us this 2 shitty updates after 1 month of advertisement song"},{"id":999060603,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02 that was so funny..."},{"id":999069231,"character_id":0,"type":3,"position":0,"image_path":"contribute/fiction/3580311/chatstory/20050619/1644513744635.jpg","image_width":174,"image_height":349},{"id":999069232,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and on top of that I titled them as ahem....ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02"},{"id":999069233,"character_id":0,"type":3,"position":0,"image_path":"contribute/fiction/3580311/chatstory/20050619/1644513753747.jpg","image_width":368,"image_height":735},{"id":999069234,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83dude02ud83eudd23ud83eudd23ud83eudd23ud83eudd23ud83eudd23"},{"id":999069235,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"bye now ud83dude11"}]}