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{"messages":[{"id":1092407557,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"when jimin said jungkook take care of him..he meant it..jungkook take care of his every little requirement but rarely talk with him fully with eye contact."},{"id":1092407558,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but for him if jungkook even saw him with loving eyes matters the most because he was living just for him."},{"id":1092407559,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"his love for both of them was just so pure, but society never accepted them together."},{"id":1092407560,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"tae never wanted to leave..jimin was pretending as there was no problem living together as well and was delaying his divorce topic too..it was just jungkook who couldn’t understand it, his mind was trapped with the typical thoughts, and he kept thinking about a normal couple’s relationship..for him, polyamory was not even an option if he would consider it maybe he won’t find any problem too."},{"id":1092407561,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"anyway"},{"id":1092407562,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"It was midnight and like every night jungkook woke up in the middle of sleep..he left his room and headed toward his everyday destination."},{"id":1092407563,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and that was none other than"},{"id":1092407564,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"jimin’s room"},{"id":1092407565,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he tiptoes entered there..saw jimin sleeping and like every day, tugged him into a blank carefully and sat there just to see him silently."},{"id":1092407566,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"it was his daily routine to saw jimin sleeping"},{"id":1092407567,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i..i can’t face you..I’m sorry"},{"id":1092407568,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"jungkook murdered the words as the tear skipped his eyes..he stayed there more than every day today,"},{"id":1092407569,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"as today was not the same, it’s the first time he was crying there..he never done it before..because,"},{"id":1092407570,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he knew jimin was a light sleeper but he couldn’t help himself today and what does he even think jimin doesn’t know about his late-night visits?"},{"id":1092407571,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he exactly knew, the time he always opens the door jimin usually gets aware..he sometimes even waits for him to be here and kisses him so that he could find some peace out of his restlessness."},{"id":1092407572,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he was just respecting jungkook’s anxiety..he was just waiting for him to get the courage and talk with him openly..and today he was getting so impatient as he had never before."},{"id":1092407573,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he was waiting for his good night kiss but there was no movement..he can sense jungkook was there and it made him worried more, that what’s wrong with his today’s behavior..he now wanted to open his eyes and see, but the fear that might be jungkook stopped visiting him if he gets to know about jimin’s consciousness, he actually has done it before when jimin tried to ask him the reason..so he can’t risk it again..at least it’s enough to make him happier that jungkook comes to him in his loneliness."},{"id":1092407574,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but to his relief, he felt the pair of lips touch his forehead soon..he breathed out the shaking air and tried to compose himself in his fake sleep, and soon jungkook left like always."},{"id":1092407575,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"what happened?....*uneven heartbeats*"},{"id":1092407576,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he..he was crying!...*wiped the wetness out of his cheek*"},{"id":1092407577,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"is he fine?"},{"id":1092407578,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"should i visit him?...*getting more anxious by passing seconds*"},{"id":1092407579,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but~"},{"id":1092407580,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he won’t tell me even if i visit him."},{"id":1092407581,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"the thought saddened jimin more, but he shrugged off his thoughts anyway, and pulled off his bed..he couldn’t just wait and see him in the morning."},{"id":1092407582,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but to jimin’s surprise, when he visited jungkook’s room, he found him sleeping peacefully..he saw the calmness on his face and sighed in relief before heading back to his own room."},{"id":1092407583,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1092407584,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"in the morning"},{"id":1092407585,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"boss there is an emergencyud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407586,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"did jin hyung do something?ud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407587,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"no..its about workud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407588,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"what has happened now?ud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407589,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"the company called me and he wanted to meet us againud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407590,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"now what do they want? didn’t you ask them yourself, I’m busy you knowud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407591,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"where are you busy hyung?ud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407592,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"um..self careud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407593,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"yeah I’m busy with maintenanceud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407594,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"hyung stop with your excusesud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407595,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"go visit them..i won’t be back just for one meetingud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407596,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"will i look good going without my assistance?ud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407597,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"you know I’m i’m~ud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407598,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you’re just an unknown artist..it won’t look odd at allud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407599,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"I don’t wanna go just tell them I’m busyud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407600,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"don’t behave like a child nowud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407601,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"they can reject our offer if we show them this attitude, please corporate, it’s nothing in visiting aloneud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407602,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"namjoon don’t put up things on your own and deal with it just like good assistantud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407603,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"hyung