this sick love!

{"messages":[{"id":1109789817,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"love is an illness"},{"id":1109789818,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"i always fight the whole world fearlessly..even though all my fears have gone, I’m not weak anymore like before..i overcome all my anxiety and fears, just because of him, but.....I’m still weak!"},{"id":1109789819,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I’m not able to think about myself because of them."},{"id":1109789820,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"i can’t help it but to fall in love more..they were never my possession..they were not my habit, they were purely my lovers for life."},{"id":1109789821,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and i can spend my whole life with their love. I’ll never let go of them from my remembrance."},{"id":1109789822,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I’m good, being ill in love."},{"id":1109789823,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1109789824,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i should have asked you forcefully."},{"id":1109789825,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"we would have lived happily."},{"id":1109789826,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"jimin said whispered like while resting on his chest, his hands were continuously moving on his skin..they both felt so relaxed today after a while."},{"id":1109789827,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"what love?...*ruffles his hair and pasted the kiss on his temple*"},{"id":1109789828,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you were guilt-tripped all long and i was waiting for you to open up like a fool...*said sadly in pout*"},{"id":1109789829,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"now this moment jungkook snapped out of his dreamy romance..what jimin meat by this? how does he know about jungkook’s guilt??"},{"id":1109789830,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"jiminie i don’t know who told you about my guilt or even if you exactly know about the real thing or not."},{"id":1109789831,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but yeah i was in guilt...*sighed*"},{"id":1109789832,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"and today i want to confess my deeds."},{"id":1109789833,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you can judge me by it and I’ll respect your decision."},{"id":1109789834,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i won’t be mad or even force you to be with me if you decide to leave me."},{"id":1109789835,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I’ll accept it as my repentance because it’s me who hurt him the most."},{"id":1109789836,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"then how can i deserve to be happy?...*more like asking himself*"},{"id":1109789837,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"with every passing second, jungkook’s voice was falling low and impulsive..he felt like crying with his last sentence as his mind was all surrounded by tae’s thoughts..was his teachings gone in vain?..does tae never learn to be happy..was he even happy at all?"},{"id":1109789838,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"now as his heart felt heavier, jimin put his fingers on his mouth to stop him from speaking."},{"id":1109789839,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you don’t have to say anything..i know everything."},{"id":1109789840,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you don’t have to be sorry just because you love me."},{"id":1109789841,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"what do you mean jimin?...*confused*"},{"id":1109789842,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"now jungkook sat straight being all anxious...what on earth does jimin even know."},{"id":1109789843,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i..talked with tae."},{"id":1109789844,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he told me not to tell you about our conversation because you might feel more guilty."},{"id":1109789845,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but it’s ridiculous..why would you feel guilty when i never ask you about him...*scoffs*"},{"id":1109789846,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he sounded chill"},{"id":1109789847,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I’m happy that he is living his life"},{"id":1109789848,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but I’m mad, you wasted both of our lives because of him."},{"id":1109789849,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he..he contacted you?....*still not believing*"},{"id":1109789850,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"humm..i was so angry i would hang up too, but then he mentioned your condition."},{"id":1109789851,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"so that’s how our conversation started."},{"id":1109789852,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"what he said?"},{"id":1109789853,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"that he left me so you can live with me...*blank face*"},{"id":1109789854,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"like he didn’t even talk about me, he said I’m sorry jimin that i didn’t ask what you wanted and left because this is what i wanted to do at that time...*fuming inside*"},{"id":1109789855,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"and about me?"},{"id":1109789856,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you were drunk that night and told him that you can never love him, so he felt useless to stay with us."},{"id":1109789857,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he was grateful that because of your therapy he was able to make such a decision and lived his life happily."},{"id":1109789858,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but recently when he went to some publisher for his upcoming book, he met you there coincidentally and got to know about your guilt and sufferings."},{"id":1109789859,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"oh..."},{"id":1109789860,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"junngkook you should have told me before..*cuped his face*"},{"id":1109789861,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"believe me, i was not angry that much when he left me..i was angry when you forgot me even i was just right in front of your eyes."},{"id":1109789862,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i was mad because you just wanted to find him for me when i never even asked you for it."},{"id":1109789863,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"the day he left me..he left my heart too...*left his face and looked away*"},{"id":1109789864,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"jimin don’t say that..you still love him right?...*looking desperate*"},{"id":1109789865,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he loves you jimin."},{"id":1109789866,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"no he loves us both..right?"},{"id":1109789867,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you shouldn’t be like that at least...*worried*"},{"id":1109789868,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"now what are you crying for?...*annoyed*"},{"id":1109789869,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I’m telling you jungkook..it was his decision to leave us."},{"id":1109789870,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"now i want to be happy with you..If you want me too, then stop acting like a dead man and live a life."},{"id":1109789871,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"forget him like i did!...*said firmly*"},{"id":1109789872,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but jimin it’s not the whole truth...*sniff his tears away*"},{"id":1109789873,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"how could he do that?...*said lostly*"},{"id":1109789874,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you know what! when we met he told me to confess my mistake i made that night and see your reaction to it."},{"id":1109789875,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"then why would he do that? he told you like the whole other way...