complications

{"messages":[{"id":1006723217,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"love me?"},{"id":1006723218,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"he said i should love myself?"},{"id":1006723219,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"don’t i love me?"},{"id":1006723220,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"and if not, then how does one love himself?"},{"id":1006723221,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"am i fool?"},{"id":1006723222,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"they think of me as a fool who doesn’t care about himself?"},{"id":1006723223,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"i do care about me...*said to himself while he still not sure if he really care or not*"},{"id":1006723224,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"It’s not true."},{"id":1006723225,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"It’s not true i care about myself"},{"id":1006723226,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"tae was crying alone in his room with his painful voice keep asking him questions he doesn’t know the answers of..he just locked himself and keep on crying silently."},{"id":1006723227,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Oh, wasn’t he about to spend the night with jimin, right?"},{"id":1006723228,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Well that was a lie."},{"id":1006723229,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he would never do that."},{"id":1006723230,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"that was to make jungkook jealous for once...isn’t he looking so calm even he is hurt? it’s envy!..even jimin is cooler, then why the hell does he have to be like that?..why is he not happy with himself with anything?"},{"id":1006723231,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"today he let his eyes flow thoroughly..he was not drunk..he was not sleeping nor was he under some medicines effect."},{"id":1006723232,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he was himself today..so broken, helpless, and needy for a warm embrace like always."},{"id":1006723233,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"In this world, almost everyone after getting pain knows how to survive further..how to find happiness in himself."},{"id":1006723234,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but still, some people don’t know how to do it..they don’t really love themselves, and that’s why they don’t even know how to be relaxed all the time they get distressed, how to find happiness after every sadness..it’s not their mistake..they just don’t know it..they need serious help."},{"id":1006723235,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and tae is one of them he doesn’t love himself"},{"id":1006723236,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"loving yourself is not some random issue everyone talks about, it’s a big deal in everyone’s life..although sometimes we can’t say even if we actually love ourselves or not but for others, our acts say it all.. sometimes people get us right, sometimes they know us more than we know ourself because that type of person never tries to look into himself so he finds nothing to fall in love with too."},{"id":1006723237,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"that person is tae in this story and actuality it’s your author."},{"id":1006723238,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1006723239,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Well, on the other hand, jungkook was worried, tae needed to love himself or else he would continue hurting himself..while jimin already knows that but he is helpless in helping the poor alpha or he doesn’t really know how to do it, so he always tries to take care of him from the start so that he doesn’t feel like he is alone..jimin did wrong..he didn’t make him strong but hides him in his already strong arms let him be fragile, then again how could he teach the person to love? but he did love the person countlessly."},{"id":1006723240,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"so in the end, tae is still alone..he doesn’t find himself in his soul."},{"id":1006723241,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and the day he will find love for himself..the day he introduced him to himself..the day he learned to be happy in himself,"},{"id":1006723242,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"believe me he will let go of everything that hurts him..he will be happy as the whole."},{"id":1006723243,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but when will the day come?"},{"id":1006723244,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"tae desperately wants himself to be fine..he hates his weak self..he hates it when he needs others..he hates it when everything matters but not his own self..and he can’t help it but cry alone."},{"id":1006723245,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he finally drifted into sleep after crying."},{"id":1006723246,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"mean while jungkook was now up to sometime else he was thinking very deeply about tae’s situation..he was seriously giving it a thought..he was now damn serious about tae to love his ownself."},{"id":1006723247,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"because today he realized something interesting."},{"id":1006723248,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"tae mostly fears to be alone again, precisely he never wanted to be alone ever, but he still once left alone helplessly, ruthlessly."},{"id":1006723249,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but what if he stops caring about the world?"},{"id":1006723250,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"What if he stops putting others first?"},{"id":1006723251,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"What if he starts loving himself?"},{"id":1006723252,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"What if he finds his inner happiness?"},{"id":1006723253,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"What if he finds no need of others?"},{"id":1006723254,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"What if he stops fearing to be left alone?"},{"id":1006723255,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he will surely be able to accept the love jikook holds for each other."},{"id":1006723256,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he could let them together without hurting his own self."},{"id":1006723257,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and for himself he could be strong then ever.."},{"id":1006723258,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he could get over everything without hurting himself.."},{"id":1006723259,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he could just be happy."},{"id":1006723260,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"jungkook thought all that while the rays of happiness touches his whole body."},{"id":1006723261,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"firstly, it’s very important for tae, but it can give jikook a new life too..he thought selfishly, but this time tae need it like oxygen in his life, so jungkook will not gonna back away out of some guilt."},{"id":1006723262,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he now remembered when tae said not to take advantage of his secret..he felt like he was now gonna do the same because he knew tae’s fear and now he is so intense to cure it too."},{"id":1006723263,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and he will do it for sure."},{"id":1006723264,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he will teach tae how to love him."},{"id":1006723265,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he will do it for the sake of his own love,"},{"id":1006723266,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and for taehyung mostly."},{"id":1006723267,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1006723268,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"hyung"},{"id":1006723269,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"hoseok cleared his throat after seeing yoongi in his office..and gave him a damn serious look while he was dying inside talking with the omega and now was happy that he came to talk with him itself."},{"id":1006723270,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"Well, as always hoseok ruined his mood first and got upset this time too, but it says not always you get protocol, so never underestimate the love of people you’re constantly getting, but alas he still did and saw the consequence too..this whole time yoongi never tried to convince him or even a little try of making him happy..he did nothing..he was sad too, so here it made hoseok anxious, but still his pride was not sorry or showing excitement on his face to see his boyfriend again."},{"id":1006723271,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but happiness can be felt now through his veins flowing with his blood and his proud on himself that the lover of him can’t be far from him for too long was cloud on 9..now he was eagerly waiting for yoongi to start the conversation who was yet looking lost and fighting to say further."