are you jealous of your brother?ud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407604,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I know you’re single for a long time, but please spare upud83dude29ud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407605,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"let me enjoy some more hyung please please pleaseud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407606,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"stop it!ud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407607,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"now tell me..what they saidud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407608,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"they want to talk face to face again with the artistud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407609,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"geez! ok I’ll see itud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407610,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I’m afraid they don’t reject the book, you did hard work and it’s pretty unique from other’s work tooud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407611,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"I know..I’m little worried as wellud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407612,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I really hope they don’t do it, you portray the story and let the character write about your travel experience for me it was a great writingud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407613,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"thanks kidoud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407614,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I’ll send you the schedule then ud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407615,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"hummud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407616,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"don’t worry, we can go with the second option..they are not the only one left on planet earthud83dude44ud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407617,"character_id":16197903,"type":2,"position":2,"content":"yeah they are notud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407618,"character_id":16999730,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"yeah great..just be confident hyungud83dudcf1"},{"id":1092407619,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1092407620,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"on the other hand"},{"id":1092407621,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"the pair of pale hands pulled up the laptop screen again after a short tea break."},{"id":1092407622,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1092407623,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"title: "the warm lotus pond""},{"id":1092407624,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"bookmarked pg: 93"},{"id":1092407625,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"continue"},{"id":1092407626,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I’m sitting beside a lotus pond, the breeze of this place is delightful and free, just like a child playing..the environment didn’t stay the same, it got changed sooner than normal..and now a days it’s chilly just like my own life."},{"id":1092407627,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but staying here, always reminds me of someone who doesn’t care and they get their way to fly just like the breeze of this village."},{"id":1092407628,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":""soo yun" a young boy called out to me and I saw him smiling like a bunny while displaying his cute teeth..hwan had become my good friend in a short time..he is really nice to me and the biggest quality of the place is him actually, not just him but all of them too the people here are really nice and hospitable."},{"id":1092407629,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":""what! you’re still writing? let’s go it’s dinner time mom is calling for us" he said again his voice was full of excitement and somehow it made me smile too."},{"id":1092407630,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":""sure hwan" I said gratefully and we start walking towards his home, I’m living with them for months now and I don’t know actually what makes me at peace the most, the place or him."},{"id":1092407631,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":""By the way, what are you writing now? I don’t think this place has much to write about.. I’m living here from my birth I don’t found any specialty" his voice was now irritated he was really bored of living in the same village he always ignores the beauty of surrounding which gives you just calmth, only the fresh breaths, he was too much involved with his dreams which are childish as he was, to go to the country and live there with the country people comparison, he doesn’t know about the people live there they are not really nice as he is..he was a naive wild young soul, but not free."},{"id":1092407632,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":""soo yun!" he called me again with his sweet voice, "you didn’t told me what you are writing for almost three months now" he laughed at me this time..For him, writing on his village was the most leisure thing ever..i just smiled as always and said,"},{"id":1092407633,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":""hwan you really can’t see the beauty here" "but the countryside is more beautiful" he cut me off to keep his argument."},{"id":1092407634,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":""This feeling is so reliable for me..this place reminds me of someone special" My voice was low but he didn’t get the pain behind it."},{"id":1092407635,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":""Don’t tell me you’re talking about "that" someone special" he grinned mischievously, making me feel awkward now."},{"id":1092407636,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":""what do you mean by ’that’ something" I couldn’t control nervousness getting the best of me"},{"id":1092407637,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":""tell me tell me please" he started jumping like a fangirl "it’s your lover right" he asked again and I just nodded hesitantly "tell me the name please" he insisted more to push me and lastly I slipped out that precious name out of my tongue "min soo, his name""},{"id":1092407638,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"My voice was faint, but not more than his facial expression..out of the fear of judgment on sexuality he worried me for some moment, but to my relief, I saw as his cheeks got crimson red and innocence was all out of his expressions now..then he spoke shyly "You like boys" "yeah" I felt anxious to tell him but he was not looking shy about it "me too," he said this time with full energy, making me sigh with relief."},{"id":1092407639,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I wish I could know it before, who showed me the other side of love was actually in love with me from the very start."},{"id":1092407640,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1092407641,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"those hands shut the laptop again..the person took a deep breath, his heart was feeling heavy with emotions he thought even if he was able to finish this book by tomorrow before the meeting."},{"id":1092407642,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1092407643,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I hope the side story didn’t bore you..and wanna guess the reader?ud83dude01"},{"id":1092407644,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1092407645,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9c"}]}