*grabbed his head in complications*"},{"id":1109789876,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"what are you saying? what mistake?...*felt anxious as well*"},{"id":1109789877,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I told him to leave us."},{"id":1109789878,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I told him that i can’t love him."},{"id":1109789879,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I told him many more harsh things too"},{"id":1109789880,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I was drunk..i don’t even remember what else i told him!!"},{"id":1109789881,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"And do you know the worst i did?"},{"id":1109789882,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I broke my promise."},{"id":1109789883,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I told him about where our story started..i told him how i had forcefully married you."},{"id":1109789884,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but he still left!"},{"id":1109789885,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he didn’t get mad or hurt me like you said!"},{"id":1109789886,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you know it was not just the guilt that he hurt you because of me."},{"id":1109789887,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I was guilty that i took away his peace for mine."},{"id":1109789888,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but i did not regret it because i worked hard on him..he could survive ahead."},{"id":1109789889,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but after reading his book i felt the worst inside."},{"id":1109789890,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but I’m still stubborn..i shouted at him..My mind felt angry at him for being this weak."},{"id":1109789891,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he is sick in love!"},{"id":1109789892,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he literally wrote the whole book on himself being loved by us both!"},{"id":1109789893,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he didn’t live his life jimin!"},{"id":1109789894,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he lived in his fantasies"},{"id":1109789895,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"it was all fake!"},{"id":1109789896,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"jimin"},{"id":1109789897,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"i was so confident that after my confession we would be happy ever after."},{"id":1109789898,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"but i can’t do it anymore!...*looked at him with teary eyes*"},{"id":1109789899,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I can’t do it!"},{"id":1109789900,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I can’t convince myself to be happy"},{"id":1109789901,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"jungkook was looking mad..his whole was red as he was losing his mind while tears were making their way out now and then."},{"id":1109789902,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I really can’t be happy knowing all his suffering is caused by me."},{"id":1109789903,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"just like this whole year, i couldn’t make myself happy again.."},{"id":1109789904,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"After listening to you, what he has done to save our relationship?"},{"id":1109789905,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I don’t think so i can ever be happy with myself."},{"id":1109789906,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"he burned me in my own love for just not loving him jimin...*grind his teeth painfully*"},{"id":1109789907,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I just hate him jimin...*cried out loudly*"},{"id":1109789908,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I just hate him."},{"id":1109789909,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you hate him?...*tears falling out of his eyes as well*"},{"id":1109789910,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"so you shouldn’t be concerned even if he is happy or not."},{"id":1109789911,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"jungkook i don’t think so you hate him, but now you made me want to hate you."},{"id":1109789912,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"listen to me now...*nodded his head*"},{"id":1109789913,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"I hate you both!"},{"id":1109789914,"character_id":16197905,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"jimin...*bites his lips as he felt more tears wet his cheeks*"},{"id":1109789915,"character_id":16197904,"type":2,"position":1,"content":"you’re right, we can’t make a happy pair again...*left*"},{"id":1109789916,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1109789917,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"let’s talk about some love politics here..tae told jungkook a lie about taking jimin nonserious about him because as we all know jimin always protected tae like his baby..he would definitely be angry knowing what jungkook did with him..but again if tae told that to jungkook that jimin will leave him..he will hate him and tried to degrade him that he will end up alone jungkook will felt worst as he is feeling now..but there is no way possible for a person to make his lover feel low anyhow..he tried to make the situation better and didn’t let jungkook to be discouraged and hopeless from forgiveness."},{"id":1109789918,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"but he got failed to make his plan work..he even talks with jimin as he doesn’t care about him so jimin could never feel any pity for him..he made jimin worthless and angry to the point he can’t be able to think about him."},{"id":1109789919,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"he thought if he is not happy at least his lovers could be happy together that’s why he contacted jimin and told him to not discuss it again with jungkook but unfortunately, jimin didn’t take him seriously and ended up telling jungkook so that he can never be guilt trip again..now jungkook should have take this..but no! he didn’t take this one too his emotional attachment with tae didn’t let him if he just cared about jimin he wouldn’t be a fool for not accepting the alpha’s help..he is just hurt because he cares for him too."},{"id":1109789920,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1109789921,"character_id":0,"type":3,"position":0,"image_path":"contribute/fiction/2953768/chatstory/559359/1651089876594.jpg","image_width":418,"image_height":418},{"id":1109789922,"character_id":0,"type":3,"position":0,"image_path":"contribute/fiction/2953768/chatstory/559359/1651089878599.jpg","image_width":375,"image_height":494},{"id":1109789923,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"look, with how much love jimin is looking at his babiesud83eudd7a"},{"id":1109789924,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I’m a sucker for itud83eudd27"},{"id":1109789925,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"well"},{"id":1109789926,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"let’s talk."},{"id":1109789927,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"tell me my story type."},{"id":1109789928,"character_id":0,"type":3,"position":0,"image_path":"contribute/fiction/2953768/chatstory/559359/1651089879684.jpg","image_width":360,"image_height":360},{"id":1109789929,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"straight, zig-zag or all circledud83dude04"},{"id":1109789930,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"and"},{"id":1109789931,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"maybe full of surprisesud83dude02"},{"id":1109789932,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"lastly"},{"id":1109789933,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"I’m hopeful..happy moments are no distant..yes..*nodded* we are soon getting this all mess wrapped up."},{"id":1109789934,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"bye"},{"id":1109789935,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"."},{"id":1109789936,"character_id":0,"type":1,"position":0,"content":"ud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9cud83dudc9c"}]}