},{"id":1006723272,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"hyung, i made a decision."},{"id":1006723273,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I’m glad you’re fine now."},{"id":1006723274,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"It must be important that you visit my office,"},{"id":1006723275,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"or you’re wondering useless now a days...*chuckled*"},{"id":1006723276,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"jin hasn’t found any contract yet...*smirked*"},{"id":1006723277,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you shouldn’t be concerned about my doings hyung."},{"id":1006723278,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"why shouldn’t i?"},{"id":1006723279,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I’m your boyfriend"},{"id":1006723280,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you know what"},{"id":1006723281,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"just resigned from that job and work for me so that i can see you all the time baby...*said shamelessly*"},{"id":1006723282,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i would never work for you.."},{"id":1006723283,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you can be my lover"},{"id":1006723284,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but not in this life, you can be my boss."},{"id":1006723285,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"never...*said darkly*"},{"id":1006723286,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"ok..shoot..what are you doing here?...*asked annoyingly*"},{"id":1006723287,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"hyung, i want to break up with you."},{"id":1006723288,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"listening to the words and from so with yoongi’s mouth made hoseok numbed on his place for some nice minutes."},{"id":1006723289,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i thought about it the whole night."},{"id":1006723290,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"and now decided that you will be happier when I’m not your boyfriend."},{"id":1006723291,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"yeah, because we are friends."},{"id":1006723292,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"before you were not letting me go, as you said, you cherish friends more."},{"id":1006723293,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"and silly me thought you like me and not aware of it..."},{"id":1006723294,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but it’s fine now i got you this time."},{"id":1006723295,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i will be happier with you when you care for me sincerely."},{"id":1006723296,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"and you will do it when I’m your friend, not your lover."},{"id":1006723297,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"right?"},{"id":1006723298,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":".......*have no words*"},{"id":1006723299,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"hyung say something."},{"id":1006723300,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"what...*anxious*"},{"id":1006723301,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"what made you think like that~"},{"id":1006723302,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i see it myself"},{"id":1006723303,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you don’t love me like the one should to his lover."},{"id":1006723304,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you don’t care about my feelings as your lover.."},{"id":1006723305,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but I’m sure you will do it sincerely as my friend."},{"id":1006723306,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"So why not i choose your sincerity?"},{"id":1006723307,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"because i hate it....*grinds his teeth*"},{"id":1006723308,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"fakeness"},{"id":1006723309,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you think I’m not sincere with you...*upset*"},{"id":1006723310,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"no"},{"id":1006723311,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but i think you’re more sincere as my friend."},{"id":1006723312,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"that’s what i thought"},{"id":1006723313,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"So now we are friends, ok.."},{"id":1006723314,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you happyud83dude42"},{"id":1006723315,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"feeling light?"},{"id":1006723316,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"kitty~"},{"id":1006723317,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"no kitty"},{"id":1006723318,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"that feels romantic"},{"id":1006723319,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you will call me yoongi."},{"id":1006723320,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"and yoonie is fine too..everyone calls me that who is close to me"},{"id":1006723321,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"ok hyung...*smiled*"},{"id":1006723322,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you’re seriousud83dude36"},{"id":1006723323,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you’re not hurt?"},{"id":1006723324,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"why should i hurt?"},{"id":1006723325,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you’re with me right hyung?"},{"id":1006723326,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"yeah I’m with you"},{"id":1006723327,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but"},{"id":1006723328,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"seems like you’re not with me now...*whispered*"},{"id":1006723329,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"did you say something hyung?"},{"id":1006723330,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"no...*said lostly*"},{"id":1006723331,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"ok then I’ll leave..."},{"id":1006723332,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i have a busy schedule..i especially ask Jin hyung to come to see my friend."},{"id":1006723333,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"oh...friend"},{"id":1006723334,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"bye hyung"},{"id":1006723335,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"bye..."},{"id":1006723336,"character_id":16739971,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"*left*"},{"id":1006723337,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he left me?...*staring at the door yoongi left with*"},{"id":1006723338,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he doesn’t have time for me anymore."},{"id":1006723339,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he changed"},{"id":1006723340,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he no longer needs me?"},{"id":1006723341,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i don’t want that."},{"id":1006723342,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"as i remember we were in a good fine relationship...*still not believing it*"},{"id":1006723343,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"how can he take decisions on his own?"},{"id":1006723344,"character_id":16999729,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"does he really leave??...*again looked at the cabin door*"},{"id":1006723345,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1006723346,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"guys i want your suggestion in something"},{"id":1006723347,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"well two mouth ago i start reading a bl manhwa..i really loved it and the character in that really remind me of my favourite ship taekook."},{"id":1006723348,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"i wanna write that manhwa so badly as taekook fanfic..that was so much hilarious and full of smu00fat..it can be masterpiece but as it’s not my story I’m really confused to rewriting it..well the real author didn’t complete it thoroughly too she drop it in between and end the storyline..so i was thinking to end it properly too with other ships stories or plot changes."},{"id":1006761384,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"just for fun and if can help me to brighten my mood up."},{"id":1006723349,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"tell me what should i do.."},{"id":1006723350,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"byeeeeud83dudc9c"},{"id":1006723351,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1006723352,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9c"}]}